"God will give you the true desires of your heart, not your emotions and only He knows those true desires so look at and follow Him."
I've been learning the differences between getting the desires of our hearts and listening to our emotions. There is a big difference and it is easy to tell but yet hard to do. At times, it could be hard too because sometimes we could not understand our desires or our emotions does not go with the desires that God has for us and in the way He could be leading us. We might not know that the desires of our hearts are really the desires until much later. Our emotions are so strong that they could take us over without us knowing it. We could look to them as a guide leading us the wrong way. Instead of looking to God to lead us the right way.
When we look to our emotions as our guide, we take our eyes off of God. Now, don't get me wrong it is okay to feel and have the emotions. It is just how we handle them is the problem. We will sin out of a certain emotion like anger or will we give that anger to God and let Him teach us what He needs to to make us stronger for Him. Emotions can be good for us because we can learn a lot about how God made us and what He wants from us.
Emotions are tricky too. You have to sit down and think about them. There are a lot of emotions. We aren't just angery or happy or sad or excited but there is a whole list of them when you take the time to think and look at them. Why do I feel this way? What made me feel this way? How can I solve this problem or situation to make me feel another way?
God gave us emotions to feel and be different from all His other creations but He also gave us desires of our hearts. He gave us a path to follow for Him. We can get so mad sometimes because our desires do not match up with God's desires for us but we know that He knows us better then we know ourselves. There is a verse that says, "God will give us the desires of our hearts if we will trust in Him". It is true. God will line up our emotions and desires if we seek Him in everything. If we look to God for everything and trust in Him then things should fall into place. Yes, it might not be easy at first but things you really want (desires) are not easy to get because then they wouldn't be worth anything to you. It means more if you have to work for it and trust more. Desires are like the things you are passionate about and love to do. You are passionate about those things in your hearts because you love them and sometimes even what to make a difference in that way.
I always like to think about it like emotions are those things in our mind and head that we can only feel for a little time but the desires are what we feel in our hearts where God lives. Desires are the things we cannot stop feeling no matter how hard we try to not feel them.
CHALLENGE: Look to God for the desires of your heart. That feeling in your heart. Don't look at your emotions. Those feelings in your mind and if you find yourself looking at emotions turn them over to God. He will fix them the way they are suppose to be.
Saturday, April 12, 2014
Wednesday, April 9, 2014
One Year and Writing
This is not really a big thing and then again it is. Today marks the 1st year from me starting this blog (April 9th was my first entery). I usually don't keep up with things like this up to but espically not after a year so let's see if I can do it for a least another it. It is funny because right now I could write a week's worth of enteries on here but I'm so busy the rest of this week and all of next week so we'll see when I get time to write another real entery. I might have to stay up late one night to do one.
I'm glad I found this way to help me release my stress, thoughts, and dreams. It is not being used for what I planned for it to be used for (aka missions, ideas for missions, and etc.) but for the better hopefully. Letting women and people see that everyone is the same and we all of struggles that we go through and maybe some advice to help out or at least encouragement. I'm printing every one of these enteries out and putting them in a binder hoping that someday I can make a book out of them if God is willing. The binder is already full I might have to start a 2nd one for the 2nd year. We'll see. I can tell you that the next few enteries are going to be about rest, peace, clutterness/order, seeking God, and emotions. That is what God is teaching me right now and as you see I have a lot planned already like I said. Might not get to all of them before I forget what to write but I will get to most of them. Promise! I have a lot of verses that might go along with them. Did you know that God speaks a lot about boundaries and our emotions in the Bible? Very interesting!
I want to thank you for all who has been reading this and keeping up with my life. I encourage you to please share this with your friends and comment more on the days ahead. I would love to hear people's thoughts and ideas on things and it might even give me more to write about. Thanks again.
I'm glad I found this way to help me release my stress, thoughts, and dreams. It is not being used for what I planned for it to be used for (aka missions, ideas for missions, and etc.) but for the better hopefully. Letting women and people see that everyone is the same and we all of struggles that we go through and maybe some advice to help out or at least encouragement. I'm printing every one of these enteries out and putting them in a binder hoping that someday I can make a book out of them if God is willing. The binder is already full I might have to start a 2nd one for the 2nd year. We'll see. I can tell you that the next few enteries are going to be about rest, peace, clutterness/order, seeking God, and emotions. That is what God is teaching me right now and as you see I have a lot planned already like I said. Might not get to all of them before I forget what to write but I will get to most of them. Promise! I have a lot of verses that might go along with them. Did you know that God speaks a lot about boundaries and our emotions in the Bible? Very interesting!
I want to thank you for all who has been reading this and keeping up with my life. I encourage you to please share this with your friends and comment more on the days ahead. I would love to hear people's thoughts and ideas on things and it might even give me more to write about. Thanks again.
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Being Reassured
I have an entery that I want to write about rest and that will make more sense with this one but I wanted to write this one first so I wouldn't forget what happened yesterday. Be on the look out for another entery soon!
Have you ever needed to be reassured that where you are in a moment in life was the right place at the right time? Yesterday, I was and it all happened by little things and moments that made me feel speical and different. Also, like someone else gets me or would get me if they would just give me the chance. I came back from a weekend from my parents' house all rested up and ready to start the week. Who knew a Monday could be filled with reasurrance moments? I came back rested up from the weekend knowing if anything it was going to be a loooooooong Monday and it was but you know little speical moments can help you break up a day when you get 3 or more in one. That is what happened to me.
First moment, I was looking at some of my friends' Facebook profile and I found a status that said a lot about this friend. I have been feeling like this friend would understand or if not just be there to listen to me if they gave me the chance with their life. That status reassured me that I was right about that. This friend's story and my story plus personailties and passions could not be more the same then they already are. I just got to know a little more about this friend and kind of what they were like has a child and it is strange how our stories match up when I'm feeling like no one would understand me if I really shared the start of my life story but this friend might. Now if only I would get the chance to talk to this friend more then I do now. That would be great! It gave me some hope and to tell me to not give up on it.
Second, we had a staff meeting at work last night and for the 2nd meeting in a row I got in the drawing for employee of the month but didn't win it. It was nice, though, to know that at least 1 or 2 people were seeing the work that I was doing and it gave me the encouragement to keep doing it. One of these days I will get it! That is not the most important thing though to me if you know me. The most important thing is giving the children what they need and I'm doing that or at least trying to do that even if it is putting my personal life on hold for awhile. Oh! I also got a gift for being there for a year so that was neat too.
Third, after the staff meeting one of the admin. people came out into the hallway while I was walking some people out and gave me a gift for no reason at all or that is what I would like to think of it as. I know, though, after what this person said that people have been watching me working hard while we were short handed and liked the work I was doing. The person told me that there is still a "Santa" in April but I've noticed that this person was down there a lot looking in and watching me to see how I was handling the children. Inside the card it said, "Thank you for your commint to the preschool".
I'm not the kind of person who will be all big and up front about what I'm doing so people will notice me. I've never been that kind of person. Most of the time when they tell me I'm doing a good job I just act like it is no big deal but deep down depending on how hard the job is it can be a lot and getting something can mean even more. Sometimes I even complain about people not showing that appicatation for me but God showed me here that they are watching me when I least accpet it and I don't always get what I deserve but I can if I would just humble myself and do it for Him and not for me.
It is funny how I have been spending more time with God, talking and listening to Him and all this has happened but by no chance is it just out of the blue. God is doing something in my heart and in my future with this. I just have to Trust Him with it. Things will come about when it is time the way God wants it to come about. I will write more about why I think that in the next entery or two. We'll see when I get time and if I can combine two thoughts if not then there will be a random entery and then the one that kind of goes with this one.
Have you ever needed to be reassured that where you are in a moment in life was the right place at the right time? Yesterday, I was and it all happened by little things and moments that made me feel speical and different. Also, like someone else gets me or would get me if they would just give me the chance. I came back from a weekend from my parents' house all rested up and ready to start the week. Who knew a Monday could be filled with reasurrance moments? I came back rested up from the weekend knowing if anything it was going to be a loooooooong Monday and it was but you know little speical moments can help you break up a day when you get 3 or more in one. That is what happened to me.
First moment, I was looking at some of my friends' Facebook profile and I found a status that said a lot about this friend. I have been feeling like this friend would understand or if not just be there to listen to me if they gave me the chance with their life. That status reassured me that I was right about that. This friend's story and my story plus personailties and passions could not be more the same then they already are. I just got to know a little more about this friend and kind of what they were like has a child and it is strange how our stories match up when I'm feeling like no one would understand me if I really shared the start of my life story but this friend might. Now if only I would get the chance to talk to this friend more then I do now. That would be great! It gave me some hope and to tell me to not give up on it.
Second, we had a staff meeting at work last night and for the 2nd meeting in a row I got in the drawing for employee of the month but didn't win it. It was nice, though, to know that at least 1 or 2 people were seeing the work that I was doing and it gave me the encouragement to keep doing it. One of these days I will get it! That is not the most important thing though to me if you know me. The most important thing is giving the children what they need and I'm doing that or at least trying to do that even if it is putting my personal life on hold for awhile. Oh! I also got a gift for being there for a year so that was neat too.
Third, after the staff meeting one of the admin. people came out into the hallway while I was walking some people out and gave me a gift for no reason at all or that is what I would like to think of it as. I know, though, after what this person said that people have been watching me working hard while we were short handed and liked the work I was doing. The person told me that there is still a "Santa" in April but I've noticed that this person was down there a lot looking in and watching me to see how I was handling the children. Inside the card it said, "Thank you for your commint to the preschool".
I'm not the kind of person who will be all big and up front about what I'm doing so people will notice me. I've never been that kind of person. Most of the time when they tell me I'm doing a good job I just act like it is no big deal but deep down depending on how hard the job is it can be a lot and getting something can mean even more. Sometimes I even complain about people not showing that appicatation for me but God showed me here that they are watching me when I least accpet it and I don't always get what I deserve but I can if I would just humble myself and do it for Him and not for me.
It is funny how I have been spending more time with God, talking and listening to Him and all this has happened but by no chance is it just out of the blue. God is doing something in my heart and in my future with this. I just have to Trust Him with it. Things will come about when it is time the way God wants it to come about. I will write more about why I think that in the next entery or two. We'll see when I get time and if I can combine two thoughts if not then there will be a random entery and then the one that kind of goes with this one.
Sunday, April 6, 2014
Care For Vs. Care About
Do we care for people or care about people? Do those two things look different? The answer is: Yes, they do and I'm still learning how the look it. I can start by giving you all some ideas and maybe the meaning of it. I looked up the words "for" and "about" and this is what they mean or at least one verison of what the words means.
Care means "serious attention, caution, or soliuitude" or "a cause of object of worry, concern, and anxiety".
For means "intended to belong to or be used in connection with".
About means "of concerning or in regaud to". It could also mean "connected or associated with".
When you care for people or a person, it means that we are to be used in connection with them. It means that we have to be connected with them and know them very well. We have to get into their business and be with them everyday. That is what we think "care for" means anyways. We think we should do that but really God is doing that already for them if they believe. If not we should show them a God that care for them and wants to belong and be connected to them. We can be that way towards or spouse or family members and even friends but sometimes we are that too much. We try to fix problems and situations when really we should just stay out of the way and let them handle it on their own if they want to.
When you care about people or a person, it means you are concerned, of, or in regaud to that person. You associate your feelings towards them and help them with the resources you have because you are concerned for them. You don't care for them because then they might start depending on you. This is when you want to take care of people because really don't want to get close to them. You can about them enough to help them out by giving them something but not enough to listen to them.
To me, "caring for" a person is much more deeper then "caring about" a person. I care for my family and close friends but I care about the children I work with and see in other countries and even some of my friends just depends on how close we are.
Does this make sense? I hope so. Would love comments on this one? Thanks.
Care means "serious attention, caution, or soliuitude" or "a cause of object of worry, concern, and anxiety".
For means "intended to belong to or be used in connection with".
About means "of concerning or in regaud to". It could also mean "connected or associated with".
When you care for people or a person, it means that we are to be used in connection with them. It means that we have to be connected with them and know them very well. We have to get into their business and be with them everyday. That is what we think "care for" means anyways. We think we should do that but really God is doing that already for them if they believe. If not we should show them a God that care for them and wants to belong and be connected to them. We can be that way towards or spouse or family members and even friends but sometimes we are that too much. We try to fix problems and situations when really we should just stay out of the way and let them handle it on their own if they want to.
When you care about people or a person, it means you are concerned, of, or in regaud to that person. You associate your feelings towards them and help them with the resources you have because you are concerned for them. You don't care for them because then they might start depending on you. This is when you want to take care of people because really don't want to get close to them. You can about them enough to help them out by giving them something but not enough to listen to them.
To me, "caring for" a person is much more deeper then "caring about" a person. I care for my family and close friends but I care about the children I work with and see in other countries and even some of my friends just depends on how close we are.
Does this make sense? I hope so. Would love comments on this one? Thanks.
Friday, April 4, 2014
God Does Work in a Path
I mean my title in the best of ways too or maybe it is me who is never settled with anything because I know it isn't where God wants me to be yet. I just got a question from a friend last night and she asked, "How can people be so consistant in their Faith?" How are you suppose to answer that? I've been thinking about it since I woke up this morning and another friend gave me chapters in the Bible to look at. They were John 14 and 15.
I just think it is strange because I never thought of it that way and here is God getting ready to change me again. I feel like I'm backing away from my job in a good way. I don't have to be the "main" person there hopefully within the next week there will be 3 workers instead of just 2 workers. Yet God has me busy again I feel like. I feel like He is saying, "Ok, you get to calm down on this job but I'm giving it two more things to do outside of your job." It is so strange too because it is keeping my mind away from the other things that were bothering me months before which is good, I guess.
The thing God is giving me to do is to help 2 girls that I have come in connection with and are my friends with their "problems". One I just met through my Bible study and she just moved to AR not to long ago and the other one has been my friend for 2 years now or about but is going through a hard time. I feel like I have people around my age that I can help and live life with but it is crazy because some of the things I'm going through or just been through and I'm having a wiser girl help me get through it too. It is like a line and that is how God works. He touches one person's life to touch another person's life and I see that now.
My friend that I use to work with it kind of going through the same things I am or was like it happened one after the other almost. To be honest, I'm scared I will mess up and not do or say what God wants me to. All I can think about now is being there for both of them and maybe that is all they need right now is just a listening ear, not someone to tell them what to do. It is crazy because it is at a time where I am really busy with my family every other weekend it almost seems like but yet these two girls have their mornings or lunches free too so it kind of works out there too.
I'm just starting to see how God does work in a row or pattern or path whatever you want to call it. I feel like mine might be hard but yet again I'm on the right one with the right people to encourage me, right job, and the right people to help and that makes my heart happy. I can even try out some of my boundaries if need be or learn about some new ones at the same time. That problem that I thought was a problem is not anymore. I think I just need to let it go and focus on what God put in front of me and if it is meant to be God will bring it back around and to the surface when everyone is ready. I wish I could put it more into words but then it wouldn't be God's Doings if I could.
I feel like I'm helping women now more then children but I know I'm not. In a way, it is good that I'm helping women too because I might go into helping women and their children someday. You never know! God is never settled but that is a good thing because it keeps you depending on Him and that is what He wants. Close to His Heart, His Beautiful Girl!
I just think it is strange because I never thought of it that way and here is God getting ready to change me again. I feel like I'm backing away from my job in a good way. I don't have to be the "main" person there hopefully within the next week there will be 3 workers instead of just 2 workers. Yet God has me busy again I feel like. I feel like He is saying, "Ok, you get to calm down on this job but I'm giving it two more things to do outside of your job." It is so strange too because it is keeping my mind away from the other things that were bothering me months before which is good, I guess.
The thing God is giving me to do is to help 2 girls that I have come in connection with and are my friends with their "problems". One I just met through my Bible study and she just moved to AR not to long ago and the other one has been my friend for 2 years now or about but is going through a hard time. I feel like I have people around my age that I can help and live life with but it is crazy because some of the things I'm going through or just been through and I'm having a wiser girl help me get through it too. It is like a line and that is how God works. He touches one person's life to touch another person's life and I see that now.
My friend that I use to work with it kind of going through the same things I am or was like it happened one after the other almost. To be honest, I'm scared I will mess up and not do or say what God wants me to. All I can think about now is being there for both of them and maybe that is all they need right now is just a listening ear, not someone to tell them what to do. It is crazy because it is at a time where I am really busy with my family every other weekend it almost seems like but yet these two girls have their mornings or lunches free too so it kind of works out there too.
I'm just starting to see how God does work in a row or pattern or path whatever you want to call it. I feel like mine might be hard but yet again I'm on the right one with the right people to encourage me, right job, and the right people to help and that makes my heart happy. I can even try out some of my boundaries if need be or learn about some new ones at the same time. That problem that I thought was a problem is not anymore. I think I just need to let it go and focus on what God put in front of me and if it is meant to be God will bring it back around and to the surface when everyone is ready. I wish I could put it more into words but then it wouldn't be God's Doings if I could.
I feel like I'm helping women now more then children but I know I'm not. In a way, it is good that I'm helping women too because I might go into helping women and their children someday. You never know! God is never settled but that is a good thing because it keeps you depending on Him and that is what He wants. Close to His Heart, His Beautiful Girl!
Thursday, April 3, 2014
Spending Time with God is Important
This isn't going to be a very long one. Hopefully though, I can fit 2 long ones in this weekend sometime. I just wanted to let you all know where I am in life and what God has made me see again. Isn't it strange how we get off God's Track and we don't even know it or think it is that important until we get back on it? I have had that feeling this week.
Last week at work got to me because it was Spring Break and it seemed like everyone was on it but a few people. We are short-handed to start with and it was just stressful. I broke down crying at church Saturday night and then came home and had a crying fit instead of being with my friends after church. I haven't broke down crying in church for awhile. In fact, I can't remember the last time I did. It has to be in the first year that I moved to AR at least. After church, I did stay in my car and talked to a friend for a little bit after church about what was bothering me until I calmed down enough to drive home.
I discovered something Sunday after a good night's rest that I needed to start doing again. That something was getting back into God's Word or at least doing devos. again like I use to. I had a jounal of devos. I did every morning about this time last year and I guess in the year as it went on I stopped doing them. I read a little of them just flipping through some of the pages and I felt like the devos were right what I needed so I thought to myself I should get started back on these every morning.
I took the challenge this week and it has made such a different. It been a busy week at work with everything going on but at the same time I've had enough strength, courage, and energy to get through everything and still have some left over, which is strange. Nothing changed at work if anything it only get worse but looking to God before I went to work made all the different. It is strange but great that something as little as a devo can get you looking to God for the rest of the day. I even found myself saying when things did get crazy, "God help me through this" or "I need patentice, Daddy". God really does hear those little prayers I learned this week. Sometimes more then our long, wordy prayers.
I'm just doing a lot better and all it took was doing some devos and resting in God before the start of the day. My work is getting easier because of this. Now let's see how this can help my friendships out. It also helps to have a friend check on you the first 2 days of the week to see how you are doing and how your day went. That was nice too. It has been awhile since I have had a friend that did that. It just gives me the reassuance that someone does care and that maybe if it doesn't seem like I'm on the right path now. I'm at least getting there slowly but surely. Things take time to heal and I just have to respect that and give it to God again and again. It wouldn't hurt if we as humans could see that and do that every once in awhile. It would make life a lot easier and joyful for us now and in the long run.
Last week at work got to me because it was Spring Break and it seemed like everyone was on it but a few people. We are short-handed to start with and it was just stressful. I broke down crying at church Saturday night and then came home and had a crying fit instead of being with my friends after church. I haven't broke down crying in church for awhile. In fact, I can't remember the last time I did. It has to be in the first year that I moved to AR at least. After church, I did stay in my car and talked to a friend for a little bit after church about what was bothering me until I calmed down enough to drive home.
I discovered something Sunday after a good night's rest that I needed to start doing again. That something was getting back into God's Word or at least doing devos. again like I use to. I had a jounal of devos. I did every morning about this time last year and I guess in the year as it went on I stopped doing them. I read a little of them just flipping through some of the pages and I felt like the devos were right what I needed so I thought to myself I should get started back on these every morning.
I took the challenge this week and it has made such a different. It been a busy week at work with everything going on but at the same time I've had enough strength, courage, and energy to get through everything and still have some left over, which is strange. Nothing changed at work if anything it only get worse but looking to God before I went to work made all the different. It is strange but great that something as little as a devo can get you looking to God for the rest of the day. I even found myself saying when things did get crazy, "God help me through this" or "I need patentice, Daddy". God really does hear those little prayers I learned this week. Sometimes more then our long, wordy prayers.
I'm just doing a lot better and all it took was doing some devos and resting in God before the start of the day. My work is getting easier because of this. Now let's see how this can help my friendships out. It also helps to have a friend check on you the first 2 days of the week to see how you are doing and how your day went. That was nice too. It has been awhile since I have had a friend that did that. It just gives me the reassuance that someone does care and that maybe if it doesn't seem like I'm on the right path now. I'm at least getting there slowly but surely. Things take time to heal and I just have to respect that and give it to God again and again. It wouldn't hurt if we as humans could see that and do that every once in awhile. It would make life a lot easier and joyful for us now and in the long run.
Tuesday, April 1, 2014
April is Child Abuse Awearness Month
"Every Child Deserves a Home". That's my favorite song by the Christian group "Newsong" and another one of my favorite song is "Temporary Home" by Carrie Underwood. Either way you look at it and I have had both views, it is a really sad thing. It upsets me most of the time when I get the children I do and find out why I have them. I have challenged myself just this morning to pray every day for the abused children and all 4 weeks of this month for a different organzation in my state for a week so that would be praying for 4 organzations. I already do pray off and on for the children that I work with and that really need it but this month it will be for all children.
Here are the two of my favorite songs:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oQjObgmNbmE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LraOiHUltak
It is strange because one of my children's birthday is today so I will be going into work "partying" it up for him. What a way to start a month like this! Birthday parties always get to me at my job because you may never know if it is their 1st one and they can be 4 year olds and never had one. Just think what if you didn't have one. Anyways, if you can please join me in this awearness of abuse. It is crazy to think that where I live in Northwest AR there has been over 200 abuse cases already in 2014. I know we don't have enough organzations to cover all of that but yet we have 5 that I know off. This is my passion and I will live honestly be passionate about it until I die whether here in the states or overseas helping orphanages over there. PLEASE TAKE THE CHALLENGE AND PRAY FOR THIS CHILDREN! Thanks.
Here are the two of my favorite songs:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oQjObgmNbmE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LraOiHUltak
It is strange because one of my children's birthday is today so I will be going into work "partying" it up for him. What a way to start a month like this! Birthday parties always get to me at my job because you may never know if it is their 1st one and they can be 4 year olds and never had one. Just think what if you didn't have one. Anyways, if you can please join me in this awearness of abuse. It is crazy to think that where I live in Northwest AR there has been over 200 abuse cases already in 2014. I know we don't have enough organzations to cover all of that but yet we have 5 that I know off. This is my passion and I will live honestly be passionate about it until I die whether here in the states or overseas helping orphanages over there. PLEASE TAKE THE CHALLENGE AND PRAY FOR THIS CHILDREN! Thanks.
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