Failure vs. Learning

       This week has fit my blog title well and so have my experiences strangely enough. It's been a hard time for me at work and in my personal life this week. Get those two things together and nothing goes right. That's how I felt this week. I felt like I failed a lot more then one time. I was the only one in preschool working and after day one being by myself. I felt like I was doing every little thing wrong. I would fill something out wrong or forget to do something and so on but never once would I get a thanks for working during this hard time. I know I don't do my work for man but it would be nice every once in awhile espically when it is really hard.
         If those two days weren't enough to make me feel like a failure, let's add another situation in to where I'm suppose to feel safe and smart and actully thought I was going to have a reasonable day into the week. If I didn't feel like much of a failure after working two days by myself, let's add a situation in where I've failed at least 5 times and put that on top of the 3 times I've failed this week as a reminder of you are a failure. This all is how I felt when I got home last night but talking to some of my friends have helped a lot. I stayed up late talking to one of my friends last night and then I talked to one this morning and she really helped me see the situation I am right now in a whole new way.
         As most of you know, my heart is for children, as has been and always will be. I learned best from children because they are who I am around most of the time. Children are great teachers because they are not scared of anything or to say anything. They will tell you like it is and act like it is. My friend pointed out to me that I'm not a failure but a learner. I'm just learning things slowly and in a different way then other people. With children, they learn different ways too whether visual, them talking to you, or physical they learn different ways. For me, I am a visual learner most of the time espically in school. I think through life though I might be the person that you just have to tell it like it is face to face whether it will hurt me or not.
            I do get a lot out of people's actions and I know when something is up when they are acting differently around me. If you want me to really understand who you are and why you are doing what you are doing, then you need to tell me face to face because I'm also the kind of person that tends to think more then she should about everything. I daydream a lot. Always have and again always will. I'm being a learner in life right now and you never stop learning new things in life because once you get one thing fiurgred out then you have another thing to deal with it seems like. I'm learning who I am though my children at work, family, and my older friends.
            One lesson I'm learning right now espically though the children I work with is that we all want to feel like we are loved and wanted. For us, Christians, we are loved and wanted by Christ and there is no better person to be loved and wanted by. As those little children look up to me every time they fail at something or learning something new about life, that life can be great, I'm learning that Christ loves and wants me just like those children want me. Why do I strive for earthly love and want when I have the best two loves there are on this earth-Christ and children? Who could ask for more then that? I'm blessed in so many ways and I lost track of that this past week espically yesterday when everything went out of wrack. It is a hard thing to remember on my part but I need to try and remember it. We all do if we have Christ as our Savior.
              We all learn different ways and at different times. None of us are failures. God just has a different road for us to go down then the person beside us. God has a time table for each of us, to make us beautiful, and in ways if it is meant to bring people in and out of your lives then all you can do is thank them for being there when they were and thank God for putting them there at the hardest of times,  the easiest of times, both, or all.