Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

         As I look back at least year around this time during the month of April, I have noticed that God has been teaching me a lot about just trusting and following Him. I look back at those entries from last year and they all have the titles like "God Puts Life in Order", "Come+Trust=Changed Life", "God's Love and Power on the Cross", "The Narrow Road", and on. Those are all entries about His Sovereignty but yet here I am a year later still trying to find out what that looks like in my life. More so then ever right now.           Before I get started too deep into that, I just want to say that I'm sorry I haven't wrote in awhile. Things have been very busy for me. I got to help Compassion International at their booth at a Natalie Grant concert on Sunday night at a church near where I live. Then Monday, I went to my parent's house to get my new car and that is a whole other story of its own after this one. There there is always...

         You might be thinking what person would come up with a title like the one above. Let me tell you what kind of person would. It would be a person like me. I'm not proud of it at all but I'm just now learning that I am that type of person and I'm asking God to get rid of that in me. You would think of a control freak of a loud, talkative person but we all have our own personalities. I think my control freak side comes from my need for everything to be prefect and if it wasn't I was stubborn enough to change it. I want it my way and only my way but being a Christian that is not possible at all and I'm learning and seeing things the hard way.           I blame my high school for this habit for the most part. There is some family resemblance in this but to be safe let's blame my high school life because I have to live with my family. They know I'm kidding, right and they would agree but I'm thankful I was raised that way because I'm...

Like Sweet Perfume at Your feet Versions:  #1 #2 Verse:#1 As I reflect on  YOUR  great love, and Your faithfulness to me All I want to do, is fall in worship on my knees And when I think about who I was, and how lost I was without You You're amazing to me Chorus: I don't want this to be it, not just a  SAMPLE , I want more I want to fall in love with You my Lord, teach me how to love You and adore ACCORDING  to Your justice and Your Truth, with my life I want to honor You With everything I have and all I am, I offer You my dreams and all my plans May my life be  PLEASING  before You, just like sweet perfume at Your feet. Verse:#2 When I think about  YOUR  Cross, and the sacrifice You made the blood You shed for me, It was there that You took my place And when I think about who I am, and how safe I feel in Your hands I want to know you more

         I thought I wrote the first entry about this last month but I went back and looked and I wrote it in Feb. so sorry that it has took me 2 months to "update" you on how my kneeling is going. Like I said, I have been kneeling at Christ's Feet for my prayers every night. I'm one of those people, when I was a little girl, I didn't think that really mattered but just in the two months in my adult life that I have been doing it, "WOW!" That is the only word I can find to describe it. God has turned my world upside down in all different ways.          God has, mostly, used my Spring Bible Study "Breaking Free" by Beth Moore to really break me free of some things that God didn't want me to hold on to or what me to go ahead and do or both. Things like starting to go to college again even though I have no idea what I want to do yet and "end" a friendship that I really didn't want to but it wasn't doing me any good. It was r...

        This entry is more of a memory for me because this Run was the first 5K that I did in the dark and it was actually fun. I actually ran it on Friday night (April 17th) but I'm just now getting the chance to write about it. I enjoyed every minute of it even though I was in pain afterwards and didn't get a very good time for me. I've had better times but it just shows that I am getting older and need to practice running every other day. I can't get out there and just do a 5K anymore. I was so out of shape during this one.          It was a race for abused children. Something that is very close to my heart. The company that put it on was one that a friend of mine works for and I've heard a lot about at my job. The company even helps some of my children. You might be asking what is a Glow Run. I will tell you. It was a nightly event started about 5:00 in the evening. They had everything to children's run to the 5K. Just like any race even...

         It has been a week for me this past week. God really knows how to show up when I need Him the most. Whether through friends, children at work, or my child overseas that I'm helping and praying for. I probably had 4 or 5 God signs that I could really point out. By that I mean, the timing was prefect and it was just want I needed to hear or see. I will tell you about each of them starting from the beginning of the week. I will admit I knew from the start of the week I was going to be to constant one at work because my co-worker took a vacation this week. I also had a lot of important things going on personally in my life.          First sign was a video from a friend that I needed and my friend even posted it on the day that I needed it before I did the thing that I was nervous about doing and about how it was going to turn out. My friend's message was right on about how I have been feeling the past months or two about my futur...

          This past few days have been hard for me in my personal life and my job life. I just worried about things that were coming up and what they were going to be like. I kept asking myself, "Is this the path I really want to take?" and I still haven't decided just yet on which 2 paths I should take but I will say yesterday was one of my hardest days I had in awhile and God sent a friend to help me through whether that friend knows it or not. That friend put a video on their Facebook page and it was just showing what my friend was thinking about in life right now. My friend talked a lot about temptations and being accountable for certain people and things. The whole video just got me thinking a lot about my future too and even now to where I can get through the hard things that come my way.          Let me talk about temptations first because I've had a lot of little ones the past few months. In the video, my friend talks about a...