Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

         Here are the 30 things I was Thankful for in the month of Thanksgiving. I can say that it helped each day go easy because when I woke up I would think of something I was thankful for a write it on my Facebook. I would go back to that thing if I was having a hard day or the things before that I wrote. I would even write 2 or 3 things down in the same day and then when it was time for that date of the day I would write it down to remind me of what I was thankful for.           I was even thinking about keeping it going throughout December so I would be thankful all holiday season and maybe that would get me into the habit for the New Year. We will see how many days I go can into December and then I'll write an entry for that month.           Here is the 30 things I was thankful for in November for Thanksgiving:           -Day 1: I am thankful that I live in a small apartment. ...

          I called this entry "Missing the Stories" because I do miss the stories from my last job. Some of them were sad but at the same time they showed me how blessed I was with the things I have. Sometimes the stories were funny stories too because the children had great minds. I just think about all the stories I heard, I read, and I told them too and it just still breaks my heart but I am making some new stories at my new jobs. There are stories about my co-workers instead of the children but still it is neat and sad to hear them depending on what we are talking about.          I love hearing about people's lives eespically when their lives are different then yours. It is getting down to that deeper part of getting to know the people. The part that I love to get at because I am a listener at heart and I like to learn all the time, which you do learn when you listen to stories. I, kind of, have a story here that I would like to wri...

        I was talking to a co-worker about what Christmas traditions I do and how I decorate the Christmas because she is putting one up for the first time this year. I got really hot and shakey and I probably even blushed but it is because I talked for the first time about something that I never thought I would have to talk about without the person by my side. It was the first time that I talked about my Grandma and her Christmas traditions without her living. I got through the talking with my co-worker without crying but then I came home and cried about it.         This Christmas is going to be really different and so hard without any grandparents to go visit. That got me thinking about the step by step and day by day that we need to live and do things. I started to ask a lot of questions to God during my quite time and here are some of the questions: -What are the simplest little things in my life? -What little, simplest step by step thing ...

           I got this idea/outline of how I want to pray from a friend. It was really encouraging to see a friend pray like this and actually talk about what happened after the prayer they prayed. I love to see answers to pray, even when it is the simplest of prayers, which this prayer was. It is what my friend wanted and God felt like it was okay to give it. These "points" are just want caught me off guard when I was listening to my friend's encouragement. There are 3 points that my friend made: -God's Will be done -For His Glory -In His Name -Everyday for the simple things. The End of the points. Then I added this point since it is what I learned Saturday night at church: -Overflowing with the Holy Spirit. How I am hoping to use those points is to write them down and then follow them by a prayer request that I really want or need. Because you can pray something like "God's Will be done" in this certain situation or for the day. I want to ...

         I will write this entry because I have been thinking a lot about the difference between women and men. Just seeing some of the things my guy friends are interested really makes me see how different we really are in our gender differences if that makes any sense at all. I call this entry "Home Vs. Truck" because that is the first thing that I thought about that was different between women and men but then this past week I had another thought.  What about "Children Vs. Outdoors" or "Children Vs. Hunting/Fishing" or "Home Vs. Shed". It could go on and on.          The idea of this entry is just to help other women see that as women and men we have different hobbies and we were made to run different things in this world but that doesn't mean that we cannot work together and accomplish somethings. I got the "Home Vs. Truck" idea when I was in the Bible Study called "Called to be a Keeper" and I was learning more about...

       Sorry that I am just now writing another entry. I know it has been awhile since I wrote one but I have been really busy with work and family things. This is something very special that I came across during one of my work breaks this week and I just had to share. I came across it because I have been feeling this certain feeling and I wanted to know why I was feeling the way I was. I was so confused at first but then finding this verse helped me a little to sort out those feelings. Here is the verse and a meaning on one word in the verse: "Stop depriving one another, except by agreement for a time, so that you may devote yourselves to prayer, and come together again so that  Satan will not tempt you because of your lack of self-control."-Corinthians 7:5 Deprive-"To remove or withhold something from the enjoyment or possession of (a person or persons)        This verse really means a lot to me. Why is God, all ...

          This year, even these past few months, have had a lot of changes going on for me and I don't like them. I don't like change period. I hate it with a passion. I know it is funny to hear this from a women you wanted to travel like a missionary for awhile but now I see I hate it and couldn't live with it. I think I just had too much in my life as a little girl that I want to stay in one place and settle there. I am ready to settle with job and house and just start a real life.            With grandparents passing away and jobs changing, these past two years, I noticed I don't like changes at all. It was job after job changing different positions in those jobs. I just want to be in one position for more then 6 months. I'm really not liking the childcare field, the more I spend time in it. It is so much changing and not settling. I just want to be hired in one position with my degree that I spent 5 years getting and stay in th...

        I came up with this title after going over to someone else's house and seeing how many Bible verses they had up around their house and all the different ways they had them up. It was the week of the Bible study that I am in where we are called to make a home and we went over to another person's house to see what making a Christ centered home felt like and looked like. I got a lot of neat ideas from that home to use someday in my main home but then I came back to my small apartment and looked around.          I was thinking that I wanted to do the verses they way this person did them in her home. They were big on her walls and very pretty. There were wall hangings all around with verses or even nice, encouraging sayings on them. I was jealous at first because being a FACS major I love that kind of stuff and I've wanted my own big house ever since I got done with college. It is just a part of who I am and how I was raised but then I go...

          I am going to write a prayer out of here that I wrote out in my journal a few nights ago. It is really close to me so I will leave so spots empty so you can fill them in yourselves but I think this is a pray that every women, especially Christian women should pray about herself and her future husband. Here is the prayer:         Dear Daddy,                I heard at my Bible study this past week that "the husband is the spiritual leader of the household and he is held accountable in Your Eyes for most things, if not all things. I loved hearing that and that took a lot of weight of me for some reason. I don't know what I was thinking but I felt a huge sign of relief after hearing that. Now I will admit that at first I went: Ha! ha! ha! but then I got thinking about it and to me that is a sign of maturity for the guy of his part. If he can lead something other then a family like a business or...

         I will admit that I came up with the title last month but there were other things that I wanted to write down and get out of my mind. I thought the other things I wrote before this one would help more people so I wrote them first so I wouldn't forget them. Now I am trying to catch up with my mind a little bit, which at times can be hard since I think so much about things.          Back in October, it was probably the start of October because there are some days there that are really important to me, I was looking through my old pictures on Facebook and other pictures that I had of me. When I say old pictures I mean from college onwards and I compared them to some of the now or more recent ones of me. Granted they were pictures that I meant to pose in and before events that I dressed up for but still it made me think about something important. Something that I needed to be reminded of and I guess lost not too long after I moved ...

          This entry will just be some sermon notes that I took last night at church during the sermon. The title is also taken from the sermon. I didn't come up with it on my own. This entry will be more of a list and a lot of verses because I want to remember this sermon and this is one way that I can do that. The list will be you become the New You when you give yourself over to Christ. These are some of the New Ways in which the Bible says to become close to the likeness of Christ.         This is what the Old You looks and acts like before giving your life to Christ:                -Your mind is controlled by the thoughts of this world.                -You are trapped in your sins.                -Your heart is harden.          The verses these ideas come from are: Eph. 4:20-21.   ...

         I just got done with a counseling appointment and I want to talk about what I realized there. I don't like sharing much of what I talk about in counseling but this lesson I think everyone will learn from one way or another. It is about getting and giving encouragement and the facial expressions on your face without even knowing them.          I don't know where I have been for the past 2 years but I know I have not been quite myself in those two years and I think I know reasons why. I'm not putting anyone down but learning more about myself and what I can handle and what I need as a person. One of the big things I need is: ENCOURAGEMENT. I cannot not live without it at all whether in a job or from friends and family. I think one of my love laugaunges is words of encouragement. Those words make me feel better about myself.         I knew encouragement was a big thing to me. I loved giving and getting it but ...

        I was going to talk about my house and life when I was thinking about this title and typing it out but then I got to thinking about something else these past two days and that is about my big dream. I love this verse because it has been hitting me a lot of ways lately for a lot of things. First, it hit me about my small apartment, then job, and now my future and the path God has for me now and onwards.            “Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much,  and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much."- Luke 16:10           I had a friend say something like, "Do you know why we set goals so high and dreams that are unattainable? It is because when we make it, it is all worth it. We don't need to be the next biggest thing, we just need to be making an impact.           I will say that I  responded...

"You are worth investing in, sweet sister. You are a daughter of the King, A HOLY PRINCESS, a woman with a purpose in this world and a calling on your life. YOU ARE OF INFINITE VALUE and no one can take your place."- Holley Gerth       I found this quote on my daily calendar last week and it really hit at a soft spot for me. I hate to admit it but sometimes I get so wrapped up in wanting to mean something to someone that I go looking for that someone, when really that someone should be looking for me. My future husband/man of my dreams should be looking for me, not the other way around. I am worth investing in for that one special person. That special person as to try and get me to talk. He has to ask questions that really matter and that are really deep.         People say that I am quite and shy, which is true but that is because I like to have deep talks with anyone and everyone. I don't like the small talk at all. I want to get to know a pe...

  " While Jesus was still talking to the crowd, his mother  and brothers  stood outside, wanting to speak to him.   Someone told him, “Your mother and brothers are standing outside, wanting to speak to you.”  He replied to him,  “Who is my mother, and who are my brothers?”-Matthew 12:46-48 "Now Jesus’ mother and brothers came to see him, but they were not able to get near him because of the crowd.   Someone told him, “Your mother and brothers  are standing outside, wanting to see you.”   He replied,  “My mother and brothers are those who hear God’s word and put it into practice.”-Luke 8:19-21        These two verses really spoke to me this past week because of situations that have been going on with some friends. I can't say too much about the situations because I want to respect my friends but I will say why these verses have touched me this week and what I learned from them.        ...