Kneeling at Christ's Feet-Part 2

         I thought I wrote the first entry about this last month but I went back and looked and I wrote it in Feb. so sorry that it has took me 2 months to "update" you on how my kneeling is going. Like I said, I have been kneeling at Christ's Feet for my prayers every night. I'm one of those people, when I was a little girl, I didn't think that really mattered but just in the two months in my adult life that I have been doing it, "WOW!" That is the only word I can find to describe it. God has turned my world upside down in all different ways.
         God has, mostly, used my Spring Bible Study "Breaking Free" by Beth Moore to really break me free of some things that God didn't want me to hold on to or what me to go ahead and do or both. Things like starting to go to college again even though I have no idea what I want to do yet and "end" a friendship that I really didn't want to but it wasn't doing me any good. It was really holding me back and has been for awhile. Just finding a lot more comfort in who God really is and things to really pray about and think about instead of all the negative things especially after things have got so confusing right now. It is once again, God's Prefect Timing. It is also showing me that I can hear from the Holy Spirit and have discernment if I would just listen really carefully. All things that have happened, I heard before they happened but I was scared to do them earlier in the year and I could tell something was up.
          Yet, at the same time, I feel like God has rebuilt some old friendships and gave me some new ones along the way. People that can relate and actually really care for me and how I'm doing. I'm still in the process of trying to build that friendship circle and that accountability partner thing but I'm working on it. It is getting easier as the days go on.
          Then another Bible study that God has been using for me and is an answer to prayer is called "Soul Care". It is for women of any ages and it meets twice a month. It is all about the soul and what it really is and what God really does with it. I had no idea about the soul until I started going to this study and it is a very important and growing one too. It is based off the book called "Soul Keeping" by John Ortega. I have it but I haven't started to read it yet. Things have been so busy. I usually don't cry at these studies but this past Monday I did for some time. I had to go into the bathroom and hide for a few mins. because I had to just cry out. We were talking about how are we glorifying God and with everything going on in my life right now and not knowing the answer to that for the first time in my life, I just started to cry and couldn't stop. I still have no idea but I know people that will be right along side me to help me if needed.
            When I'm at Christ's feet, I just feel a comfort that like I can prayer for anything and He can hear me. Then for a few moments I just stay there and put my head on my bed and am just quite to enjoy that peace that I get, sadly, once a day. I wish I could explain more but really you have to live my life to see how it works because there are just no words to explain it all. God has also done a lot. Too much that I don't have time for writing it all down. There has been days and weeks where I have almost just gave up at work because things would get too out of control but God gave me His Strength to get through that day. There has been meetings and get togethers that I was just sacred of and worried about but God gave me peace before and after those things.
              I can just see God work more when I am on my knees talking to and with Him. My life has changed just in these past couple of months because of the posture I am while praying. I remember kneeling on my knees when I was a little girl but I did it for only like a week and I saw nothing so I gave up. That is why I challenged myself to do it for at least a month to see if change can happen and a lot of changes have happened. It is a for sure thing for me now until I get too old to bend down to the ground anymore. I might even do a Part 3 if you all are interesting in one because I know God is just starting on some things that will make a big difference in my life and help me grow closer to Him or I might just write it as something else on here. We'll see when the time comes.
              Here are some of my favorite songs about kneeling at Christ's Feet in prayer (just the words because I don't know how to do the other things:

               There are days when I feel
The best of me is ready to BEGIN.
Then therere days when I feel
I'm letting go and soaring on the wind.
Cause I've learned in laughter or in pain
How to survive.

I get on my knees, I get on my knees;
There I am before the love that changes me.
See I don't know how, but there's power
When I'm on my knees.
I can be in a crowd
Or by myself, in almost anywhere
When I feel there's a need
To talk with god; he is emmanuel.
When I close my eyes no darkness there,
There's only light.

On My Knees By: Jaci Velasquez

Perfume A Tus Pies

Cuando pienso en tu amor

y en tu fidelidad

no puedo hacer mas que postrarme
y adorar
y cuando pienso en como he sido
y hasta donde me has traido
me asombro de ti

No me quiero conformar
he probado y quiero mas

Yo quiero enamorarme mas de ti
enseñame a amarte y a vivir
conforme a tu justicia y tu verdad
con mi vida quiero adorar
todo lo que tengo y lo que soy
todo lo que he sido te lo doy
que mi vida sea para ti
como un perfume a tus pies

Cuando pienso en tu cruz
y en todo lo que has dado
tu sangre por mi
por borrar mi pecado
y cuando pienso en tu mano
hasta aqui hemos llegado
por tu fidelidad

No me quiero conformar
he probado y quiero mas

Yo quiero enamorarme mas de ti
enseñame a amarte y a vivir
conforme a tu justicia y tu verdad
con mi vida quiero adorar
todo lo que tengo y lo que soy
todo lo que he sido te lo doy
que mi vida sea para ti
como un perfume a tus pies

CHALLENGE: Kneel at Christ's feet for at least a month and then tell me if you can't see a difference in your life made by Him.