Praying for Children

          I going to share another future prayer and just some thoughts that really woke me up at 4:30 in the morning because I could not get my mind to stop thinking about this certain thing. Yet the thoughts have helped me understand more and more about becoming a parent and why parents are so "freaked out" when it comes to their children so now I don't blame them at all, especially since I have seen both sides of children.
          God really just spoke to me this past Tuesday and because of that I woke up and started to talk to Him and he started to talk back and I wanted to understand but I'm still trying to and watching for His answers to my prayers. Here is the prayer that I prayed to Him about my future with children:

"Dear Daddy,
           This is what I get for not talking to You at night? Wake up 3 hours before I have to be at work? I guess it is a good way to start living it. There is a subject on my mind though, and that is children. I know I still might have awhile until I have my very own but working with them has raised lots of questions yet makes me sure of what I want to do do. I have always wanted to be a stay at home mom because that was how I was raised but now it is so much more then just that. I see the differences it can make in a child's life. I see the things I might miss. I would have to trust other people and knowing the field of childcare that is hard to do. It doesn't help working in the field. It would be more then just 3 people taking care of my children because there is such a turnover where I go. It would be more like 10 others. I'm a worry wart and bad at talking anyways. I think it is because I know how questioning the workers feel. I know parents question for the safety of their children but being on both sides could be hard. Daddy, sometimes I feel dumb because I don't have my own children. Like there are certain things I don't know yet because of that reason and it is hard to experience it without having your own children. How am I suppose to put my feet in a parent's shoe if I don't know the true feelings yet? I'm not doubting because I am learning but I am asking for wisdom and patience for me and everyone around me. It is hard getting back into the routine of having parents care so much for their children. It's good but hard at the same time. How do these things go on in my head when I am asleep? I sound a lot like Mary, Sarah, and some other women of the Bible carrying out for children, don't I? That's is just our nature, as women, but I will still wait for Your Timing because I want mine to be "perfect", using that word very loosely. No more doubting on this subject, though, it is a for sure thing for me. Even with all the "realness" that needs to go with it, it will be worth it someday. Wow! Am I really getting to that age?" - In Christ's Love, Amen"

            Right after I wrote that prayer down, I was reading my 5 mins. Bible study and it was about Sarah and Abram waiting to have a son of there own. It was also about how God has promised them a son but they both doubted because of their old age. God kept telling Abram that He will keep His promises to Him and will make a great nation with the son that is going to be born. This was in Genesis Chapter 17:5-21. The 5 min. devo. was called "A Better Plan". God was also talking to Abram about the new changed life He would bring along with their son "Isaac". Abram had to trust God in everything for quite some time before this all happened but yet there were little things He had to do for God.
            In the chapters before Chapter 17, Abram (Abraham) trusted God Plans for him but didn't trust God's process so he tried another way but God still forgave him and made sure he trusted Him this time around. God made sure that Abraham trusted Him by "an invitation to stretch Abraham's Faith". He completely had to trust God for his son. Do you see how strange this devo. came after the prayer that I prayed. It was about trusting God with a child, not only that but with everything in our lives. I read the chapters before and after this chapter and it is amazing to see how much trust Abraham had for just one child but yet that one child was an important child. That child was going to rule many nations because God had promised His father that.
          This chapter also shows that if we trust in God, bigger and better things will happen. Better things then we ever thought possible. God can promise whatever He wants to promise, and He will give that to us if we just follow His Path for us. We cannot take the matters of God into our own hands. When God says He got this, we need to trust in Him and leave it at that. We cannot rely on our own thoughts, feelings, talents, or skills to help us, only God can. The question that was asked in my devo. was: What are you relying on to "help God" make His promises a reality in your life?" The more and more I think about these whole few chapters and my prayer for children, it really gets down deep on a personal level in my life. I think, no I know, God is trying to tell me to trust Him with something that is going on in my life and things will turn out for His Glory, not mine nor anyone else's
           This is a prayer that I could keep praying on and on about until that deep feeling gets met somehow.