What is God's Sovereignty?

         As I look back at least year around this time during the month of April, I have noticed that God has been teaching me a lot about just trusting and following Him. I look back at those entries from last year and they all have the titles like "God Puts Life in Order", "Come+Trust=Changed Life", "God's Love and Power on the Cross", "The Narrow Road", and on. Those are all entries about His Sovereignty but yet here I am a year later still trying to find out what that looks like in my life. More so then ever right now.
          Before I get started too deep into that, I just want to say that I'm sorry I haven't wrote in awhile. Things have been very busy for me. I got to help Compassion International at their booth at a Natalie Grant concert on Sunday night at a church near where I live. Then Monday, I went to my parent's house to get my new car and that is a whole other story of its own after this one. There there is always work that keeps me busy and other appointments for things.
           Things were so hard at the start of this week but yesterday when I spent time with a friend and got to talk to that friend just made my whole week better because now I know there is someone out there that will listen and likes to listen. Not only that but we have about the same things and thoughts in common. Just feels like she gets me. We did talk about what prayer really was, what God's sovereignty was, and His grace and way for us in our lives. We also talked about what our lives really mean to Him and how we should live it out for Him. I shared some things that has been going on in my life lately and things I've never told anyone else before and she seemed cool with it. Yes, we talked about career, past, future, how to treat ourselves in singleness and even guys but in a way that I needed to see all those things for myself.
             I have always been one of those girls who thought she was going to get married straight out of college or at the age of 25 and that hasn't happened yet but after the talk I'm glad it hasn't. Yes, I want someone beside later in life but not when I have no clue what to do with that person. We talked about how we can learn from our friends' marriages and that is way easier then going through it on own our. Talked about how God has lead us to where we are today because He wants something big to happen for us. God can put life changes and events in our lives in ways we never thought possible and He can change on mind one thing to the other. We talked about changes in jobs and how in the 20s that happens a lot.
           What really stood out to me while we were talking was the way my friend explained God's way of life and His Sovereignty. We are in God's Sovereignty everyday if we chose to be. It is not a main thing that happens over time for just one time. It happens everyday if we will let it and it happens in everything we do. If we give our day over to God everyday, then we are in His Sovereignty. Sovereignty is kind of like God's Will. By that, I mean we have to take on actions here on earth. God will give us little signs like some things people says, the right song at the right time, or the job before another job to help us better prepare for what is coming. God does prepare us for the entry to Heaven. He doesn't just leave us hanging out on the earth alone.
            There might be two great paths that we can take in life but which one is will lead to God's bigger picture for us. My friend puts it this way and it is from a movie she saw. Think about you being in New York City on the streets and all you can see is a few blocks down. Now think of God standing on top of a tall building and He can see for miles away and you can do if you are on top of that building. You see what is 10 blocks down that street instead of 2 blocks down when you are walking it. God just has the bigger picture in mind and if we can trust and follow Him then we will see that bigger picture too.
            To share a little of how my puzzle and little pieces go together, I think God is creating for me. Children have always been my passion and always will be. I thought I wanted to be a elementary teacher but I became a preschool teacher instead. Well, that wasn't going to well for me because my personality is the shy type so I moved on to where I work now and that is just taking care of children in a home like setting. I'm praying about the next step but I think God has me where He has me now because He wanted me to see that I like helping children one on one the best and that there is more children can learn then just in school. Children also needs therapy to learn how to do everyday things called OT. The job that I have now shows me what a difference therapists can do by doing the simplest things will children just one on one. Yet I can do the therapy in a school or by myself by going around to different places. When I look back on my past, I can see where God changed the path to save me from things I never saw during that time.
             There was also a year where I wanted to be a missionary so bad but I have learned my lesson through the job I have now. It is hard to see the children in the states living like they are with no excuses but laziness on their parents' part. I also have a hard time with taking care of myself because I care so much for these children. Would I even make it overseas as a missionary or would I be sick all the time? So I feel like God gave me the job I have now to make a big change while I can still handle myself at times. God does know what He is doing in our lives whether it seems like it at the time or not. It might seem crazy most of the time but I believe if you are following God with your heart and soul you will look back and see what God was doing back then. You will see it as an answer to prayer. I've seen it in jobs, future plans and dreams, and guy friends. There are some guys that I'm thankful I didn't end up marrying or became close friends with. I would not have done the things that I have done if I did like traveling and making a difference.
            My friend also pointed out spending money on yourself while still single and I really like that part. Buy those books, dishes, clothes, jewelry or anything you want now because when you get married you will have to spend it on your husband and children to mer their needs. Something I'm thinking about spending some of my money on right now is to sponsor 2 more children through Compassion International and travel those children's centers in their country. That is another way to make a different while I am single and free.
           I know, as girls and even some guys, just can't wait to get married and have that little dream come true especially for girls because we were meant for that caring and nurture side of life and what better way then to be married, right? For me right now and maybe some others out there, there are so many ways to get involved in children's lives as a single and you could touch more lives then just how ever many you dream of having. You can help at a children's shelter, sponsor a child through any program, Christian or non Christian, be around children at parks and stores and talk to them, and so on.
         Singleness is really a gift in life. That might be a cliche but now that I'm living it more and seeing other people live it and how they do. That gives me some ideas to live my own singleness out and it is just amazing to see. Yes, I had all these plans to get married but God has a bigger plan for me and it is a better one too. I never dreamed of the single life past 25 years of age but now that I'm there and seeing other women live it out too it is just amazing to know and see that I'm not the only one like that. I have other women beside me and even older that have never been married but lives a wonderful life for the Lord.