Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

           I know this is a little late but I just thought of it. I am going to write a letter of gratitude for Thanksgiving but I wrote it way before then. I wrote it last month on the morning my dad passed away. I was sitting on the back porch all by myself looking at the sunrise. Everyone has left for the hospital but I was going later. Here it is what I wished I could have said to my dad and should have:  Dear Daddy,            Don't know what to say but thanks. Thanks for believing in your littlest girl. I know there were times you had to be patience with me. From math to cars. You knew I wouldn't make it in life without those two things. You were there guiding me through every job loss. You were the strength when I didn't have any because I knew I had to make you happy somehow. I knew you were always there for me and you were til the very end. Thank you for everything and all of the memories. Love, Tiffney 

My mom picked this song to play on the video of family pictures at my dad's celebration of life and I couldn't agree more. His life was exactly like this. He had so many scars from all of his cancers, heart problems, and muscle problems but now he is free of them and the pain that they caused. He has a whole new body. It is true that the only scars in Heaven is holding him now. He fought a good fight and ran a good race. He even said that he was finished and I can't blame him. He fought it good and long and over and over again. It is sad for all of us but we know he is in a better place and he had strength to get through everything he needed too. He had that strength because he prayed for it. One saying I will never forget is one that he said at the end of our meal prayers. It was: "May You give us the strength to do Your Will". And I think he felt like he had done it. Even though, he was planning and thinking about other things and living life like he ...