Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

        I have been thinking a lot lately about how strong of a woman I am and can continue to be. I even woke up this morning thinking about it and that is why I am writing this blog at 6:00 in the morning. Along with the strength, I can also be pretty picky too. I thought about it more this past weekend and discovered that I can make it on my own if I had to. I still have graduate college to go to and keep me busy and then settling in that new career field after that.          It is also strange how guys these days are scared of the strong woman around them. They would rather have a weak one that they can walk all over. I can tell you one thing a guy, no matter how good looking, will never do that to me. I would rather be single then have that for the rest of my life. It also makes me wonder why do guys distance themselves away from a good, strong woman without talking to them about things first.   ...

1 Corinthians 9:1-18 New International Version (NIV) Paul’s Rights as an Apostle 9  Am I not free?  Am I not an apostle?  Have I not seen Jesus our Lord?  Are you not the result of my work in the Lord?   2  Even though I may not be an apostle to others, surely I am to you! For you are the seal  of my apostleship in the Lord. 3  This is my defense to those who sit in judgment on me.   4  Don’t we have the right to food and drink?   5  Don’t we have the right to take a believing wife  along with us, as do the other apostles and the Lord’s brothers  and Cephas [ a ] ?   6  Or is it only I and Barnabas  who lack the right to not work for a living? 7  Who serves as a soldier  at his own expense? Who plants a vineyard  and does not eat its grapes? Who tends a flock and does not drink the milk?   8  Do I say this merely on human authority? Doesn’t the Law say the same thing? ...

         As I sit here just thinking about my life, I realize that the little things I do really help me. I think I have realized that in the past year then ever before in my life. I would've gone crazy if I wasn't able to do the little things that I do now. They have now became part of my life and I can't go on a day without doing them. Yet isn't that how it is suppose to be?          Those little things are journaling and writing my thoughts out on paper. I like to do those things because I feel like it clears my mind of things that are bothering me. Yes, there is a difference, to me anyways, between journaling and writing. Journaling is when I let all of my feelings show and the real and whole truth about what is going on in my life at the moment. Writing is what I am doing on here. It is, believe it or not, and shorter version of how I am feeling. It is when I leave out names and tell only won't get me in trouble. I ...

Jeremiah 17:7-8 New International Version (NIV) 7  “But blessed  is the one who trusts  in the  Lord ,      whose confidence is in him. 8  They will be like a tree planted by the water      that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes;      its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought      and never fails to bear fruit. Psalm 71:5 New International Version (NIV) 5  For you have been my hope,  Sovereign  Lord ,      my confidence  since my youth.          These 2 verses are really good at reminding me of the strength and confidence that I have in My Lord. The first one is a reminder that we are blessed if we trusts in the Lord and have confidence in Him at the same time. The outside picture gives us an idea about how our trust needs to be firm...

    Romans 12:10-11 Love one another warmly as Christian brothers and sisters, and be eager to show respect for one another. Work hard and do not be lazy. Serve the lord with a heart full of devotion. John 1:16 New Living Translation (NLT) 16  From his abundance we have all received one gracious blessing after another.             Is this what I need to learn now? Is receive? Receiving is a really hard thing for me to do especially since I have a giving heart. That is the nice way to look at it and say it. I am also stubborn too but that is not the point of this entry. I would not just say I have a giving heart but a mission heart too when you really get down to it. This kind of heart can be so tiring if you don't be careful with it. Is there something for me to receive from some people? Missions? Love? Confidence? Hope?          I picked out a couple of verse. One has the word "receive" in it and the...

          Full Days Out is what my job calls a day where the children are out of school but the club goes on all day. We had three of those this past week and I am glad we did. I got to know some of the of my children better because I was someone they could talk to. Their best friends or teachers weren't there. I got a lot of drawings too that week.          I will write about how the days went. During those three days, there were two schools together in one school building but my school had to be the one that moved to another school. It wasn't bad but it was hard. We didn't have the supplies that we needed or could use because we could only the main things like the walkie talkies and baskets to put their backpacks in. We need bring some art to do but it was just paper of stencils for those 3 days. We also brought some toy buckets but we couldn't change them out everyday like we could have at our own spot. We had t...

Live as You Are Called 17  And don’t be wishing you were someplace else or with someone else. Where you are right now is God’s place for you. Live and obey and love and believe right there. God, not your marital status, defines your life. Don’t think I’m being harder on you than on the others. I give this same counsel in all the churches. 18-19  Were you Jewish at the time God called you? Don’t try to remove the evidence. Were you non-Jewish at the time of your call? Don’t become a Jew. Being Jewish isn’t the point. The really important thing is obeying God’s call, following his commands. 20-22  Stay where you were when God called your name. Were you a slave? Slavery is no roadblock to obeying and believing. I don’t mean you’re stuck and can’t leave. If you have a chance at freedom, go ahead and take it. I’m simply trying to point out that under your new Master you’re going to experience a marvelous freedom you would never have dreamed of. On the other hand, if...