Weekend with a Life Story

         As always, I've had another busy past week and weekend but it was a good busy one. I got to go home this past weekend and it was a much needed time of rest and just to reconnect with people that I haven't connected with in a long time. I went to a small town from the country to getting sick. So in this 3 days weekend it I gave myself, I've done a lot. I called it a weekend with a life story because if I think about it I went through the 3 phases of life in some of my favorite places and not so favorite places from childhood. I went to the start of life to living the dream to the end of life and it was neat to see different people in those different times of life. Got me thinking where am I right now? The answer to that, I think, is the living the dream part and finding out what that is for me.
         I will start explaining my weekend by talking about a friend's wedding that I went to and that was the start of a new beginning in life. I went to a old childhood friend's wedding on Saturday and it was a nice, simple wedding. I would not expect anything more then what was there. It was a small church wedding with the dinner afterwards in an old metal building. It was at the wedding that I thought back to 4th grade and college and the days in between there. The bride was my friend and we have been friends since I have been in 4th or 5th grade. My older sister started babysitting them and they would come over to my house all the time it seemed like.
        It was also a sad time for me because I'm older then my friend is and just seeing her get married before me was hard but I was and still am happy for her. I've also been through some hard times lately with different people and those memories came to mind during the wedding too. You know how a girl gets when she isn't married but goes to all these weddings and wishes for her own wedding someday. It is even harder when there is a guy you like but you can't do anything about it.
        Right after the wedding, I went to watch my ninces pursue their dream of becoming famous singers and they leave today for GA to get a record made of them singing. They are 15, 13, and 10 years old and they are already giving up everything for their dreams. They will be in GA for a month and a half this summer making a record. They are an inspriation to me (their own aunt) because I haven't found that perfect dream job for me yet. When they can do that as young as they are, that is amazing. I will say that every time I hear them or watch them sing, I want to stop what I am doing and go for my own dream. That is the same way ever time I watch my friend's show. I just know there is something bigger for me out there then I am living now.
        Then Sunday, I went to an old friend's house for a visit and we spent about 3 hours just talking together. Before I left, we went to the ceramenty and looked at a grave that I haven't seen since the person had passed away. It was a beautiful grave. New looking stone of course and just every thing that that person has done in life and the speical dates in his life on that stone. It was just amazing to see! I did buy a little wooden cross after Memorial Day to put by the grave and I did that when we went to look at it.
        It has been a weekend about life and how I should be living it and I see where I am right now. I'm in the living the dream part. What is that dream for me? What am I good at that I love to do? What is God's purpose for me on this earth? It has been hard this weekend because everything I have been involved in has shown me that I could be doing more then I am now. Yes, I'm doing something important right now but I feel like there is something bigger just waiting for me out there. Something that does use all my talents or at least more then I am using right now and showing that I am being appicated because I'm using my talents and knowledge.
        I know part of my life dream is to marry and have a family and if I don't get that far at least have a decent house that I can live in by myself with a dog maybe out in the country. I just don't feel like I can do that now with where I am because things are too stressful for me. I need to focus and can focus on only one thing right now and that thing is 12 children and that wears me out. I hope this doesn't sound to jealous and all about me but we do have desires and dreams and these are some of mine. I know God knows them and understand them well and they will happen someday when God knows I am willing and ready to make those dreams come true.