Calling of God

        Why do I feel like God is making sure I know my calling and why do I feel like He is getting me to trust Him again? Was my last job that bad that I did not notice it? Did it really bring me down in a year? I feel like all the verses I am reading and hearing are about callings of people and trusting of God.
          Does God really have to bring me back up from the pit? It also feels like God is making sure I know my calling. Yes, it is true. I was doubting it for a few months because I felt like no one would listen to me. Why do I have such low self esteem at times?
           I know I was doing the right things and will keep doing the right things until they are over. I can have the courage for the little children of God. Even though they are children, they deserve respect and help too. I never want to doubt where I should be again. If that starts to happen, then I need to stop before I get far into the pit of doubting.
           I pray that it never will, though, now that I know the feeling of it.