2014 is God's Year

      Let's see. What did I get done last year? I got a job that I love and still working at it by happy about 100 children. I also helped my parents move closer to me. That's about it on the good part of it. This is is going to be more then that happening on the good side. I know who I am now and I'm trusting God all the way because I have no idea what is in store for me after He has worked in my life this past year. Things have changed a lot for the good and the bad and it is mostly because of my job but I wouldn't trade for anything in the world.
       My main goal this year is to let God have control and just be me in Him. I realized why try to be something that I'm not. I love my job but has always I feel like there is something more for me this year that is bigger and better. I can tell you two things I do plan on looking at bigger apartments and learning to shoot a hunting gun or bow. Other then that, I have no idea what God has for me this year.
        I've learn a lot about myself over the past year. The children have taught me a lot. I really do have compassion for the children and when you are the only one that takes the time to understand them that can be hard with as many children as I have to work with. I wish I could make a list of what I have learned about me. I know I'm not the same person as I was a year ago for sure. The biggest thing that God has taught me this is though is to Trust Him with everything. Trust Him with the children, trust Him with a job, trust Him with my friends, trust Him with the little things in life, and trust Him to lead me. I hate it when I can't put things into perfect words and that is how this past year has been. I've tried but don't know if I've done a good job with it or not.
       I just feel like I wasted my year sometimes because I felt like I have become a work-a-lic but it is for a good reason. I try not to say that I wasted a yea because helping about 100 children is not wasting anything for me because it is my passion. I've also learned a lot about my passion and it is just getting deeper. It's strange and I'll be real hear for a second. I've been crying a lot these past two days because it is just one of those times you have no idea what God has in store for you. Nothing is in my control and even though God tells me to trust Him I'm still scared. I'm hoping to work on my boundaries and maybe that will give me some control, but God most of the control, of my life this new year and I pray that they are God's boundaries not mine. Question is: Will I really stick with them and make my life worth living this year? Will I look back at 2014 and say those boundaries helped me have a happier, healthier life?
        I think I can do the boundaries better then I could have last year (2012) or in high school because I know now that boundaries is all that life is. I have the books "Boundaries" by Dr. Henry Cloud and Dr. John Townsend and then two books by my favorite childhood star Candace Cameron Bure called "Reshaping it All" and "Balancing it All". I know you have to live life to learn and you can't just learn by a book but these books can be tools to help me. My biggest thing to work on this year with God is my motivation for physical and spiritual fitness. I'm sure bow and gun hunting can help with with my physical part somehow. :)
          Just thinking I need to write out a daily schudle for me too to start my year off and put it where I can see it so that would help with my days. I was thinking about putting it with some of my boundaries and I still could but putting it in like a schulde can help me a lot too.