life. I just worried about things that were coming up and what they were going to be like. I kept asking myself, "Is this the path I really want to take?" and I still haven't decided just yet on which 2 paths I should take but I will say yesterday was one of my hardest days I had in awhile and God sent a friend to help me through whether that friend knows it or not. That friend put a video on their Facebook page and it was just showing what my friend was thinking about in life right now. My friend talked a lot about temptations and being accountable for certain people and things. The whole video just got me thinking a lot about my future too and even now to where I can get through the hard things that come my way.Let me talk about temptations first because I've had a lot of little ones the past few months. In the video, my friend talks about and mentions the big temptations like boy/girl relationships, drugs, violence, and other things. While those are the the main ones in people's lives and they are the ones we think about most but when I look at the temptations in my life it none of those but I've had a lot. I will say that I've had some crushes on boys in high school
and off and on throughout life. That is just a typical girl thing but that is a temptation especially when we let that guy control our lives whether by being scared of him or just worry he might do something wrong. Some of my other temptations are: devilish thoughts instead of Christ like thoughts, job can be one if thinking about it too much, eating, sleeping, money, your looks, friends, and so on.Now some of you might be thinking what in the world does she mean by those temptations. Those really aren't temptations. Yes, they are. A temptations is anything that takes your
life and focus off of God. It is when you depend on those things to make you feel better or to lead you in life. It could even be the easiest of things because you want to take the easy way out and not the hard way that God has planned for you. I know and will admit that sleeping and friends have took my time away from God because I rather not think about what He is telling or teaching me. I would rather not talk to Him about this thing but I would talk to a friend. There is a balance in between those things and you just have to find it.Now for the question: Who am I Accountable
to? We all know that our 1st accountability partner should be God, Himself. We should go to Him for and with everything that is happening in our lives. We should ask Him the questions that are on our minds and the temptations we are having a hard time leaving. Everything goes through God first and we depend on Him to lead us to the person or friend that can give a God-like answer. Then God puts people in our lives to be accountable to us and for us to be accountable to them so He can get us/them on the path He has planned for us/them. It could be the same person and you both agree to do it back and forth or it could one person accountable for you and then you are accountable for another person. There are times where He won't lead us to people but to His Word, which is the most important tool of all. He will get us alone with Him and His Word and just lead us where we need to be and what we need to learn. I know I have spent a lot of time by myself with God. Sometimes to it could just be spending time with Him in prayer or even in His Creation alone.I will say I have very few friends that I'm accountable to or we just never expressed or talked about it. The people I am accountable for, I feel like, is my family, the children I work with, and like I said I have few friends too. It wasn't until I watched my friend's video that I thought this very thought and it is strange but true. I am accountable to my children at work at this moment in my life. I am the only one that can speak for them when they can't speak for themselves. I'm the one out of a few people that are always there for them. I make them behave but at the same time I love on them with everything I have. All my energy and strength and I'm not kidding. There are some days where I just want to come home and go to sleep and I do for a little bit.
Isn't that Accountability and Love, though? Speak to and for them/Encourage, always be there no matter what, show them that I love them even if they make mistakes, and love them with everything I have. Those things could be for any person that you have a relationship/friendship with. That how humans run in life. We need encouragement, love, and someone to watch out for us.
At the same time though, those children are holding me accountable maybe it is depending on the day or just all the time. If I wake up with my personal life just being a mess and so confusing, I go to work and I have to leave that behind so I can help the children. They also remind me of the simplest things sometimes whether the say it or act it out. They show me that God can change a person for the better and to never give up. They make me hold my patience in some days so I leant to have better patience with them and other people in my life. They are growing me into who I really am while I'm helping them to do the same thing. I feel like I can be a leader at my place of work or just anywhere where I work with children because they "help" me so much. It is strange to think about it that way but it is true.
If anyone has children, you know what I'm talking about. It is almost like you have to be perfect and not lose your
cool in front of them because they will say something or act out in some way. None of us are prefect so sometimes children remind us how to behave ourselves. Also, if you know me, you know that is where my heart is and that children are my life's passion. It, honestly, hurts my heart to see or even hear some of the things I do. It is like once I get to know the child, then I'm accountable for them 100% so yes, I'm going to be their leader and tell you what I think they need if they can't speak.Anyways, this is just something that has been on my mind again
for the past few days and I haven't wrote in awhile so I thought it was time to write again. "This is alright. This is what I'm suppose to be doing (until God shows me otherwise)."-saying by a friend of mine that rings true for me too but inside the parentheses are my words that I added. Talk about accountability. :)
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