Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

            I got this title from an app that I am using on my phone everyday now. It is an app where it gives you different ways to be thankful for things in your life. One of the ways was called: "Negative Visualization". It is where you take something bad that is happening in your life or just anything different that you have little time left with it. The app said let it something that will end in the next two to three months. It could be a chapter of your life closing soon. It challenges you to think about why you are grateful for that thing or chapter in your life. That is what this entry will be about why I am grateful about the year 2017. I could go back to a lot of things that happened this year and turn them around for the good of where I am in life now.             I got this challenge on my phone on the 17th of this month. I will write what I wrote on my phone. Here it is: it was, of course, about my job since I was...

             "You're about to transition from being skipped over to being sought after! Relax, you won't have to compete for what God says is yours!"                             This year is ending in a strange way. It feels like the way that I started out in AR. It feels like God is giving me a second chance on everything. It feels like everything is coming around in a complete circle. It feels like a decade of my life is closing and another one is opening up for me. I just turned 30 two days ago and was thinking about how my life has changed this past decade and where God is having me God as I follow Him. If there is one thing that I have learned through the past decade it is to: Trust God and believe that His Timing is Perfect for things. Here are some ways that makes me think my 20s years have came full circle and ready to start a new decade.          ...

         Dear Daddy,                  I pray that this year will be really different then any other. I want to live the next decade worthy of You and "easy". Five passings, going to college, moving to AR on my own, 4 different jobs, and a friendship I am still holding on to. I know I have grown up so much in every way the past 10 years. Please help me use what I have learned in this past decade. You know my main dream that I want to come true. Please make it happen. 8 years of patience are coming to a close. LOL! I am ready for a new adventure in my life. Daddy, I love you too.                                          In Christ's Name      ...

          I have had this idea for the entry for awhile now but I am just getting to write it because I have been very busy with two jobs in the past 2 months. I am really behind on the entries that I write but it is for a good reason. I am going to write about the signs that I have been getting from God on a lot of things. Before Christmas, I saw a lot of signs from Him to change things in my life to make other things happen but also just to make it better and easier for me. Let's start out with the subbing daycare job that I got back a few months ago and where it has put me now.           My last day at my part time after school job was the 21st of December. I do and will miss it but it was something that needed to be done espically if I am going to keep living on my own and that is not in the works to change anytime soon. While I was subbing mornings at the daycare, there was a teacher job that opened up. While saw that as the first ...

          "I want an early birthday present and that is all for me. I want everybody to have a good Christmas."                      That is a quote from a letter to Santa that one of my boys wrote in my group. It was the perfect thing ever! I had to let every teacher around me hear it. I had him read it to every teacher. All this was at the beginning of December so perfect way to start the month too. As the month went on, I kept that thought in my head. I kept remembering that even if I was just with my family this Christmas, it would be a good Christmas. I wasn't going to do letters to Santa because some of my children don't believe in Santa but I went ahead and did it.              I just had them write letters and they could send it or give it to whoever they wanted when they got home. This little boy was the only one that wr...

          "Being in the Moment". If I got to pick how I wanted to end the 2017 year and start 2018, this saying would be it. I have been learning that a lot these past two months and you can tell if you read my past two entries. I give credit to my mom because she has espically been reminding me of this in the past few weeks. Her way of putting it, though, is "Take it one day at a time". If you know me at all, you know I am the kind of person who gets stressed out easily and worry a lot about things.              For some reason, lately though, this saying has hit and stuck with me. I know it's not the first time my mom has said it to me. Maybe it's because I'm going between two jobs? Maybe it's because something big is about to happen in my life? Maybe it's because I need to pay attention to people and things around me more? I don't know the reason but I can't think of any other s...

         It can leave you worrying so much and that worry can run your life. I use to have my life so planned out, it wasn't funny but here recently I am learning that when you don't plan it out, that is the best thing that could happen in your life. God has really been working on me about having Peace with His Plan and not worrying about anything. I know that was the theme this year as I look back on it or at least one of the theme words. PEACE. He made that clear when He was getting me ready for this weekend at church and for this advent week. I had a moment at my job when I discovered that everything was just perfect and I was exactly where I was suppose to be in life right now.           While my co-workers were talking about their plans for their lives, I was just looking out the door thinking "Why plan for your future? Nothing will happen the way you want it to or at least that is how I look at it." Planning for the future is a wa...

                Have you ever had the experience where you had to switch your brain from one thing to another? I have been through that for about a month now and I probably have to go through it for another two weeks. I know it is a strange way to think about what is going on in your head but it is true. People think that it is easy to have two jobs that deals with children of all ages. They think that I have it easy in the mornings or afternoons wherever I am at the time but I don't. I get exhausted by Weds. if I am lucky but it is usually by Tuesday so I am barely getting by the rest of the week.                 People tell me to calm down and that everything will be okay and will come to an end soon but they don't get how hard it is switching from one place to another. They don't know the affects that has on a person, especially a person that already has and can get really bad anxiety. It would be okay i...

Job 23:8-10 New International Version (NIV) 8  “But if I go to the east, he is not there;      if I go to the west, I do not find him. 9  When he is at work in the north, I do not see him;      when he turns to the south, I catch no glimpse of him. 10  But he knows the way that I take;      when he has tested me,  I will come forth as gold. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~            This verse is one I heard last Sunday from my parents' church. I hung out on it all week this week with it. This is the verse that I turned to this week when I needed a reminder. It is a verse about suffering but yet it tells us that there is hope in the making. I also shared this with a friend of mine because I thought it went perfectly to their situation too. I love the promise it has in it.              As you read the ...

            Starting this coming week, I won't get to write everyday. I will be lucky if I get to write 2 times a week. I have some entries that I plan on writing out this weekend so all I have to do is push publish but it won't be done that day. This past week and for another week or two, I have and will be working two part time jobs. I call them that now but really it is one full time job and the other is a part time job. How does that work you might ask? Here is how. I got hired at a new job under the same people and that job is full time but I am staying at my part time job until they find someone to replace me. It is confusing and very unusual for a job to do that but in the field I am in it is no surprise since it is hard to find people that will work for work and not the pay.             It all has been a learning process for me though and in a strange why I kind of like it. Although it is confusing and busy at times, i...

Psalm 9:1 New International Version (NIV) 1  I will give thanks to you,  Lord , with all my heart; A )" style="box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;">      I will tell of all your wonderful deeds. B )" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 0.625em; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 1. Friendship with God 2. Parents that care and help me 3. The Huntin' Grounds 4. My Apartment= a place to live 5. Friends 6. Food to eat 7. A job I love 8. A Truck Horn 9. Clothes to Wear 10. Children 11. Beautiful Fall Colors 12. A way to talk to God about my most important things. 13. Sleep 14. Babies 15. Fellowship Bible Church 16. Co-Workers I can joke with 17.  Phone 18. My Nieces and Nephews 19. My Good Health 20. A Close Family 21. Coffee 22. ...

Jealous of a Season It is strange when you are jealous Of a Season. How can you be? Does it really take things away From you? You never think about it this way but it's true. Think about Fall. It takes people Away from us to go hunting. They Are gone every weekend. They are Out with their guy friends. Their Love is going towards the deer. That's the only think on their mind. It is their other love and passion. Yet it's hard to be mad at them Because at the same time, they Are providing for you. It could be A lot worse. You can't show them That you are jealous. You just Have to love them for who they Are and all of their flaws. The jealous feeling comes and Goes too. It's always hard at the Start of the season but by the End you will get use to it again. You will be thankful for the Days you have alone. That is Why it's called, "jealous of a Season". Written By: Tiffney Wilson Written On: November 22,...

Dear Daddy,           You have us both on roundabouts. Those are the journeys You care about and so should we. We both have a story of our own to finish before we are promised to each other if it's Your Will for our lives. It's along one for sure. I just wanted to pray for my future husband's need of You to grow stronger everyday and because of that need that he will become more intimate with You. I don't want him to go apart from You. I want him to draw closer to You and live a full and satisfying life with You. We are both learning of the story. The pictures of life are always unfolding. Sometimes the things we love the most aren't part of the puzzle that we need to be living in that moment. Maybe there are other things we need to start paying more attention too? Maybe there are things that we need to fix because we messed it up in the past? Maybe we need to get off that roundabout or actually let that puzzle piece fit together like it is suppose?   ...

The View Underneath Heaven  Sometimes I wonder why the world would look like in Heaven. I wonder what God sees when He looks down. I wonder what the people passed on before us sees when they look down. I wonder what the view is like underneath Heaven. Is the world in a mess and just looks like a big, messy blob? Does everything in it look broken and disordered? Does it look like everyone is going every which way? That's how it looks like if you are actually living on it. Or does it look this way? Does it look like a masterpiece of art like a painting? Is everything in it fixed and together? Is every one following the same path? That's what we want it to look like in our own way. There is One Way that can look as white and pure as snow. It's not our way at all. It has already been done too so really this is what it looks like especially to God. It looks like His own Son getting busied and beaten.It looks like His Son get mocked. Looked like His So...

            "We use signs of life to measure health."  "Jesus Christ is the Source of Life and not just any life but enteral life."             This was last Saturday night's sermon but I thought it really fit me. I needed to hear it over and over. Even though I am not on anxiety meds. anymore because I had this feeling that things weren't going my way and that I was to dependent on them, this message really hit home for me. It is crazy how the people of today think. They think that meds., diets, oils, and other things is all they need to get and stay healthy. While that might be true for our bodies, let's not get the two confused. I think I got the two confused. Yes, my body needs to be taken care of but not the way I thought it did. I was anxious and worried because my spiritual life wasn't with God's plans.            During the last months before I stopped the meds. on my own, I was ...

            I know this past week God has been reminding me of one thing that I am thankful for and that is a missed opportunity that I could of had but didn't and He showed me the reason. He showed me that His Plans were better then mine. This past week was the week that I could have gone on another mission trip to Honduras with my church but God had other plans for me instead of that. God answered my long time prayers of getting another full time job. Yet I'm still waiting to start it and for it to be finalized, it is an answer to prayer.            This might be a short entry but it is one that will be filled with hope and inspiration or that is what I am hoping for at least. If I did go on that trip to Honduras, then I wouldn't have been able to have an interview and get the job that I have now. I would still be stress about making enough money and my life choices. The interview was this past Tuesday and they called Weds.,...

                   "It is that moment that you chose not to be real(Love)that you will be like all the others and you worked too hard a n d gave up too much to be like the others. It is that moment that you remember it is all for Jesus."  ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ It's all about You, Jesus."-Heart of Worship ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 1 John 5:3-4 New International Version (NIV) 3  In fact, this is love for God: to keep his commands.  And his commands are not burdensome,   4  for everyone born of God  overcomes  the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~                 This saying is something that I came up with while trying to encourage a friend of mine this pat week. My friend was...

              The title might sound crazy and that it isn't coming from me at all but there are times where ideas for these entries come from other people and other situations in life. I learn from other people and those people are encourages me with or without knowing it at times. You also might think that this entry is messed up because of the comparison I am going to be making but again it will make sense just in a strange way.                Forgetting to clean your gun at times can be compared to forgetting to clean out or guard your heart or even checking it at times. There are signs for both and to do both things right and get a good outcome. For the gun, you want to be able to shoot what you are aiming at and hit it. For the heart, you want to be able to love and do it well to the people around you. If you forget to do something as little as clean the gun or put the bullets in, then it won't work right. ...

Daniel 2:20-23 New International Version (NIV) “Praise be to the name of God for ever and ever;      wisdom and power  are his. 21  He changes times and seasons;      he deposes  kings and raises up others. He gives wisdom  to the wise      and knowledge to the discerning. 22  He reveals deep and hidden things;      he knows what lies in darkness,      and light  dwells with him. 23  I thank and praise you, God of my ancestors:      You have given me wisdom  and power, you have made known to me what we asked of you,      you have made known to us the dream of the king. ” ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Psalm 119:130 New International Version (NIV) 130  The unfolding of your words gives light;      it gives understanding to the s...