Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

"Put your thoughts and feelings aside and only hear God. God is always growing and changing us, and it is good not to be comfortable, because if we are comfortable we are not open to the change God could be making in us. God will put the answers on our hearts.......all in His Timing." This great advice was given to me by a college friend 3 years ago and it still stands true in my life today because I'm not done changing. It was when I was going through some changing in my life. My friend also gave me steps in that letter that I just recongized this season of my life. When you want to know something or have questions, when should ask the Right One and that is God. If we are in the middle of trying to firugre out which way to go, we need to pray and have others pray for us.  Pray for wisdom and guidence and for His Will to be done in our lives. I got that back then in college when this was wrote but something I didn't get and am learning a lot right now is "ta...

"You are the best of them all!" one of my little boys said to me at work. God knows what you need to hear at the right time. He has given me moments with the same little boy this week so far. First, it's I want to be a class teacher like you." and now it is "You are the best of them all!" I was so touch that the little boy would think of me as the best of them all and was kind of prideful at work about it on the inside.  I also got to thinking okay, grown men you need to take some advice from this little boy. Then God like He always does humbled me with it after work after I had time to think about it some. When you really think about the saying, "You are the best of them all!" What comes to mind? In the situation I am in it's I'm the best teacher or the best caregiver that this child has had. When it comes in a situation with God and us, He is telling us "You are the best of them all!" It is giving His Son up for us, sinners. It...

Once upon a time there was this little, country Princess that lived in a big city. She had live in the country or at least in a small town all her life and thought it would be neat to move to the big city because of all the adventures that she could have in the city. She spent about 2 years there and decided she really didn't like it as much as the country. The city was fine but when she was able to go out to the country she felt like a child. She could dance in the rain puddles on gravel roads, walk in the woods, fish in the pond, and all the things you could do outdoors. There was nobody around but the people you knew and you wouldn't get lost so easily. She became close to the people she was around. She didn't have all these different people that she felt like she had to hang out with. There was some good in the city but it stressed her out a lot. She just had this feeling and it was a happy feeling when she was in country everything was right with the world. She loved h...

"It isn't the simple things that count, it is the very simple things that count." It is 4:30 in the morning on a Saturday and I have this big headache and couldn't sleep so I thought I would write here because it has been awhile and a week. Where do I start? God is growing me a lot with my job and personal life this week. He has made me see things at my job that matter and wants me to do bigger things with my personal life and friendships. I saw a lot this week at work the saying that I started this entery out with and I'll say it again. "It isn't the simple things that count, it is the very simple things that count." That saying came to me this week at work when one of my little boys' sister smelled her brother (my little boy) and came up to me and said, "Thank you for making my brother smell so good. He hasn't smelled that way in a long time." I got to thinking how much to do take smelling good for grant whether it is taking a bat...

Strange title I know but right now at this stage in my life that is how I feel. I really need to take the advice that I have been giving to my children lately about the dark. I have put this girl to bed twice this past week that is scared of the dark and I been giving her advice that I just realized tonight that I need to be listening to along too. First night it was about how she was scared of the dark. She wanted the door open and to lay where she could see the light coming in. She also wanted to see that there was a way out. I sat there talking to her and telling her that she was safe with us and that if she woke up and needed to she could walk out the door and someone would be there for her. She needed me to sit by her on the floor and just talk to her about things. She wanted someone to listen to her. The next night was the same thing but it was more listening to her then seeing the light but she still needed to see the light for a bit. When she would cry, she would cry for mommy ...

Lately, my posts have been about my dreams and the country. They went from being all about Guatemala and missions to the good, ole country. Why? I don't know. I have been thinking a lot lately about the country and about my heart's desires and I'm realizing really strange things. I've always been the small town type of girl, I will admit. I grew up in a small town and graduated from a small high school and always dreamed of living out in the country. Every summer my family would take vactions to Montana when I was younger. I thought it was just a phase I was going through. That I would grow out of it once I knew what more was out in the world but I don't think I'm going to and that is fine by me. I grew up on the farm my 1st 4 years of life and loved it. I love going back to this day and just feeling the peace and quite there. Dinfantly the memories of me as a little girl too playing with the chicks, walking in the woods, playing in the pond. Ok, I better stop b...

Dear Daddy, I miss my simple, country life and Montana. I would give anything to go on the lake or fishing or take a walk in the woods again. I would give anything to touch chickens and any kind of farm animals again. You know this country girl has always wanted to ride a tractor. Is this my real dream deep down to live in the country and stay at home on the farm? Could I do that? Could I settle like that and work at a church? It's the simple things that count the most. In Jesus' name, Amen I could go into more details but I don't want to embrass anyone if they read this. I'm truly a country girl at heart and that is where I might end up too. Gathering the eggs, milking the cows, planting garden, walking in the woods, laying on the grass at night looking up at the moon and the stars, and fishing and even dare might I say hunting.  There is no better way to live life!

A friend gave me these chapters because I've been struggling with things since I have been back from Guatemala and it just seems like more things just keep piling up one by one. I'm in the mood to fix everything because I see things that need to be fixed and my heart goes out to those things. It is just a after mission trip feeling. Really my friend gave me the chapters 29-31 to look at because they were about how Jacob was in a situation for so long without getting what he deserved and he ran away from it but faced it when it found him. I read a little before because I was just interested in what happened before and that is what really caught my attention in chapter 28 of Genesis. I was reading it over and I felt like God was saying this about Guatemala to me and with everything that is going on right now in my life.  "What's more, I will be with you wherever you go. I will someday bring you back safely to this land (aka Guatemala). I will be with you constantly un...