Prayer to Change Me

          Daddy, can I be honest now? I am messed up and old. What guy would like me like I am? Going to be living with a cat, reading books, making lists, liking routines, micro managing that turns to anxiety and so on. I would make them feel old and confused. How would they keep up with me? Oh! Let's not forget my perfection, stubbornness, long time to process, and my OCD. Not only did it talk me til the next day to remember something, took me until something was done to put one to one together, even thought I thought it sounded familiar.
           Daddy, all this goes with my friendships and relationships too. When someone said the word "micro manage", I went straight to a friend of mine in my mind and I think that's what upsetted me the most about this whole thing. Have I and did I do that when we were talking? Did it really get that bad and I just didn't see it until now like that? Until someone said something to me about it? Have I really messed up in this time of my life and others because of my dumbness? I really need to let go and Let You! I just pray it isn't too late for some things in my life. I pray for control over this whole  new thing about me. You are just trying to make me more like You. I can't be micro managing everything and/or everyone like I do. I just need to find a way to handle it better.


In Jesus' name,

Amen