Where is my Defining Moment?

       I'm writing now because I have a really busy week ahead of me and probably won't get to write for the next week if I don't have to. I'm getting ready for a vacation and then I have a lot of work meetings to attend to so won't have time. I wanted to write about what God has been teaching me this past week and last night at church. Don't you hate it when the sermons at church match up to what you are learning without even known or thinking about it. Not only that but you know God has already been there because it also goes with the situation in your life at that time.
        I had a favorite saying this week and it was from my summer Bible study group and it is, "As you release it, God releases a miracle to you."-Priscilla Shirer. My week's study was on how to spend time with God so you can get a double potion of a miracle later on in life. It is like spending Sunday to get ready for the week. Like catching up and/or finishing housework but yet it is spending time with God so you have more energy and wisdom later for the harder things that come your way. If that wasn't enough to get me thinking and letting go of things, the sermon last night had to be about David and Goliath and how David had his defining moment while fighting Goliath. Not only did he have a defining moment but it was because you could see that David's heart was after God's own heart.
        I got a saying from that sermon to that I am going to hold on to this week and it is: "David made God's purposes his own and then trusted God with other things that he wanted."  Meaning another thing that I learned in my own Bible study, "Take care of God's business, and let Him take care of yours." I like it more that way because it is more straight forwards for me. It really all comes down to: "Obey-God will take care of the rest." It is so funny that God is teaching me this at this moment in my life because I have a lot going on whether simple or hard. I got a job that I like because of the children but trying to get other people to see that some things need to be change there. Trying to let God be in control of my future married life and not to worry about that.
        Right now, all I think about that is God's business and that I need to take care of are the children where I work and myself. That might seemed to be a little bit selfish but in a way it is true. God says, "Take care of the temple that I have given you because it is a holy temple for me"-worded differently by me. There is a verse in the Bible that talks about that though. God will lead me where He wants me in His Time and His Place. I understand that I might have to work for it and I am in a lot of ways where I am now. I'm growing up a lot where I am at. Sometimes I don't even feel right about taking care of the children because I'm not in the right state of mind. I just so sleepy, stressed out, and worried that I shouldn't be taken care of the children.
         I can see where there might be a defining moment for me at this job I'm at now but I still think I have a ways to go to have that defining moment in my life as a whole. It is neat to see how God anointed David to be king at a young age and then he had to wait years for the fight with Goliath to come along so God could prove he was the next to be king not only by strength but by David's heart for God. I have thought about a lot of things that I might want to do but none of them has really poked out yet. I have narrowed it down to two things though which is really good compared to how many I had when I first moved to AR and this job has helped me a lot in that narrowing down of choices.
         I either want to be an OT or want to work with foster children in some way. I would seriously take the children in by myself if I could. If I had the house and so on to do it. I just can't see me working for any other children now that I have worked with the children I do. There has to be an "easier" way for who I am though. Then there is always that childhood dream of getting married and having my own children. I could have 3 defining moments in my life if all these would come true. Each one is a different chapter of my life story. I'm sticking to these and not backing down like I have in the past. There has to be a way to do all 3 of them.
       With God by my side, I know I will get them all done. Notice how challenging they are all? None of them will be easy but then again I like challenges because they just make me grow closer to God by depending on Him more, which is what my life is all about. Living to Glorify Him and no one else. I might be a stranger to this world but I'm not a stranger to God and that is all that matters in life.