Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

        Lately the sentence/title "Simple Prayers Being Answered in a Big Way" has been hitting me pretty hard.  I've been experiencing God in some strange ways lately through other people's lives. It is funny how we say a simple prayer at the end of a long prayer and that simple prayer is the one that gets answered. We don't expect the little one to get answered because it is one that we usually throw on at the end just for safe keeping and maybe even to wrap up what the bigger one is saying. Sometimes you also wonder why you are praying that little pray when really nothing big is happening. Yeah, little things might be happening like keeping people safe on the way to and from somewhere but we usually see that as an every day chance.           We see that as a chance but when you see that something bigger has been answered then there aren't such things as chances anymore when you are praying that certain end ...

Genesis 1:27-28 New International Version (NIV) 27  So God created  mankind  in his own image,      in the image of God  he created them;      male and female  he created them. 28  God blessed them and said to them,  “Be fruitful and increase in number;  fill the earth and subdue it. Rule over  the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky and over every living creature that moves on the ground. ”   ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~               When God first created the earth, He meant for it to bless us. He meant for it to bring about goodness in every way. He meant for it to bring us promises and empower our good. He wants us to cultivate the earth and bring it to Him. Cultivate it by planting plants and taking care of the animals that He put here on the earth.              "The mis...

         Sometimes people ask you "what is your worst nightmare?" Before yesterday, I would have said "I don't know" or I would randomly say something without even thinking. That all changed when a situation happened earlier this week that I just found out about yesterday. I've thought about it too and it would have to be it. Sorry if this scares you but isn't this a nightmare to most of us anyways.            My worst nightmare is that someone I love and/or care about deeply gets shot at. You never think about that until it almost happens to a person you know. I won't say much about the situation because I don't know much yet. I'll be honest, though, I stayed awake thinking about this whole thing when I heard the news. My anxiety also went up to 150% when I heard. I'm not the person who needs to know these things. I'm already a person that cares deeply for other people so I am already worried ab...

"I'm not who that guy says I am. I'm not who the girl says I am. I'm not who social media likes and comments say I am. I'm not who the grades, to-do lists, messes, and mess ups say I am. I'm not who the scale says I am or the sam total of what My flaws say I am. I'm going to stop flirting with the unstable things of this world so I can fall completely in love with  You. I am loved. I am held. I am Yours. I am forever Yours."-Amen          That is the prayer from the book "Uninvited" word for word. Now I am going to add some more things to that prayer that personal helps me or that I need help with. "I'm not who my career says I am. I'm not who my bank account says I am. I'm not who the children say I am. I'm not who my living situation says I am. I'm not who my martial status says I am. I'm going to stop thinking of and acting like the things of this world.  I'm Loved and Cared for by the Great...

"Mercy, peace  and love be yours in abundance."- Jude 1:2 "Her ways are pleasant ways,      and all her paths are peace."-Proverbs 3:17 "Thanks be to God  for his indescribable gift!"-2 Corinthians 9:15 " A thief is only there to steal and kill and destroy. I came so they can have real and eternal life, more and better life than they ever dreamed of."-John 10:10           I know this entry is a little late to but at least it is being written in the 1st month of the year. I decided that I needed to do some entries with verses in them. It is good for me and for others too or that is what I hope. I kind of had a slide back too after I wrote these verses. It has not be a fully abundant life so far. It has been hard but I still what these verses to be the verses of my life this year. They all have one thing in common.             That one thing is: GOD WANTS US TO HAVE A LIFE THAT...

         This is another entry that I've had in my draft folder for awhile. Something happened yesterday at work that gave me an idea to write this entry. I do miss the shelter and the type of children that go there. I even miss my children that I had when I was there. I will have a feeling for those type of children everywhere I go now and with every job I work.            I learned two important things that you need while dealing with all kinds of children. Those two things are: Love and patience. No other place can show you what those two words mean better then a children's shelter. If I was truly honest with myself, before the shelter I was in the field because I felt it was easy for me since I grew up around it. After the shelter I stayed in the field because I wanted to make a difference in a child's life anywhere I could.            I've ...

        I have had this title in my drafts for almost three months because I wanted to write about it for that long but other things have came up. I finally decided that I was going to right about it now. It make a difference and feels different when you pray just for one or the other. I will admit I have prayed for a certain ministry for about 4 years, not lying, which I felt that has helped some. This past year, though, God has directed me to pray for the leader as a person along with the team when I can.            Because of that change, it has grown my prayer life and my relationship life in ways I didn't think of. It really showed me that when you pray for a certain person, you see more of who they really are. I really look more into the person that I am praying for to see what they need. I listen closer to what they have to say. I watched to see if they have changed and if prayers have been ans...

           Who is Jesus? There is a book that one of my children checked out from her school library called that. It is a series of books titled "Who is........?" I have seen two of them, so far, in that series. One was "Who is Dolly Parton?" and then the other one was "Who is Jesus?" My girl only finished it in three days though which is good for a 4th grader. I don't know how I feel about just having a book in the library about Jesus but then I got to thinking about it deeper. This girl really needs something like that. It might just be a history or bio book to her now but it could grow on her.           She told me she read it because of the AR reading list they have at there school. There are certain subjects that you have to read about and take a test on and "Who is Jesus?" went under the subject of Biography, which it is but there is more to it too. She summed it up pretty well to me and at a perfect moment. The moment couldn...

       This is my 600th entry on this blog. I wanted it to be more of a better one but I also thought writing one about this subject was needed. I'm not writing it to get feelings from others or worry others or get talked back to. I'm writing this to show no one is prefect not even me. This will be the most see through one I have probably written on here all these years.         The first couple of weeks of being 29 has been hard for me. I don't know how people do it by themselves. So far that is how I am feeling. It is probably the most important turn around point in a person's life and no one to guide me or walk with me. The two weeks plus a little more have been very busy and confusing for me. I feel like I'm in the song "Smoke Break" by Carrie Underwood. I've had a lot of thoughts like that song and doubts. As soon as my birthday passed, I started thinking about traveling the world again in the coming year. Then...

         I wrote this today because I feel so confused and stressed about a lot of things. This is the first poem I have won't in awhile but I got to thinking about something and I just had to write it out for it all to make sense. It is a lot about checking your motives when you about to do something that you can't take back. Jealousy I hate to admit I am that kind of girl.  The girl that holds on so tight. The  girl that won't let God have the situation  at certain times. The girl that messes  everything up, especially those closest to her.  Why would anyone who that type of  girl? A girl that can't trust. A girl that is always down the person's back. A girl that you can't get away from, no  matter how hard you try.  That girl who sees encouragement  and uses it in place of jealousy. That  girl that gets jealous when she knows  she doesn't need to get in the way.  That girl who g...

       "God has a reason for things to happen."                  This saying just got to me last night and this morning. I have a friend that says this saying a lot, which is great. It just shows that my friend is trusting God with everything that is happening. It is the most simple and easiest saying to say and remember but to do it and believe it is another whole story. It isn't easy. As I have a new challenge in my life to say and believe that, it has been hard for me.          For me, a person with high anxiety and stressed, it is good for me to try and remember. It just shows I am giving things to God like I should. We might not see the action right after or we might. That doesn't matter all that matters is that we know God has things in control. Therefore, things happen that we don't even plan for a good reason down the road.    ...

 " So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.   32  Do not cause anyone to stumble,  whether Jews, Greeks or the church of God —   33  even as I try to please everyone in every way.  For I am not seeking my own good but the good of many,  so that they may be saved.   11  1  Follow my example,  as I follow the example of Christ."- 1 Cor. 10:23-11:1 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ “I have the right to do anything,” you say—but not everything is beneficial.  “I have the right to do anything”—but not everything is constructive.   24  No one should seek their own good, but the good of others. 25  Eat anything sold in the meat market without raising questions of conscience,   26  for, “The earth is the Lord’s, and everything in it.”- 1 Cor. 10:23-26 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Build up s...

     I am going to make a list of books that I want to read this year. I will keep this and see if I can look back on it in December and see if I read them all. -Uninvited -Love and Respect -All the Promises of the Bible -Heaven -Without Rival -One Thousand Gifts -Radical -Crazy Love -What Happens When Women Pray -Need You Now -Jesus Always -God Came Near -His Needs. Her Needs. -3:16 -Soul Keeping Looking at this list, my goal is to read 15 books this year. Can I do it? There are a couple of thick books that might take up most of the year like "Love and Respect" and "Heaven". I could always read the small ones in between those two, though, and that is what I will most likely do.

        I am in my car during my lunch break from work. I am at a park but not outside because it is too cold. For lunch, I am eating an apple and drinking a pink drink. Enough about what I am doing, I am on here to tell you about my morning this morning. Something came over me when walking into work this morning.          That something was contentment and peace. If you know me at all, I am the kind of person who likes to plan for the future. I am also the kind who gets stressed easily. After my Christmas break, though, I felt at rest. I am finally at rest and content with my job but it is the things around me that I am not. Things like my apartment, my relationships, and my health.           I am content at my job for a couple of reasons. I went in this morning and a peace just came over me. I was not of this world when I first walked in. I haven't felt that way w...

           Three Reasons Jesus Christ Came -Save the Sinners          -Main Verse-Luke 19:10                   -  " For the Son of Man came to seek and to save the lost.”          -1 Tim. 1:15          -Is. 53:6          -2 Cor. 5:21 -Came to give us a good life           -Main Verse-John 10:10                      -" A thief is only there to steal and kill and destroy. I came so they can have real     and eternal life, more and better life than they ever dreamed of."-MSG                      -This verse might be another verse on my year's list of verses to remember and look back on.           -Matthew 10:35-36     ...