Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

      I can't go into real details because I don't have time for it because I wanted to write it out to remember and to tell you all what impact my job is having on me. Kind of like an update in a good way. Last night was the first night while working at my job that I couldn't get to sleep for a little while. It might seem strange to some of you and maybe I was just hearing children out of my bedroom window but I was hearing children's voices so clearly then ever before in my mind with my eyes closed.       They sounded like my nephews' and nieces' voices but I couldn't see them. I could just hear them and that made me a little scared so I had to wake up and do something for a little bit to get them off my mind and this was even after praying for them. I wonder if it was their voices because I would pay more attention to them but yet I wonder at the same time if it was the children crying out for help and that was what bothered me. I swear I hear...

         I have my own children or I dinfantly want some after Friday night. I swear bath time and bedtime are my favorite times with the children at my job. God has been using me there and I love it. I'm really thinking He is trying to get me to stay in the states and in AR for awhile longer. I'll write more about that later in another entry. Right now, I want to write about Friday night and how I put my little girl to bed. It was such a great feeling and I want to say that I know how a mom feels like putting her little ones to bed but I know I will never get that experience really until I have my own.           Thursday night as you all know I started to pray with some of my little girls before bed and for the life of me I couldn't think about what to pray with them because my prayer as a little girl would be different because I had things to be thankful for like a family and other things so I thought I really had to think about what ...

         I had an experience that broke my heart to pieces last night with a child. I know I say that a lot but this one makes me want to get a two bedroom apartment at least or a house more then ever now so I can start fostering children. Bedtime is the sweetest time for me because it is just me and the girls and we can have little talks while I'm rocking each of them. Whether it is about the day ahead or the Bible or what prayer is or what they are feeling and why they acted the way they did that day. It is all part of being a mom to them really and a little girl brought that to my attention last night.           I actully had a "new" girl looking at the Bible stories now and picking out which one she wants me to read before she goes to bed so there are two girls that will listen to me read the Bible. The one girl told me last night that she loves God and asked if I loved God too and I said, Yes without a doubt in my mind. She al...

My Shepherd From: Psalm 23 “My Shepherd is leading me tenderly step by step.” “How?” You might ask. Here is how. My Shepherd gives me rest When I need it the most. While He gives me that rest, He leads Me with peace. He gives me rest To renew my strength. He gives Me peace in doing the right thing. My Shepherd guides me. He is Close beside me when He does That. He also protects me and Comforts me. He protects me By helping me handle my Enemies with a kindness only He can give. My Shepherd has overflowed me With blessings while doing all of These things and giving me His Goodness and Unfailing Love. He has also promised that I will Get to live in His House Forever. My Shepherd is there when I need Him the most. Do I need any other Reason to not trust Him with my Life? Written By: Tiffney Wilson Written On: April 1 st , 2013

I'm taking a break from my usual things that I write to tell you all about a show that just started this month by a friend of mine. It is on Dish channel 266 tonight (Tuesdays) at 7:00 PM (central time) on the Hunt Channel. It is a show about huntin'. My friend and his friends will take you on some real life hunts and show you how to manage your land for less money but to get more deer on less land. Not only do they have huntin' on the show but they have activities they do too as a group and even family. It is geared towards families and hunters alike. There are 4 guys and their passions are huntin', family, and God and you can see all that in the show. It is a show like no other! They want to make a big impact in their communities and around the world and they will as time goes on! Get in on the action now! They have a Facebook page called "The Huntin' Grounds" and their website is: www.thg-tv.com . Like them up on Facebook and they have a lot more bac...

The Lily of the Valley  Have you ever felt like a Lily in the Valley? You are growing tall towards the sun yet not  spreading your petals out. You are reaching  for the light but there is still so much darkness.  People can see that the lily in the valley trying to stick out but you can't. You have been told that the lily can make a big difference if it let the  light shine on it. That lily stays in the valley because it has fears and doubts. Its petals stay curled up because no sun can get to it.  Then the lily hears someone say, "You are growing and changing in me. You have a pure heart within you that I can only use for the good.  You are the purest of them all. The sun is shining  down on you so all the world can see." It is shining  on you to grow you so you can spread your petals to the ends of the earth. You might be different then  the rest in the valley but that's good for them....

         "A relationship where you can be set apart with peace, grace, love, purity, and holiness is THE PREFECT relationship. It might be hard at times but it is worth it at other times. Being that Lily in the Valley and letting that Only True Relationship shine on you is a beautiful picture."        God has been 4 important words on my mind and heart this week to just think about and to grow in with Him and the people around me. He has done this by 3 ways. The first way is when it started Sunday night at Bible study. I had someone praying behind me and all I could hear was the 2 words grace and peace. I had no idea what that person meant but when we talking about how we can be delivers of God's Word and encourage people in God and I was already doing that to my children but I was a bit scared of what my other co-workers would think. I've never had a job where I could be up front and open about what I believed unless they're were other beli...

New Hope, New Life Spring is the season for new Life. Things start to bloom and The sun shines more. Birds Start to sing again. It seems to Bring new hope and is being Reborn again. That’s only one of the amazing Thing about God’s creation. It Is new every season just like Our lives. Easter is in the Spring Too which is the holiday meaning Everything has risen from the dead But only One Important Person Because without Him we couldn’t Have all this. There are seasons in our lives Where we think “God, where Are you? Are you here?” He is Bout on the quiet side because He is wanting us to come to Him. Those seasons are like Winter. Then there are season where He Has risen from the dead of Winter So to say and those seasons are Like spring. They bring new life and New hope, dreams and new Directions. He has opened our eyes More in ways we ever thought ‘ Could be. He takes away the old and Gives the back the new. Ch...

         Where do I start? Work was AMAZING! God was so there! The 1st thing that happened was that I had 2 girls, and they were both family hug me at the same time while playing in a room. The littlest one was on my lap and the bigger sister just came and wrapped her arms around the both of us. I don't really know what a family is yet because I'm young but right there was a perfect picture and they weren't even my children.           The 2nd thing that happened today was amazing! We got a new, Hispanic girl Friday night so I only saw her at movie and bed time. Today she just opened up to me. She showed me a "T" that she had drawn and she said, kid you not, "This is the cross Jesus died on." I asked her, "Can you draw Jesus?" and she said, "No" and asked me to so I did. This was out of the blue. I left the room for a little bit to go tell a co-worker and I went back and I asked, "Do you know why Jesus died on the cross for you?...

           It has been a long time since I have done one of my devos. so I thought I would type one up today that I have already written out and I'm doing these for a small Bible study at my church so it goes both ways.  This devo. is from Genesis 2:8-14.           "Then the Lord God planted a garden in Eden, in the east, and there He placed man He had created. And the Lord God planted all sorts of trees int he garden-beautiful trees that produced delicious fruit. At the center of the garden He placed the tree of life and the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. A river flowed from the garden of Eden watering the garden and then broke into four branches. One branch is the Pishon, which flows around the entire land of Havilah, where gold is found. The gold of that land is exceptionally pure, aromatic resin, and onyx stones are also found there. The 2nd branch is the Gihon, which flows around the entire land of Cush. Th...

        Sorry I am behind again. It has been another busy week but hopefully this next week will be a lot slower. Children are so straight forwards with what they think most of the time. Sometimes it makes you think if they even know what they are talking about. I had this one girl this week (same one I have been talking about a lot lately) that had 2 very important chats with me. The first one all started when she saw a shadow outside while she was swinging and her shadow was "following" her. I was trying to explain to her that when she gets in the way of the sun that is what makes her shadow. Then the next thing I hear is "Just like my daddy is watching me." To me, she thinks her shadows are her daddy looking down on her and watching her. I asked her, "Where is your daddy watching you from?" and she said, "Up there." She told me about how she misses her daddy and how she likes him better then the one she has now because of certain reasons I can...

Something Greater: A Prayer Poem Inspired By: Psalm 46:10 and a friend Daddy, there are moments in My life when I feel hopeless. Moments I don’t feel like I have A purpose. There is a hole or Empty spot in me. I feel like I’m striving for Something greater. Something That I can only reach myself. I don’t need to strive for anything. In fact, I need to crease striving. I need to be still and know You Are God. I need You to fill that Empty spot that only You can. You have greater things for me If I’d let You lead. I need to Have peace in knowing You Know what is best for me. I filled it with people’s thoughts, Jobs, helping people out but it’s not About doing. It’s about Grace, Your Grace, and receving it. Letting it Come to me. It’s nothing I earn. Why am I striving for it then? If I am in Your Path for me then You will show me that something Greater when I am ready for it. Might not be until I get to Heaven Becau...

            We are like children seeking for God's attention. This is the theme I felt like God has been teaching me this past week with my little girl. She is so self-seeking and she takes everything you say for real. There is no maybe with her. It is a yes or a no so you have to be careful what you say to her. She also as a really good memory. I can't tell the whole story of her and what has happened but I can say that she needs all the attention she can get. She can go to this joyful, little girl to one throwing a big fit in no time at all if you don't give just her the attention. I noticed this espically at the end of the week when we got another new little girl.           The 1st little girl had the bedroom and me rocking and reading to her and only her for a week or more and then here comes another little girl. The first night with the two girls were really hard for me because they are both in for not getting enough...

It has been right at a week since I wrote last and I'm sorry about that. I've been pretty busy with life and work. I had to go in early on some days for work and then just my normal routine in with that makes things busy once in awhile. I will try to do some poems this week although I have interesting things planned for this week but again it will be busy so we'll see if I get chances to write or not. God has given me to amazing chances this week. I shouldn't say chances but answers to prayers but now I have to still keep praying because one of them I don't know what to do. The first answer to prayer came to me Friday morning at 1:00. It was that I could have a week mission trip paid for to Guatemala through this mission project this summer by a couple I never have met. How it came about was I was talking to a lady that ran a children's home in MO where I went to college at and I went to the home maybe once while in college but my friends went a lot more. She go...