Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

-The Way of Love (1 Cor. 13:1-13) -What is a spiritual person?          -1 Cor. 4:18-19 -"We are called, as spiritual people, to grow in Love." -Agapa Love-"a deep Love for the unworthy."            -to behold-1 Cor. 13:11-12            -Fully known and still Loved by God            -Even the deepest, darkest secrets -to become-Verse 13 (NASB) -"Agapa love is impossible without God." -"in enterity, hope and faith will go away but Love won't." -I made a list of what I need to work on to really know that I love   the people around me. These are the things that, for me, I need to work on everyday and pray that God will give them to me.                         -I need patience everyday.             -I need to stop being rude.         ...

YES I WILL  LEAH DIPASCAL DAY: 38 | PLAN: 1-2 SAMUEL Today’s Reading:  2 Samuel 7 2 Samuel 7:11b-13 (NIV)   “ The   L ORD   declares   to you that the   L ORD   himself will establish   a house   for you:   When your days are over and you rest   with your ancestors, I will raise up your offspring to succeed you, your own flesh and blood,   and I will establish his kingdom.   He is the one who will build a house   for my Name,   and I will establish the throne of his kingdom forever. ”  As we grow in our relationship with the Lord a natural progression should happen where we want to please God more and do things that honor Him. We can come up with all sorts of great ideas and programs to serve God and point others to Him. In today’s reading, we discover David had those same ideas. David had come up with a really good plan. A plan that would honor and glorify God. A plan that included building ...

In The Pain      In the pain there are a lot of things we don't see. We are so caught up in that painful moment we don't realize how great we can learn from them. It is always good when we look back at the pain and see the lessons in them.      In the pain people can see the hope of whatever the pain is. The hope of whatever the pain is. The hope at the end of the tunnel. It is a light shining brightly from the pain. It is scary because no matter the season of your life, there is always pain.      In the pain of living single, you will never to have the one to save you. The hope from that is "The One" saves and Loves you everyday. You could be lonely every now and then bu remember that the Lord is there. In the pain of losing the ones you love, it's hurt and they will be missed. Sometimes we don't understand why they are taken away from us. I know for me it was to make me stronger and see life as a gift everyday...

          I just started reading the book by the singer, Plumb called "Need You Now" yesterday and I am on chapter 6 already out of 22 chapters. It is hard to put that book down. I am writing about it because it fits my life so perfectly. It is like I wrote the book but replaced some of the events because I didn't want to write about them. It is that close and heart touching to me. I wouldn't be surprised if I finish it by next Friday.         I heard of the book from a college friend of mine and she even said it would be perfect for me to read. She was right! She read it first and loved it.         The funny thing is that Plumb's real name is Tiffany too so that makes it even closer for me. I already love how she gave the verses that helped her through her anxiety. She also already said that she tried everything under the sky to help her calm her anxiety but it was only ...

         I say something a lot to reason with myself when things get hard. I find that I say this saying a lot about people too. The saying is, "Gotta Love......"(fill in the blank). I have said that a lot. That is probably one of my favorite sayings and I didn't see what I see now until the last time I said it. It really can mean something important.          "Gotta Love......" means that you have to love whatever you put at the end. Now I have to be careful with saying that since I have thought about it that way. Really, though, I don't throw it around that much. I say it when I mean it. I also say it after something crazy or silly someone did. I say it after those things to remind myself that no matter what I still gotta love them. I have to love them for who they truly are even if they are crazy.           Now if I can only say "Gotta Love God" that would r...

Pain!                     "I Purpose to Believe in.......Pain" is this month's focus and boy have I had a lot of it and all kind of it, you could ever think of. Yet, I focus on it for a good reason and in a good way. Pain can be hurtful and there was a moment in time this month that that is the kind of pain that I felt. With Easter this month and everything else going on in my life right now, I think God is teaching me about the good that can come out of any kind of Pain. It is funny because I didn't think about Easter at all when I was coming up with my word for the month to focus on. In fact, I just noticed now that those two went together and being the Easter month is why. That would has been on my mind a lot this past month. Sorry I am just now getting to write about it but I guess it is good that I write at the end of the month so I can tell you my experiences with the word I picked.  ...

        I am sorry if I scared anyone, which I know I did, with my last real entry but it needed to be done. It might have been the meds. that I was on for my anxiety and I think I have gotten that taken care as of now but the weeks I was on the bed meds. and the entry and reactions that I got really made me think about something that this world doesn't have to offer. That is why I called this entry "reverse Thinking". People know me and they know that the entry was not me at all and I understand that. but what about if that entry was written from a non-Christian and maybe even disturbing person. Would we think to go her them like people helped me? I know it might be a strange comparison but if you really think about it, how true is it?         As a world nowadays with the internet, people only put up happy things that are going on in their lives. We really don't know what is going on in their lives, do we? People use the internet to get lies and...

Proverbs 3 The Message (MSG) Don’t Assume You Know It All 3  1-2  Good friend, don’t forget all I’ve taught you;      take to heart my commands. They’ll help you live a long, long time,      a long life lived full and well. 3-4  Don’t lose your grip on Love and Loyalty.      Tie them around your neck; carve their initials on your heart. Earn a reputation for living well      in God’s eyes and the eyes of the people. 5-12  Trust  God  from the bottom of your heart;      don’t try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for  God ’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;      he’s the one who will keep you on track. Don’t assume that you know it all.      Run to  God ! Run from evil! Your body will glow with health,      your very bones will vibrate with...

           I don't give a dam who read this and what is said to me about it but this is how I feel and I want everyone to fucking know it too. I'm funking sick of of hiding everything underneath me and try to be strong when I am not. I am funking sick of being the good and caring people when no one else sees what I am trying to do and do it back. I'm funking sick of my life and my anxiety. Nothing is working and I have tried different things for about 4 years and still not one makes me feel better. I'm sick of barely getting by on the money I have and having no fun because I don't make enough money. I'm sick of the apartment I have because the others around me are loud. I'm sick of not having a bathroom that works right. I'm sick of not having friends that I can trust and that I always have to try and get together with to find out what is going on in their lives. They don't know me anything and I find out at a wedding certain things happened to them....

A window is a Faglie thing. It lets you See things on the other side. It will always make you appear Happy and put together to The world even when you are Not. Windows are usually used To see the pretty things on the Outside. Sometime it is even Double panned so it won't break As easily. We might not think about it Much but the human heart Is just like a window. Not just The heart but the whole human Being. We are so good at putting On a face on the outside that we Want everyone to see even when We aren't feeling great. We don't Often share what we are thinking Or what is going on in our lives. We just want to look like the world We live in so we blend in by hiding. We do that until someone breaks Our window down. We feel strong And able until someone finds out Our weaknesses. Then we are discovered and known. Those two Things scares us to death. We don't Want to be that broken window Where people can see the true us. It is bette...

Good Order in Worship 26  What then shall we say, brothers and sisters?  When you come together, each of you has a hymn,  or a word of instruction,  a revelation, a tongue  or an interpretation. Everything must be done so that the church may be built up.   27  If anyone speaks in a tongue, two—or at the most three—should speak, one at a time, and someone must interpret.   28  If there is no interpreter, the speaker should keep quiet in the church and speak to himself and to God. 29  Two or three prophets  should speak, and the others should weigh carefully what is said.   30  And if a revelation comes to someone who is sitting down, the first speaker should stop.   31  For you can all prophesy in turn so that everyone may be instructed and encouraged.   32  The spirits of prophets are subject to the control of prophets.   33  For God is not a God of disorder  but of peace —as in al...