EveryTHING is Meaningless

        I'm loving the book of Ecclesiastes right now more then ever and that I have to say is my favorite book because of chapter 3 and it was my Grandma's favorite book and those verses in chapter 3 was her favorite verses. I have looked a lot at this book over and over just because it fits my life right now and it keeps fitting. I first looked at it to remember my grandma by but then I started seeing more of those verses in my life and how I wanted to live. I got to looking at my grandma's life and that is how I want to live too so I put one and one together and firgured if I live by these verses and remember and look back at them every so often that they will stick with my but most importantly my grandma will stick with me.
         The part of this book that is getting to me now in this new year is that "Everything is meaningless". I know that sounds like a negtive way to look at things in life but when you really look at it the way the book describes it, to me, it is all that I can ask for right now in life. This past year has been hard in some ways but great in others. I got a new job that I love and I have been focused on that but that is my passion. I look back at last year and I can't complain at all about anything because it was one of the best years I've had in a long time. Every family member was well, loved my job, and just enjoyed life. I'm not saying there wasn't hard times at all because there was with friends and even at my job because it isn't an easy one.
          The reason the saying "Everything is meaningless" points out to me this year is because everything that matter or happened last year to me has more meaning in my life then anything can ever have. When I say "thing" I mean material things in this entery so everyTHING is meaningless, every material thing was to me this past year. The blessings come from people and God. Like I said everyone was well that I knew. I got a job that I love and am learning a lot from and my parents moved closer to me during last summer. Even though, I had a hard time being okay with certain things I've held on to old friends. I got to see a friend's dream come true and get big only in 3 months and still growing. I'm still talking to that friend off and on.
          I don't know a better job that could show you the true meaning of "EveryTHING is meaningless" then I have. Once you work and see the children that I work with everyday and the things they have to go through those material things will mean, sorry for my French, crap to you. Nothing means anything more then to have those family and friends around you everyday in every way. The people you care about most and that care about you. You see the children asking to go home or to talk to their parents or see their faces at their 1st birthday party and you would just want to cry. I don't think my family or friends have meant so much more to me then they do after this job and even though I don't hang out as often as I should with some of them I still care about them and if they are a true friend they know and understand that.
            It will be a year next month for me working at this job and in a year I have put 100 new stars in the sky and am trusting God with each of them. Just think would everyTHING be meaningless to you if you could change a 100 kids lives in a year every year? Would you see the important things after a year of changing lives? I need to remind myself on the hard days that I am impacting the world 100 kids at a time. It might be in a different way then my friends or other people but in a way I'm impacting the world and hopefully changing lives and that is what I want to do with my life. I've grown more this past year then I feel like I have any other year thanks to my job and my friends even if they were tough on me. Sometimes a hard headed, country girl needs the truth straight forwards and some were willing to give that to me. I'm lovin' NWA. Hard to believe I'm saying that and this but I might be here for awhile longer. I can't see me moving out of a place that has helped me grow so much over the past 3 years and I feel like God still has more for me here. :)