Spring Cleaning

          I'll admit I never was much into the whole Spring Cleaning thing when I lived at home or even at college and I think it is because I didn't have that much and sadly then I didn't have to spend my own money on clothes. I also think it has a lot to do with I just didn't care. That was my mental state back then plus I didn't know how many people my age needed clothes and here I was hogging some in my closet. Yes, they are high school and college style clothes so I finally decided to update a little plus with my lifestyle right now I won't fit into them for very much longer.
         It is actually pretty fun doing a little bit of Spring Cleaning. Yes, only the FACS majors would say that. :) I'm more then overjoyed to do it and give stuff away. I'm also repacking things that I'm storing into plastic, stackable boxes instead of cardboard boxes. Getting to see some old things that really do need to my thrown away but brings back memories at the same time. It is kind of sad but at the same time I think I'm more happy to do it. Strange feeling but these past 2 years I have been through and seen a lot more then people my age.
          They are all over the place trying to stay in style and buying one thing after another without giving things away. I will admit I might go on a shopping spree after this to update my clothes but that is only a reward here on earth for me now. Why, when I haven't wore clothes in a year or two, keep them? There is no need for that. Not just clothes but things also. If I don't use them or play with them in two years why keep them in my little apartment when they can go somewhere else. I really feel good about it because I almost have the whole bottom rack of my closet empty which means a lot.
           I used to hate to organize and decide what to get rid off and want to keep but for some reason it seems easier now, this year. Haven't wore it since in Arkansas then throw it out. I use to have my mom here to help me because I didn't have to think as hard but now I can do it on my own. I guess also I see the importance of how it makes me feel as a person and not just any person but a woman at that. I'm taking the responsibility to make the choices and then going along with them and being okay with that. If you know me at all, that is a big step for me in life. You start out taking the steps with the little things and then it will become bigger things.
            Buying new clothes that are in style will hopefully, somewhat make me feel better about myself as a women. Yes, I know that is not the most important but that is just part of us woman no matter how we look at it. We want to look beautiful for God because then we have the confidence to do His Work for His Glory. I just feel like this is a turning point for me in someway. A turning point that I can remember and say that small thing changed my life. I have other reasons that I think are the reasons that I can do it now but I'm not going to go into those reasons.
              It has been funny lately too because I have been cleaning and sorting out things for about 2 weeks but in those two weeks and during this month I have been a lot more opened to my friends. I will do and say what I want and feel okay with it afterwards. It is mostly encouraging, I hope but it is like I'm getting more confident with myself. Like I'm BREAKING FREE in strange ways. Right now, as I'm writing this, I have other thoughts that I need to try to do when the time is right. It is like God saying, "Here are some new ideas that you can try because they are easy and you don't have to do much with them. Just trust me after you do them even if you do still feel a little awkward afterwards."
              All this I think, started with my job, where and when I started to stand up for those little children that can't stand up for themselves. I saw that I could do it there so why not the other parts of my life. When things just feel right, just do it. Having this confidence can lead me along ways, but I know that I still have to trust God and rely on His Love for me now and always. That will never stop. Once I'm FREE, I'm ALWAYS FREE. There is no going back to the devil's ways. The cleaning out of my closet is also like I'm getting rid of the past in a way because I haven't worn some clothes for so long.
               Was I a hoarder? Was I just hoping that the past would come back a be different. Well, now I know and can trust God that the future is going to be way better for me then I could ever think of. It is a new Season of my life, just like Spring is starting and that means the flowers are blooming and the animals are having their offspring. It is just a whole life. There is no need to hold onto the past when I have an amazing future ahead of me. Right? See Spring cleaning or just any cleaning can be good for you at times. It can teach you things without you even knowing it. Something else that is strange is that I'm learning all of this and writing it out before Easter on Psalm Sunday. Do you that that is by chance or is God trying to tell me or you something about life?