Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

Two main words I focused on this month: -Flexibility  -Patience  Mood Tracker: Happy: 13 times Patience: 6 times Fear: 10 times Bored: 5 times Confident: 9 times Productive: 15 times Habit Tracker: Drink water: 10 times Do yoga: 1 time Say prayers: 13 times Eating heathly: 3 times Patience Log: -Was there a moment where you felt more or less Patience? More patience: -Learning how to enroll children -Less people were at Apple Butter Makin Days Less patience: -One kid was a little too wild -Trying to get to dad -Not having papers where they should be October Calendar:  -Oct. 2nd- Went to Andy's at night -Oct. 4th- Ask Vicne to be an usher -Oct. 7th- Ask if Aoife can be flower girl -Oct. 8th- Went home then dad went to hospital  -Oct. 9th- Went to Apple Butter Making Days and had a campfire at my parents' house  -Oct.11th- Dad in hospital  -Oct. 12th- Dad in hospital still -Oct. 15th- Drained fluid from dad's lungs in hospital  -Oct. 16th- Went to deer st...

           I know this is a little late but I just thought of it. I am going to write a letter of gratitude for Thanksgiving but I wrote it way before then. I wrote it last month on the morning my dad passed away. I was sitting on the back porch all by myself looking at the sunrise. Everyone has left for the hospital but I was going later. Here it is what I wished I could have said to my dad and should have:  Dear Daddy,            Don't know what to say but thanks. Thanks for believing in your littlest girl. I know there were times you had to be patience with me. From math to cars. You knew I wouldn't make it in life without those two things. You were there guiding me through every job loss. You were the strength when I didn't have any because I knew I had to make you happy somehow. I knew you were always there for me and you were til the very end. Thank you for everything and all of the memories. Love, Tiffney 

My mom picked this song to play on the video of family pictures at my dad's celebration of life and I couldn't agree more. His life was exactly like this. He had so many scars from all of his cancers, heart problems, and muscle problems but now he is free of them and the pain that they caused. He has a whole new body. It is true that the only scars in Heaven is holding him now. He fought a good fight and ran a good race. He even said that he was finished and I can't blame him. He fought it good and long and over and over again. It is sad for all of us but we know he is in a better place and he had strength to get through everything he needed too. He had that strength because he prayed for it. One saying I will never forget is one that he said at the end of our meal prayers. It was: "May You give us the strength to do Your Will". And I think he felt like he had done it. Even though, he was planning and thinking about other things and living life like he ...