Uncomfortable

         "It is a hard decision b/c you have to really pray and figure out if this is something you want or God wants. That is the hardest part of this whole thing is putting your thoughts and feelings aside and only hearing God. I think if you are able to do that every thing else will answer itself. God is always growing us and changing us, and it is good not to be comfortable, because if you are comfortable you are not open to the change that God could be making in you. God can put you at peace, while at the same time change the path just slightly that He wants you to walk down."


        As I am sitting here, drinking a glass of water, and wishing I could go to bed because it is late, other things are on my mind. Thanks to all the Bible studying I have been doing these past week to this week. I have been reading verses about giving problems over to God and He will answer them and don't fight the problems just give them over because it turns out better that way. I have also been studying the Potter and the Clay, The Garden of Gatheseme, and Soul Care. Again, all those have to do with turning your problems and worries over to God because He knows what He is doing.
         As I sat though the Soul Care study tonight, I remembered and looked for a little letter I had from a friend back in college. You ever had those moments where you see a old friend one week and then the week after some idea comes to you that came from that friend? Well, that is what happened to me tonight as we (women) were talking about our souls and how to care for them. Whether my friend knew it or not, 7 years back, the letter makes sense now that I read it from the soul perspective.
         The quote above is from a letter that a friend sent me 7 years ago in college when I was making what I thought was a hard decision. Now that I look back on my life and the letter that was a hard one at all. I have gone back to the letter multiple of times through all the hard times since then. The part that always gets me is:
 "God is always growing and changing us, and it is good not to be comfortable, because if we are comfortable then we aren't open to the change God is making in us."
As I think about my soul, with this part of the quote, I think it is telling me that when I'm in a uncomfortable place that I need to move on because my Spirit is telling me that I need more of God and I can't get it where I am. I need more of a challenge. God is trying to change me but yet there is no room for growth where I am now.
           As we were talking about our feelings and thoughts tonight and how those things don't help the soul, I got to understand the part where it says:
"That is the hardest part of this whole thing is putting your feelings and thoughts aside and only hearing God".
Our Willpower and mind gives us so many feelings and thoughts at the same time that we are so overwhelmed by them. We can't trust them because they are so many. We have to be still in the Lord and listen to Him. We have to let Him speak to our soul.
            Then the part about really praying and figuring out if it is something you want or God wants. Praying for guidance, wisdom, and for His Will to be done. That is what we should be doing in the first place is talking to God about out problems and giving them to Him. We shouldn't be going anywhere else to look for help but to Him. Although, talking to some trusted others would help some but we can't count of them.

"I hope God put the answers on you heart........all in His timing of course. You'll be in my prayers."

           Then it is the last part that gets me the most. Knowing that a friend cares enough to pray with and for me about the decision making. Being there for me, when really we didn't hang that much or talk that much but that friend was still there and pretty sure is still there today in some ways. All this to say that when you feel uncomfortable it might be a sign from God that you need to change something or at least that is how I go about it for me and usually it has been right. I felt great and at peace after I made the change.