The Worst Question Ever

        I should have never taken that snow day off on Monday. I'm thinking way too much now and that is scary. A lot is going on in my life and I won't put it all on here because I'm really at the point where I'm asking myself along with everyone else asking me "What are you planning to do with you future after this?" That is probably the worst question to ask me even is even worse then "Why are you still single?". That won't hit me for another 3 or 4 years. Why would the career question hit me before the single question?
        I'm a person who likes to think she has everything under control and everything is going as to plan but it isn't right now. I want to see it in full picture but I can't right now. My life, right now, feels like it is out of control because I'm doing nothing to make anything happen. I feel like I'm just sitting and waiting which is wrong because I know I'm making an impact at work but personal life it's not me working. It is all God! I see little things happening that I remember saying to myself a few months or even years past and I'm asking God, "Is this really part of Your Plan?", "Was I right for once in my life?", and "Was that sign a confirmation from You are something that just happen and I want to think I thought of it?"
       The question: "What do you want to do after 3 years?" came to me when I was talking with a friend of mine. I told her I would stay where I was for at least 3 more years and then we'll see where I end up. After I got home that night, I felt like that was the question everyone has been asking me lately. Yet, I feel like I can't tell them anything because I'm not for sure. I'm waiting on the next step or lead. If I do tell them they won't understand because what I'm thinking now started in college and I would have to go through everything to get them caught up to today which isn't a bad thing but it just seems like we don't have time for that in today's world or at least to me it seems like that.
        Things have been happening really fast on one side of the book and I have no idea what to do. It is scary. Should I go with it or should I live it all behind? If I go with it, how? Should I take that risk and let go of everything and try to build up something from the start? These are the questions I'm asking myself thanks to the snow day. Hopefully, though, I will get answers soon. My church is putting on a Bible Study starting this week that is about life boundaries so I'm going to that one to get some accountablity and deeper understanding of the book we are doing and see if the book can help me more then if I was doing it by myself. I know I need to let God control my life and when He does He will do amazing things and won't ever let me down. I've learned that through a friend because the question is: How do you get over the part that you have to risk everything and maybe everybody because they might not agree with what you are doing?
          I would be the 1st in my family to start something like a children's home, foster home, or even some other kind of business but again I would have to drop everything and focus on just that and that is what has never been done in my family.