Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

     My computer is crashing so we'll see if I can keep up with this from my phone. The entries might be a lot shorter though. Another child story. Last night at my job I had quite the experience that I haven't had for awhile there. One of the children started to go crazy and I mean that in the nicest way possible.        This child started to throw things at a staff because the child wanted something that he couldn't have. I took the child to another room so he could calm down bit he didn't for awhile. He was talking in jabber and running up and down the hall. Back and forth to the bedroom.  I finally got him to sit down where I could hold him and take to him.         I got him to sit down and I started asking questions like "why are you acting this way", "why are you mad", and none of them worked. I finally told him that he was safe at this place and it seemed like that madness just turned off ...

      "In the same way,  let your good deeds shine out for all to see,  so that everyone will praise your Heavenly Father." - Matthew 5:16        When the light shines in a diamond, it usually shines up and out of the diamond. As people of God,  we should look up to God and let our light shine out to people.         There are 4 things that we should look at for a good diamond. There are: the cut, the color, the clarity, and the carrot. They are 4 words that start with the letter "c".         When the light shines out of us,  we should have 4 cs shining out of us. There are: character, caring, compassion, and costly. I will give you one or two verses to go with each word.         Character                -Philippians 2:14-15   ...

        I was challenged by a friend to make a list of things I want to do while I am single and free and I did. It turned out to be mainly serving God, children, and traveling by myself plus some races to run here and there, which is great. Those are the things I am most passionate about right now. Here are the things: -The Color Vibe Run -The Joplin, MO Run -Go to the big 3 countries in Central America -Start to write and publish a book -The Glow Run -Be involved with Opaertion Christmas Child by handing out the Christmas shoeboxes -Start my own children's home or nannying business       I got to thinking about this today. Just strange that everything I want to do and/or get done has to do with serving God. People say that the 20s are the times to be free and serve God the way you want to or the way He leads you to. I believe that because once you are married you have other things to focus on and do. In your 20s, you can be focus on G...

         " Enter through the narrow gate.  For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it.   But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it."-Matthew 7:13-14       This verse means the world to me right now when I feel like there are 3 or more roads that I could take. It seems like every choice has at least 3 roads whether it has to do with career, friendships, or just everyday things. I have never noticed what this verse really means until now.        "Enter through the narrow gate" means just go down the road God has for you. That I get but it is so hard to tell which one is which. Like the next sentence says, "For wide is the gate and broad is the road that lead to destruction". Do I want to enter the wide gate with so many choices that I could pick the wrong choice and go down the wrong path? How can I stop myself f...

         Most people would say I'm more of a small town girl, which I would have to agree with because I was raised in a really small town and graduated from that small town but I was also raised in the country for the 1st 4 years of my life and those were the best years ever plus some summers after those 4 years until high school came along. I've heard somethings and just living in a "big" city makes me realize how blessed I am to be from a small town. Not that I would have said it back then while living there but now I do.          I have had city folks say to be before and I quote, "A donkey actually does say "hee-haw" and "I have only seen horses in cages and zoos." I have some family that are from the city and I love them too death so I know there is more out there then the country or small towns and I have traveled around some. Those two phases just caught me off track when I heard them though. I understand if you have never seen ...

        Have you ever had one of those weeks or days when you just have the little thoughts in your heads that you think about and that you might even pray about when you get home if you can remember them after a long day? I've had a lot of those this week and it is just the start of it. What is neat about it is everyone of them are thoughts I can and want to do and right now looks possible. I just have to remember to pray more deeply about them. I'll tell you the little thoughts that I have had these past few weeks and then tell you what has happened.          One thought and this was the first one was that I wanted to keep looking at the boundaries in the Bible but my Bible study about Boundaries is over. It is one of those things where it seems interesting but you know you need the accountabity to keep doing it. I thought or God put the thought of some girls in my mind that I could do it with and it could be turned into a small Bible...

        " What, then, shall we say in response to these things?  If God is for us,  who can be against us?   He who did not spare his own Son,  but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?   Who will bring any charge  against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies.   Who then is the one who condemns?  No one. Christ Jesus who died —more than that, who was raised to life —is at the right hand of God  and is also interceding for us.  Who shall separate us from the love of Christ?  Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?   As it is written: “For your sake we face death all day long;      we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”   No, in all these things we are more than conquerors  through him who loved us.   For I am convinced that neither death nor life, n...

        If there was a equation to explain God's Sovereignty, this one would be it! I also have some verses to prove it too and to really look at plus some examples in my life from this past week. We (my small community group) was studying God's Sovereignty this past Sunday and I saw it non-stop this past week. Funny how God does things like that sometimes. He is testing you to see what you learned.         Here are some verses about God's Sovereignty:               -"Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh, is anything to difficult for me?"-Jeremiah 32:27               -"And being aroused, He rebuked the wind and said to the sea, "Hush, be still." And the wind died down and it became perfectly calm."-Mark 4:39               -"While He was still speaking, they came from the house of the synagogue official, sayin...

        Here is the prayer that I promised yesterday and hopefully, there is not one written out there like this one if it is then I'm sorry but this one did just come out of my mind that moment at the stop light:                    Daddy,                         Every time I look at a stop light please help my remember 3 things.                         RED is for remembering to stop and pray for every little thing.                         YELLOW is for slowing down and waiting patiently for Your Leading.                         GREEN is for "Go" when it is Your Timing, not mine.                   Hel...

        Have you ever stopped at a stop light and thought about it more then just lights on a wire telling you what to do? I had a moment this week (Tuesday) that was funny when it happened but as I kept thinking about it that day and this week and see what God is telling me to do I see it was no accdient at all.         I was half a hour late coming back from the denist. I had my appointment time set at 9:00 but didn't get in until about 9:30 and of course I was complaining in the back of my mind because I had someplace else to be. Well, after what happened at the stop light that was a God moment keeping me back for that long. I was driving home from my appointment and took the exit that I usually take to my apartments and next thing I know there was someone that I knew driving past me and stopping at the stop light on down the road. I thought nothing of it but when I turned and went to that same stop light, it was green for the both o...

         Well, I' trying to stay up to see the blood moon so I'm writing to keep busy. Hopefully, it will make sense and everything will be spelled right. This entry can be a very agrueable one because people have their different ideas about why but this is a view that I learned lately to answer this question and it is a good way to at least think about if not agree with it. Just letting you know this entry is going to try to answer that question in a human way but then we are going to look at a charactertic of God that maybe will be able to show us why He lets some bad things happen in the next entry.          Question is: Why Does God Let bad things happen to good people?          We all ask this question when something bad happens to us or even to other people whether friends or just random people like in another country or in the same city but we never met them. Let me give you one good answer and it is a p...

       I'm doing this entry from my phone because my computer is being dumb but I still want to write today. I'm writing in a park with the wind in my hair and the sky cloudy. I've spent all morning looking for a place to write outside. I feel like my day has been a mess so far.  Nothing is in order for me but have you wondered if it is in order for God. He has given me these words to write while driving around.          Some days our life just seems to be cluttered and not in order. Do you ever wonder why? Maybe it's because we do what we want and are not looking to God for His Ways and miracles? We get to caught up in the everyday things that we forget to look at Him.            I had a friend tell me this past month that she prays everyday and ask God to order her day. That got me thinking how easy would our days be if we would remember to ask God to have o...

         " God will give you the true desires of your heart, not your emotions and only He knows those true desires so look at and follow Him."           I've been learning the differences between getting the desires of our hearts and listening to our emotions. There is a big difference and it is easy to tell but yet hard to do. At times, it could be hard too because sometimes we could not understand our desires or our emotions does not go with the desires that God has for us and in the way He could be leading us. We might not know that the desires of our hearts are really the desires until much later.  Our emotions are so strong that they could take us over without us knowing it. We could look to them as a guide leading us the wrong way. Instead of looking to God to lead us the right way.             When we look to our emotions as our guide, we take our eyes off of God. Now, don't get me w...

        This is not really a big thing and then again it is. Today marks the 1st year from me starting this blog (April 9th was my first entery). I usually don't keep up with things like this up to but espically not after a year so let's see if I can do it for a least another it. It is funny because right now I could write a week's worth of enteries on here but I'm so busy the rest of this week and all of next week so we'll see when I get time to write another real entery. I might have to stay up late one night to do one.         I'm glad I found this way to help me release my stress, thoughts, and dreams. It is not being used for what I planned for it to be used for (aka missions, ideas for missions, and etc.) but for the better hopefully. Letting women and people see that everyone is the same and we all of struggles that we go through and maybe some advice to help out or at least encouragement. I'm printing every one of these enteries...

          I have an entery that I want to write about rest and that will make more sense with this one but I wanted to write this one first so I wouldn't forget what happened yesterday. Be on the look out for another entery soon!           Have you ever needed to be reassured that where you are in a moment in life was the right place at the right time? Yesterday, I was and it all happened by little things and moments that made me feel speical and different. Also, like someone else gets me or would get me if they would just give me the chance. I came back from a weekend from my parents' house all rested up and ready to start the week. Who knew a Monday could be filled with reasurrance moments? I came back rested up from the weekend knowing if anything it was going to be a loooooooong Monday and it was but you know little speical moments can help you break up a day when you get 3 or more in one. That is what happened to me. ...

           Do we care for people or care about people? Do those two things look different?  The answer is: Yes, they do and I'm still learning how the look it. I can start by giving you all some ideas and maybe the meaning of it. I looked up the words "for" and "about" and this is what they mean or at least one verison of what the words means.            Care means "serious attention, caution, or soliuitude" or "a cause of object of worry, concern, and anxiety".            For means "intended to belong to or be used in connection with".            About means "of concerning or in regaud to". It could also mean "connected or associated with".           When you care for people or a person, it means that we are to be used in connection with them. It means that we have to be connected with them and know them very well. We have to get into...

         I mean my title in the best of ways too or maybe it is me who is never settled with anything because I know it isn't where God wants me to be yet. I just got a question from a friend last night and she asked, "How can people be so consistant in their Faith?" How are you suppose to answer that? I've been thinking about it since I woke up this morning and another friend gave me chapters in the Bible to look at. They were John 14 and 15.            I just think it is strange because I never thought of it that way and here is God getting ready to change me again. I feel like I'm backing away from my job in a good way. I don't have to be the "main" person there hopefully within the next week there will be 3 workers instead of just 2 workers. Yet God has me busy again I feel like. I feel like He is saying, "Ok, you get to calm down on this job but I'm giving it two more things to do outside of your job." It is so strange too bec...

         This isn't going to be a very long one. Hopefully though, I can fit 2 long ones in this weekend sometime. I just wanted to let you all know where I am in life and what God has made me see again.  Isn't it strange how we get off God's Track and we don't even know it or think it is that important until we get back on it? I have had that feeling this week.           Last week at work got to me because it was Spring Break and it seemed like everyone was on it but a few people. We are short-handed to start with and it was just stressful. I broke down crying at church Saturday night and then came home and had a crying fit instead of being with my friends after church. I haven't broke down crying in church for awhile. In fact, I can't remember the last time I did. It has to be in the first year that I moved to AR at least. After church, I did stay in my car and talked to a friend for a little bit after church about what was ...

       "Every Child Deserves a Home". That's my favorite song by the Christian group "Newsong" and another one of my favorite song is "Temporary Home" by Carrie Underwood. Either way you look at it and I have had both views, it is a really sad thing. It upsets me most of the time when I get the children I do and find out why I have them. I have challenged myself just this morning to pray every day for the abused children and all 4 weeks of this month for a different organzation in my state for a week so that would be praying for 4 organzations. I already do pray off and on for the children that I work with and that really need it but this month it will be for all children.        Here are the two of my favorite songs:                https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oQjObgmNbmE                https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LraOiHUltak      ...