Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

            As most of you know, I am not big when it comes to talking about what is on the news or about politics but that is usually because I don't know how or what to talk about when it comes to those things. I just leave those things to my dad and big brother to talk about. Lately, though, I have been interested in the Olympics and what Simon Biles has been doing and saying. Some of you might think it is all politics or just the news but I truly believe it is not.                I believe wholeheartedly in what she is saying because I can relate. Mental Health is not something to mess with. I feel like I can relate a lot to Simon Biles and totally understand. Here is my story of Mental Health. I have had anxiety I think since college if not before but I finally admitted it when I was out of college living by myself at 27 years old. I didn't admit it right on my own. It took me a few ...

           I am so scared of what this next year will bring. Everything is up in the air from work to family. Will I have to change jobs because of how daycare is going? We have 4 teachers in the building as I am writing this and we are on quarantine. Have been for 2 weeks. Will my dad be okay? Dad just spent 3 weeks in the hospital and got shingles while in there. Will I get to have that dream wedding I have always dreamed of or will the chapel close again because of this COVID?Will I get to live the life I've always wanted or will the world end before that?            I don't want to have to wear masks again. I don't want to have to stay away from family again. I don't want a world where people are fighting again. I don't want to give up. Why give us this hope when it is going to get crushed again? I don't want to be trapped. I want to be free. I want to go places and see people smile. I don't want to live in a depressed worl...

Dear Future Self, You are reading this because something has happened and you need the courage to get through it. It might be something good and life changing or it might be something sad and hard to deal with. Whatever it is you can get through it! I believe in you! If you can make it through COVID and all the dealings you had to deal with because of that. You can make it through anything! You made it through not seeing your siblings and nieces and nephews for a whole year. You made it through your 2nd year of dating when you couldn't go anywhere. You made it through all of your dad's sicknesses because of it. You even made it through spending months with your parents and you haven't done that in a long time! Just remember for you and the world nothing could be as bad as COVID was when everything was shut down and stood still. It made you rethink things. Made you think what is important in this life. Made you think what things you take for granted all the time. You can get...

May Reflections: May wins: Started yoga, lost a few pounds May hiccups: Not saying enough prayers  May favorite moments: Zack's birthday trip, parents' 50th anniversary, my engagement  May hard moments: Getting more children (up to 17 children) What do I want to start and continue: Continue yoga, start writing verses  Mood Tracker:  Dread: 5 days Powerless: 3 days Eager: 2 days Worried: 4 days Satisfied: 8 days Zeal: 11 days Habit Tracker: Say prayers: 15 days Doing oils: 9 days Doing yoga: 3 days  Not talk wedding: 7 days Play log: 1. Using polar bear as a puppet. 2. Made lemonade with the class. 3. Played dress up and school with the nieces. 4. Playing a pom pom game with kitty. What people bring out out your playful side?          -My nieces and nephews when they were little.    When was the last time you craved out time to play?  What were you doing?           -Probably 2 years ago with the nep...

Luke 12:35-48 Jesus is coming back verses: Mark 8:38 Mark 13:26-27 John 14:3 1 Thess. 4:16-18 Jesus has not abandoned us. Unilmate fix for worry is the 2nd coming of our King. 3 Parables: 1. Be like servants of a master going to a wedding.-verse 35          -Be ready and if you are ready you will be blessed. 2. A theif will come in a night.-verse 40           -No idea when Christ will come.           -1 Thess. 5:2-4           -2 Peter 3:10           -Rev. 16:15 3. Man leaves home to a steward.-verse 40           -towards pastors, ministers, and leaders.            -person who manages home well will be promoted.             -Those who was in charge of teaching The Word will be held to a higher standard and stricter judgment. James 3:1 1 Cor. 4:1 Be ready! The King is Coming! There ...