Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

        It is strange that I am just writing about one day but this is not the first time. I have wrote about another day before but that day had more meaning to me then this one and it was more memorable. I want to write about yesterday because It is the last Saturday before starting my 5th year in AR and I took it has a relaxing and fun day because of that. I'll talk about my 5th year in AR in another entry later on but there were just some God-moments yesterday that I didn't want to forget about so I decided to write an entry about the day.          I woke up yesterday already had some small plans like going to the farmer's market with a friend in the morning and then spend a boring afternoon by myself until church that night. Then come up and go to bed like I usually do. I think God had other plans though yesterday for me and I could see them very clearly. I had some errands to run like going to the library and do a little bit a shopping...

"You won't be where you are forever. God promises when you trust him that he'll take care of you wherever you are and get you where He wants you to be."-Holley Gerth           This saying was in my daily calendar today. It really hit the spot for me and what I am going through right now. I can take it bit by bit and just explain a paragraph of what that means in my life right now. I think that is might be how I write this entry. I'm starting with "You won't be there forever". I don't know what it is with me but for some reason I can stay in a place for more then, what seems like, 5 years by myself. I don't know if I moved around too much while I was growing up or I get to bored easily but it isn't fun. Sometimes I get into places where I have only be a year or two and then after those years I fell like I am ready to move on already.         The next sentence is my hardest one to do in life but yet it should be so simple. It is: "...

Zephaniah 3:17 New International Version (NIV) 17  The  Lord  your God is with you,      the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight  in you;      in his love he will no longer rebuke you,      but will rejoice over you with singing.”

God Is in Charge at the Center 9-13  “In the end I will turn things around for the people.      I’ll give them a language undistorted, unpolluted, Words to address  God  in worship      and, united, to serve me with their shoulders to the wheel. They’ll come from beyond the Ethiopian rivers,      they’ll come praying— All my scattered, exiled people      will come home with offerings for worship. You’ll no longer have to be ashamed      of all those acts of rebellion. I’ll have gotten rid of your arrogant leaders.      No more pious strutting on my holy hill! I’ll leave a core of people among you      who are poor in spirit— What’s left of Israel that’s really Israel.      They’ll make their home in  God . This core holy people      will not do wrong. They won’t lie, ...

       I never want to go shopping in my life again until I have "real" money to spend. Shopping is getting to be work and more thinking for me then it should be and I don't like that. Call me a weakling but I hate it. I used to enjoy shopping even if it was just for food and even school supplies but now everything is getting out of hand in this world even the cost of things. You almost have to be a CEO of some company or in the business world to make it here on this earth and I'm not being smartalike about it either.       The more money I spend on the things I need to keep living a healthy life and alive, the more I don't want to keep doing that and I mean the cheaper I want to live, which means more fast food for me. It does help me to see how much more blessed I am then other nations and even people around me like my siblings and I don't want to think about the politics or what nots when I go shopping. I put my siblings in here because of the loan...

       Have you ever had that feeling where you just want to give up and let go? Where you want to drink but know it is wrong and it does not help? Have had people tell you God is in contorl but does not feel like it? You just want them to be quite for now? Scared of what is next for you? I have all those feelings this past week and will for maybe a month?           Also, have had enough change in all of your area of life that you want nothing more but life to be stable? I do not know what to do with these feelings. I feel like I need to travel a whole month and just settled for something afterwards. I just need that stability in my life these days. I hate going into work or starting any day without knowing what is ahead for me. I like routine. I am a person of routine and it takes me awhile depending on how big the change is to get use to it again. It could take me a week to a month to get back on track.          I...

Psalm 23 New International Version (NIV) Psalm 23 A psalm of David. 1  The  Lord  is my shepherd,  I lack nothing. 2       He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, 3       he refreshes my soul. He guides me  along the right paths      for his name’s sake. 4  Even though I walk      through the darkest valley, [ a ] I will fear no evil,      for you are with me; your rod and your staff,      they comfort me. 5  You prepare a table  before me      in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil;      my cup  overflows. 6  Surely your goodness and love  will follow me      all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the  Lord      forever.

Psalm 27 New International Version (NIV) Psalm 27 Of David. 1  The  Lord  is my light  and my salvation —      whom shall I fear? The  Lord  is the stronghold  of my life—      of whom shall I be afraid? 2  When the wicked advance against me      to devour me, it is my enemies and my foes      who will stumble and fall. 3  Though an army besiege me,      my heart will not fear; though war break out against me,      even then I will be confident. 4  One thing  I ask from the  Lord ,      this only do I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the  Lord      all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the  Lord      and to seek him in his temple. 5  For in the day of trouble      he will keep m...

      I am going to spend some time writing another blog this morning. It has been over a week since I have written one on here and I am already behind on my entries for this month. I portably won't even have 10 entries because this month has been so busy for me and a little stressful. What I am going to write about today is the Bible study that I have been going to this summer. It is called: "The Armor of God" by Priscilla Shirer. I can say that it has changed and challenged my life in ways that not every Bible Study as. I think this is the strongest study that I have taken in awhile. It is my new favorite.        "The Armor of God" Bible Study is based on the verses in Eph. that tell you about the basic armory of God. Each week is about one part of the armor and how we can actually put in on and live it out in our lives. To be honest, I have heard verses 10-19 over and over in my Christian walk because that is one of the main stories that is peached...

         How does the Holy Spirit work? That is a question that I have been asking myself ever since I have moved and started going to church here in NWA. When I was growing up, you never would here much about who and what the Holy Spirit was or how it worked in your life. It was a topic that was usually left out in church sermons and Bible lessons/studies. I really remember first hearing about it when I started my life here in AR and at Fellowship Bible Church. Since then, I have seen how it has worked in my life and the lives of the people around me.           I am going to give you an example of what happened just recently in my life that made me think about the Holy Spirit and how it does work. When I was growing up, I always knew that the Holy Spirit moved in some way and form. For me, it would be getting the shivers or crying but I never heard of it as talking to a person. I guess you could say that those two things were kind of l...