This morning was kind of a sad one for me at work. I got to know the children more and some of them have sad stories. There was one story that really got me. It was about one of the boys. I also had a sad little girl this morning. The little girl was crying because she was mad and either mom or dad. It sounded like she didn't get breakfast either yet. She was so sad that she had to get her little suggy to hug this morning. It made her stop crying too.
There was this little boy that I watched too and he lives with his grandma. His Grandma shared a little bit about what was going on in his life because he had some issues at school this past week that she thinks might have something to do with what is going on. Let's just say that the grandparents just got custody of this little boy not too long ago so everything is new to him. The grandma even said today that the mom said to the little boy (her own boy) "you can't come with me. I have to work on myself for a little bit."
That right there just wanted to make me start to cry and then we had other children come in from the broken homes and going in between homes that weren't just having it today for some reason. Everyone was having a hard Friday. The thing the little boy did was he took something out of his grandpa's wallet without his grandpa knowing and was going to give (aka trade) it with another little boy at school for something else. The more I stay around this job the more I notice it is exactly where I need to be for now. My mission has always been the public schools because I was raised in them as a student and a teacher's kid. I know how the staff can be but I also know what kind of children there can be too. With the way teachers are going now and really it is the government's fault, we look pass the child's home life and focuses on what needs to get done for the dumb testing at the end of the year.
Where I graduated high school from was not an easy place or school. There were a lot of poor children and needy children. I see that more now since I have been around more. Sometimes I wish I could go back and help my friends even and some of the younger ones but I also feel like now with my jobs I am making up that lost time. There are a few I helped back home and I still sty in connection with them through Facebook some but other I don't and that is sad. I was such a high schooler back then but now that I look back I wish I have been a little more grown up so I could have seen what was right in front of me. I could have helped my friends instead of just pushing them off to the side. I could have looked more into their lives then just assuming things. I could have done a lot more then I did back then. I will admit I was so me focused though.
Maybe that is something I will teach my children if I ever have some of mine own someday. Don't assume and don't judge and push people away. They need you just as much as you need them. I know my parents tried to teach me that too and they did a good job but now that I look back I just wish I knew more and were more outgoing too to ask hard questions and just talk to them deeply, you know?
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