God is Enough

         Yesterday morning I got up thinking no matter if I'm alone for life or have someone always beside me "God is enough". I was just thinking about what I am doing and what I want to do in life and how hard it would be for someone to stay with me through everything. I even have some hard times staying with the friends that I should stay with and doing things for them. Then today I did something special for a friend and it felt good for me at least. I hoped it felt good for my friend and not strange but I know it felt good for me.
          It is strange because I have been reading my Bible a lot more this week and learning that God will answer me when I cry out to Him and give me blessings beyond belief. Today, after work, I felt that in a way that I never have before. Usually as selfish as I am, I do things to please other people and hope they pay me back in someway. Well, today I don't need any pay back. I'm happy with what I got.
           The things that I got was a smile, more confidence that I can do things, and just the joy of doing that special thing for a friend on a special day. It is strange that when God is really enough how simple, little things can mean the world to you without pay back. How you can see the great small things you get back without any big thing hooked on. Usually when I do something that I'm not sure of, I'm really shaky afterwards but today I wasn't. I was for sure I was suppose to do what I did because it was a last minute thing for me and I had confidence in it and actually did it and it seemed easy.
             It might of not turned out how I wanted it to because I wanted everything to be homemade and pretty. Hence the FACS major in me, but it wasn't. It was just some cupcakes that I brought from Wal-Mart and put words in black gel on them in the car. Yes, I did say in the car because it was on the way home from work. They didn't look too great and pretty but my friend got to share them where my friend worked and celebrate a "surprise" party that the friend didn't have to plan at all.
              If you know me, you know I like most things planned out because it makes things easier and it's not so stressful but I'm learning something. When God is enough in life, things can just happen out of the blue and those things can be the best things that happen in life to you. The cupcakes might not have been the best looking or the best tasting but it is the thought, and always is the thought, that were behind those cupcakes that counted. I think, in a way, my friend knew what I was trying to do. I was trying to make a special day, extra special. My friend wasn't going to get away without a party and I think my friend knew that in a way.
              I think my friend also learned something about me, "Don't ever doubt what I will or won't do because it just might happen." It happened because I knew whatever happened "God is enough" for me in my life. I don't need to make my friend or anyone else happy. I just need to follow God and obey Him and I felt like I did with all that I did today.