What's Normal?

        When some of you might read this you might think I'm putting myself or other people down. I am not and I am not talking about certain people besides myself. This is what I have seen over the years and learning more and more about myself and who God made me to be. The question of this entry is: What's normal?
         After working with children that has a lot of problems and myself just calming down and thinking about things, there is no normality among children or people. Being a teacher's and superindent's daughter helps too. I like to believe that now I am working and around children that need help in some way or another all the time, I am seeing my weaknesses. I feel like God is turning my life around and using those weaknesses because I understand them perfectly. This is a real transparent piece of writing but I'm learning and would like to share with people.
        I'm not normal and any person who think there is such thing is not normal. I grew up all my life thinking I am normal and I have to normal. There is nothing wrong with me that I can't fix. My stubbornness there. Being a superindent's daughter should gave that thought away. People, even teachers, use to say she can do it but she just won't. Well, come to find out I can't unless I think about some things hard.
         Let's talk the most embrassing thing for me, the way I talk. The more I go to the dentist the more I think it is to the arrangement of my mouth and how God made me. I have been doing the clear retainers for a year now and I have to go back to real retainers for 4-6 months and then at nighttime. Now this is the first time for any of this. I had braces back in high school and retainers I didn't wear after that too. The dentist I'm going to now says I could do surgery on my teeth but it wouldn't help me much. I don't know if it was the way I was born or the car crash I had back in elementary school but I'm not normal. Who knows how long I have to wear those nightly retainers. I had the braces for about 5 years and after I took them off my teeth still moved back.
         Let's talk about my anxiety that I am just now taking care of for good. I don't know if it was something I was born with or developed over time mainly high school. That too has a lot to do with my stress and social life. I get worried and overthink everything to where it almost makes me sick. I started meds. back in high school but just didn't want to admit it so I stopped. Moved to AR and started on a short term med. but again I didn't want to admit it was it was only short term. Now I am on a med for long term for as long as I need it and it is helping me calm down and get things done instead of being a worrier. I just thought God could handle it all and if I give it over to Him it would be all gone. Don't get me wrong I still trust and pray that He will but a little help from med. can't hurt. People take med. for everything.
        Then I HATE and have a problem with math or anything to do with math and was in special ed. for that too with speech. I always will hate and be bad at it. Nothing can change that. I can't sit still at one job right now for long because I don't know what I want to do with my life. Thought I did in high school. Wanted to be an elementary teacher but God is showing me something else.
        People have tried to help me a long the way at home and in college and so forth. I'm just that kind of stubborn person that has to see it herself and these past going on 3 years I have. I'm sure there are other things wrong with me and I will find them down the road of life sometime. I just want to thank everyone, family and friends, that pushed me a lot on different things whether jobs, looks, sickness, or other things. I know I have people around me that really care about who I can be. It's kind of neat seeing my faults along with the children's and it is a whole new world out there. There could be something like a sickness or cure that is became new just these past 5 years that we didn't when I was a kid. It's a world and life of change every moment of everyday.