Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

         2020 was a hard year for most of us. It was the year of the COVID sickness. It was the year of staying home. It was the year of doing everything virtual. It was also the year of staying away from people and wearing masks. Yet I am trying to look at how I bloomed during this hard year and I know of some of the ways that I have. This year might have been hard but I have bloomed so much at the same time during this year and got to do things I would never have gotten to do. I am looking how I bloomed because "bloom" was my word of the year this year. It is strange because we all had to bloom in a lot of different ways. Strange how God works sometimes, huh?             Here are some of the things that come right to mind when I think of blooming in 2020: -Got a new job. - I made closer friends at work. - I connected with some of the kids that I thought    I wouldn't at the start of the year. -Been through 3 directors at...

         I actually wrote this entery down in a notebook about a week ago but I. Just now getting the chance to write it here. I was so down in the dumps this December because of everything going on but after writing this out (aka my feelings), I felt better and wanted to do a lot more things like wrap more presents and bake a lot. It was like once I let things leave my shoulders, I could feel Christmasy again. That's a feeling that should never leave me. Anyways, here is what I wrote in my notebook:                It is a very strange Christmas/December for me. The strangest thing is I don't feel like I should this time of year. Doesn't feel right to me. Now since I can remember, Christmas has been my favorite holiday and still is. I call myself the Christmas baby but that has another story behind it. I love shopping, giving gifts, sending cards, family and friends, and teaching Christmas to my kids. I went into this Dece...

The snow is falling as I make my way back home. I feel so grateful I have somewhere I can go. But in troubled times like these, with all the ones in need, its Christmas time, so ,Jesus, I'm before you on my knees. We pray for joy. We pray for peace, from the west unto the east. And that every man may find someone to love. (find someone to love) We pray for strength. We pray for light. And on this holiest of nights, deliver hope where there's despair. (hope where there's despair) Jesus, hear our Christmas prayer. I pray that I become what you would have me be. That I would give as much as you have given me. In a world that's torn apart, heal the hatred in our hearts. Its Christmas time and there's no better time for us to start. We pray for joy. We pray for peace, from the west unto the east. And that every man may find someone to love. (find someone to love) We pray for strength. We pray for light. And on this holiest of nights, deliver hope where there's despai...