Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

“Each one should test their own actions. Then they can take pride in themselves alone, without comparing themselves to someone else.” Galatians 6:4 (NIV)  Proverbs 30:8b-9:  “Give me just enough to satisfy my needs. For if I grow rich, I may deny you and say, ‘Who is the LORD?’ And if I am too poor, I may steal and thus insult God’s holy name.” -(NLT)  ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~           Living the life I want to love is so hard to do. It is also hard to not compare yourself with the people around you especially when they have the better life or so you think. I want to have just enough to satisfy my needs. Having too much or too little could be bad for a person. My question is: When do you know you are satisfied with your needs? Is it when you love your life and are happy with where you are? If that is, then I haven't been there for a few years now and won't be until a few years after. I don't know whe...

                What does it look like to Seek the Lord?

1 Cor. 14:1 14  1-3  Go after a life of love as if your life depended on it—because it does. Give yourselves to the gifts God gives you.-MSG 6-8  Think, friends: If I come to you and all I do is pray privately to God in a way only he can understand, what are you going to get out of that? If I don’t address you plainly with some insight or truth or proclamation or teaching, what help am I to you? If musical instruments—flutes, say, or harps—aren’t played so that each note is distinct and in tune, how will anyone be able to catch the melody and enjoy the music? If the trumpet call can’t be distinguished, will anyone show up for the battle? 9-12  So if you speak in a way no one can understand, what’s the point of opening your mouth? There are many languages in the world and they all mean something to someone. But if  I  don’t understand the language, it’s not going to do me much good. It’s no different with you. Since you’re so eager to participate in...

John 15:16 New International Version (NIV) 16  You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you  so that you might go and bear fruit —fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~             This verse is my verse of the month for June. I found it at the start of this month and with everything that I am going through right now, it just seemed to fit right in. I was having a hard time with being happy with where I was and what was going on in my life but having this verse on my bathroom mirror throughout this entire month has been a good reminder for me. I am going to tell you what it means to me and why I put it up for a month.             First, I love the first part where it says, "you did not chose me, but I chose you and appointed you". It reminded me that God loved me enough to chose me in ...

           Sorry about the title. I know it is a boring one but that is all I can come up with for now. I am writing this right now in a hurry because I am at my parents' house about ready to leave in a half a hour. I really wanted to get this written out because, even as a women, it spoke to me. When I say "it", I mean the sermon that was taught at my parents' church this morning. It was the perfect Father's Day sermon for our Heavenly Father, fathers now, and future fathers and then just add the word "husbands" in there too to make you think that way. It was strange because the preacher started out in Acts and that was the main book for today but also spent most of his time in Ephesians with the husbands' and wives' verses.          As some of you might know I am at that age or almost at that age where I'm just sick of trying to find the right guy. It can be so hard not knowing what to look for or understand why a certain guy doe...

“Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.” Psalm 27:14 (NIV)  1 Corinthians 3:7, “So neither the one who plants nor the one who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow.” (NIV) Galatians 6:9, “Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” (NIV) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ " I have set my rainbow  in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth."-Genesis 9:13-TGH "In the  Lord  I take refuge.      How then can you say to me:      “Flee  like a bird to your mountain."- Psalm 11:1-THG " God blessed them and said to them,   “Be fruitful and increase in number;   fill the earth   and subdue it. Rule over   the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky and over every living creature that moves on the ground...

           I just want to write a fast blog entry here for tonight. Something was said again to me today that I found odd but it could have been true and probably is if I would just stop and think about it a little while. I had a person tell me today, that I was probably the only one around that went to a place like church. Here is why that person said that. I mean she had every right to and I wasn't offended by it at all but I just never really thought about it either in that place.            I have a little child in my class, that his dad goes to the same church I go to, and the person just asked me if I went to that same church. I don't know how people find out of this stuff but they were just talking about it and wondered if it was me because I have been outspoken about my belief in Christ. I would mention little things like where I went to church and things like that so I just think I crossed their minds when the parents...

         I was talking to a friend this past month about things. Mainly about her crush and how she shouldn't have one because of all the drama. It was just too much for her to handle and all the mixed messages that were going back and forth but then she said something that really got me thinking. She asked the question, "Why go through all the drama?" For me, I have never had a real boyfriend and that mainly because I am stubborn and sassy and independent but I have had my share of crushes.          Some other people might want to add on to the list and that is fine with me but what I am saying is "why didn't I think of that question too?" It would have saved me a lot of pain from the past to the present if I thought of things that way. I think that having a crush is more drama then having a really boyfriend because you get your hopes up too high and then they are crushed by a person that you might have cared about. It is this whole th...

          Let's see if I can write this one pretty fast since I have somewhere to be in a little while. I want to get it out though because I forget about it and the dreams that I have been having this past week. Usually I am not that big of a dreamer and if I do dream I just shove them off because I almost forget right away when I wake up. I am the type of person where I feel like I am somewhere else and doing something else but can't remember when I wake up. I have had two dreams this week that really stuck out to me and I am wondering why.           Like I said I only remember where I was and what I was doing. There are no words or actions yet. Early this week like Monday or Tuesday night I had a dream to where I felt like I was just sitting and talking with someone. I want to say that that someone was my grandma, which is really special because she is gone and it will be a year in August since she passed away. I feel like it was her...

           It is late for me and I should be saying my prayers and going to bed because it has been a so so day but I just got to thinking about something and I want to write it out. I was looking my different colleges and programs to go back to and maybe get another degree in something different because I am learning childcare is harder then I thought it was. I am also learning that I am a different person then I thought I was and I kind of wish I knew that in college. Don't get me wrong. I loved it in college and I went to one of the best ones in Missouri but I just didn't know myself at that time. I think all I was thinking about is, "Well, it is college and who needs to think 10 years down the road in college."              I went to College of the Ozarks and I couldn't have asked for a better college. I loved that it was nestled in the Ozarks and the community there was great. I met some amazing people that I will ne...

"Jesus replied, "You don't understand now what I am doing, but someday you will."-John 13:7           I saw this verse on my Facebook front page and it was on the rapper's TobyMac's Facebook Page. He was the one that put it up and I just reposted it because it is true for me right now. This verse fits my life perfectly right now. I forgot where it was in the Bible so I looked it up this more and it is in the story of where Jesus washes the disciples' feet. As strange as my life is now, I can relate to the whole story when I was reading it.           The disciples were question Jesus and they wouldn't let him do it before the knew the reason way he was doing it. He gave them this answer that I have up above but then he went on to explain something. He went on to explain what he had done and why. Even though, I am your Master and Teacher, I washed you feet. Now you must wash other people's feet as well. I was the example and now you mu...

          I'm learning and growing a lot this week and will be doing those two things this month too. It has started out hard for me. May ended hard and June started hard but I can get through the changes. It only grows and teaches me things. New things about what to do and new things about myself and people that I care about that I didn't know.           Let's start with my job that I do truly love and am blessed to have in so many ways. Let's just say that I really feel like a teacher and that is good because I want to feel that my entire life but it is hard at the same time. I am the Lead toddler teacher and this is what I am learning right now. We are, of course, transitioning because the Pre-K is going to Kindergarten in August so they are graduating and every other child is move up one room. Just at work there is a lot of changes going on for me. The children I started out with in the toddlers' room are moving up and leaving me an...