Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

      When you go through things that can grow you, it is always an adventure. It can be things you knew but never wanted to admitted or it could be new things you learned about yourself. It could also be something you could use for the future like marriage and family. I have had a big adventure these past few months starting with questioning my passion.         I have had a lot of questions going through my head and doubts but I like where I am right now in life. Still learning but that is okay. I can look up at the sky and see the bright stars above me. I am truly happy for once and I am single. That means a lot. Everything that is or has happened in the past months to now as been a process for me.           Here are a few things that I have learned and not scared to admit. When I had to move in with my brother and sister in law, it was hard, even spending only two weeks with the...

        "The Giving Tree" has always been one of my favorite books of all time. It always had that meaning of friendship and caring for me. I have not read it in forever until I read it to my class before I left my last job. They all loved it! I thought about it in a different way this time.        The way I thought about it this time was through the nature and outdoors aspect of everything and life that it really does give us.  When the little boy was little, he loved to play outside underneath the tree. He would have fun climbing it and sitting under it and even pretending it was something else. He would use his head and come up with things it could be.          When the little boy grew up, he used the tree for the things he needed. The tree would let him because the tree loved him that much. The tree also missed him hanging out with him. It just shows us that nature can pr...

        I am thankful for my new apartment. I am writing this on my phone so that is why it is so small. I love it so much! It might be a little iffy at night and on the outside but that does not bother me. It is bigger then my last one but not where I really want it to be. I will live with it though. I cannot complain about it. Like every thing else in life, picking and moving apartments has its ups and downs in each one.          The kitchen and bathroom are a lot bigger. The bedroom is about the same or a little bit smaller. That is where I would like a little bit more room. The bedroom closet is a little bigger too so again I cannot complain. There is a little bit less cabinet space and bar space but then again I have three storage closets to put my things in so that is good too. The clothes room is twice the size that the one at my other apartment was and this one has double doors to close it in where the ...

          I Love my new job! It is my dream job for now until I get an idea of what I want to do next with my life. The job kind of goes along with my "Living to Serve" plan that I made up in high school during a FFA conference in Washington DC. I am going to write it out and then tell you how my job is almost like it and why I like it. Maybe in another entry about my job. Keep that I came up with some of these things when I was in the 11th or 12th grade in high school. Now 5 years later some of it is coming true for me. My "Living to Serve Plan" 1. Commitment Statement      I am committed to being a leader and taking on a "Living to Serve" plan because: I want to respect people more. I also want to help out my friend with their problems. 2. Curiously Observe      I had nothing on this page when I first filled it out but now I would have a lot since I have lived in a bigger city for 5 years. 3. Own a Problem   ...

       I have been away for a few weeks because I haven't been able to really get on my computer without internet but now I got it up and running today in my new apartment so I am back writing. I have a lot to write about because a lot has happened these past few weeks and I need to unload my mind a lot. I hate it when I can't write things out. There has been a lot of sermons like last night's sermon and last weekend's sermon that I need to write about too. I have to tell you all how my new job is going and what my new apartment is like so keep looking and reading this week.        I just thought it was right to start out this part of my blog with a entry titled "Our Needs are met by God" because I have felt like a lot of my needs and even some of my wants were met because of God. I can tell you right now too that I have ever been more happier with life then I am right now. That is a big need that was met my God and it didn't go any way that I wa...

" If our hearts condemn us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything. "-1 John 3:20 " The heart   is deceitful above all things  and beyond cure.  Who can understand it?"-Jer. 17:9         I am outside, in a park, writing on my phone because there is no internet around. I was not going to waste this prefect and beautiful day by staying inside. I am sitting by a small waterfall with my flip flops off and just saw a guy in cowboy boots walking kids across the waterfall. Anyways, I am going to write about the two vereses above.          The 2nd verse we talked about last Sunday at church and the first verse I found while looking for the 2nd verse. I thought they went together so here they are. I love the way the pastor explained the Jer. 17:9 verse. The topic was looking within yourself. It was a communion type sermon. This verse just hit me all of the sudden when he said it and explained it. I h...

           I am at a coffee shop on a Friday night writing this entry. I know I have a big house to myself but it isn't the same when I really want to think and write about something that could be a big entry. Just sayin'. As you see in the title, I have been thinking somewhat about marriage lately but in a good way. I have been learning more about it and what it really means and that those vows you say are really life vows. I talked to my mom this past weekend about both sets of my grandparents and I found something really caring and loving from their relationship. Here it is.          Oddly, enough because older and getting ready and thinking about marriage, I have been comparing the marriages of people in my life and just watching carefully too. I notice that the vow "in sickness and in health" can mean everything in life and it does really because it means different things. It means something as simple as just getting surgery o...

        I'm not going to right a long entry on this one because the verses kind of explain themselves. I will give the main idea. though, and that is: There is good in correction and discipline, both from God and from parents. We never want to make light of either one. I say this but yet it is easy to tell what this entry it about because the verses either has the words "discipline" or "correction" in them.         For the "new" readers: Yes we do get disciplined by God but it is not the hurting kind, like sickness, all the time. It could be like losing a job or not getting to hang out with a friend or taking time to rest when we won't let ourselves rest but know we need to. Just little things like that. The reason I wrote these verses down was because I was taking some correction in my life like I should have so looking up these verses helped me calm down and take the advice from the people around me. It could also help you grow more in Christ i...

Psalm 31:14-15 14  But I trust  in you,  Lord ;      I say, “You are my God.” 15  My times  are in your hands;      deliver me from the hands of my enemies,      from those who pursue me.         I love these two verses because they are really strong especially in the situation I am in now. I need to trust the Lord because He is my God and everything will happen at the right timing. It also helps be remember that my times and life are in His Hands. I am not alone going through what I am now. God is with me at my side. God will deliver me from the hands of people and things that are not good for me. He will also will take the doubting and lying people away from me.          Things will get done in God's timing and I might not see it now or yet. I know when I look back at this moment in my life, I will be thankful for what He did. It might even...

"Each Season is a gift."-Krista Williams-Proverbs 31 Ministries "   I wish that all of you were as I am.  But each of you has your own gift from God; one has this gift, another has that."- 1 Corinthians 7:7           Sitting in a coffee shop with cloudy weather and thinking what is next in my life. That is how my day is going so far. Add drinking an Frozen Oreo Mocha and writing on my own computer to it too. Reading this quote and verse and thinking they should be the theme of my life right now. God is giving me a season that I never had before in my life and yet it is strange for me right now, it will be easy to get use to. I have only been with other people (brother and family) for about two days.          Living two lives can be hard but yet good at the same time. My 2nd life gets my mind off on my own life and on the lives of everyone else especially my nephews and nieces. They, of course, love having their aunt at ...