Discovering Who I Am in Christ

           Today was one of those days that were just full of surprises and gave me more things to do this week when I had nothing to do. God always has a way to fill up your week if you would just let Him or even if you don't, He still will. It was one surprise after the other for me. Surprises where it made me understand things more clearly and gave me a sight into things. He is MY COMFORTER AND GUIDE.
          I started out the morning by just getting up like usually but I was bored after I got ready for the day so I decided to get on my college email account and see if there was anything important for me. There wasn't per say just for me but I did find out a lot more about the college and what I can do there. I found out that I could get a part time job there is I wanted to and make some money while going to classes but it is all through a work study way. It is mainly office jobs. Then I found out that I could get some scholarships to help pay my way through college and I wasn't really interested in any of them but then I looked into them just to make sure. I found one that went through an online babysitting website that I use to use during my undergrad so now I'm thinking about signing up for that one if I happen to go next fall. Still trying to get all the details worked out and I need some more explanations on everything.
           Then it was time to go to my Bible study but it was more like a getting to know how the church runs type of class. It is called: Discovery Mosaic. A person has to take or it is strongly encouraged to take this class if you want to be more involved the church. It gets you started in a small community and then helps you find your spot within the church. It doesn't matter when you take it. I have been going to this church for 3 years now and I'm just now taking it. For me, it is a sign that I am ready to settle down here at this church and be involved in anyway that I can. It is sort of one of the many commits that I'm trying to make for God. That might sound a little strange but in my mind it makes perfect sense. I need a physical thing to tell me that I am committed to something and with all these things and changes going on around me I need that right now.
           I feel like the group that I'm going to be with this summer is going to be a fun one. I already met a girl that I have a lot in common with and just moved here 10 months ago. She is looking for a church and her spot in the community and church so it would be fun to help her along.
            It has been a hard past 3 years. I've learned a lot about God and myself and who I am in Him but I just can't seem to commit to anything yet. I'm very bossy and pushy and I can't seem to change my thought life for the better. I'm just praying this will be a good start for the better. I feel like God has called me here to AR but for another reason then I am doing now. I guess my problem to start with was I moved here because my friends were here and now we don't talk very much so I need something to keep my life in tacked with and someone to talk to about my problems. I hurried up picking out a job so I could move down here and losing that job was no fun and now losing my friends is no fun either.
            I just haven't felt settled for the 3 years and I want to now. I want to have friends I can count on. That won't keep moving away or getting married. All those are great but I want some few friends that no matter what changes goes on in their life, they care about me enough to be there for me without me having to reach out a lot. I want a deeper life here in AR. I am really ready to settle in this great natural state.
            Then after my Bible study, I was driving home and drove by some new apartments I have never seen before so I stopped by and asked some questions like how much they were and if they had any apartments available in Aug. or around that time. I found a 2-bedroom apartment for $404. That is way less then I'm paying now for where I live and it is just on the other side of the road. It is still close to everything like that parks, family, job, and college when I start going but only cheaper. It is also about the same size as the one I'm living in now if not bigger because it has 2 bedrooms. I could move into that apartment sometime in August for sure where the others I'm on the list for as no idea when I would be able to move in.
            It was just a God Blessed day for me! God spoke to me in a lot of ways and confirmed that I was on the right path but I just might have to wait a little longer until He gets that OT program set up at the community college.