Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

This is a talk that I had with a friend of me and it really challenged me after I got to thinking about it a little after we were done talking: Me: i might regret asking this later but i'm going to ask anyways do you go to a church and if so where? Friend:  I just started visiting churches again. havent gone in awhile why would you regret asking Me:  I 'm iffy when it comes to those types of questions Friend: why? Me:  just scared of their responses i guess you could say. Sorry, it's been awhile since I have wrote a long and meaningful one on here. I have two blogs that I'm trying to keep up with now. That's how much is going on in my mind. You think since I found a good job and like position now it would be easy but no the devil and God doesn't make it that way. It is never easy with God unless you remember to have Him by your side. This entry is going to be about a talk...

       "You're a daughter of God, a holy princess, a woman created with strengths you're yet to fully grasp and a story that's still being written by the divine Author himself."-Holley Gerth               "If you really take hold of who you are and what you're called to do, there will be no stopping you. That's because there's no stopping Him in you-and He's got bigger plans for your life than you've even imagined."-Holley Gerth       "You're not only amazing. You're enough. You're  beautiful. You're wanted. You're chosen. You're called. You've got what it takes...not just to survive but to change the world."-Holley Gerth -"Part of the beauty of the body of Christ is how different we are from each other."-Holley Gerth       "God creates each of us to be uniquely who we are-just like each part of the body is  unique  too. We don't need more then one of a certain body ...

         I didn't feel like writing today but I have a lot of entries that I need to finish some day so I thought I should to one of the oldest ones today and this subject has been on my mind a lot lately. More then it has lately. It started to be on my mind in Dec. but I really started seeing and thinking more about it this month. Don't take it the wrong way I have now found a home church here in AR that I love too death but as I am saying that now it is the first time that I have really meant it since I have started going to the same exact church for 4 years.          It took me 4 years to where I can get to saying that and feel truthful when I do say it but I think that has a lot to do with me and what I was looking for in a "home" church. That is why the title is what it is. A lot of people say they are looking for a "home" church and who am I to judge what they think that means. This entry is going to talk about what it means for m...

         It's been awhile since I have wrote a poem on this blog and I was in the middle of putting one in a box for keepsake and thought I needed to put it on here before I lose it for good. You know once you put it up, it is gone for good. :) God, I'm Letting You Handle This One God, I'm letting you handle this one on your own. I tried to handle the last one on my own and we saw how that turned out. It turned out a mess and I never could get it back together. God, I'm letting you handle this one. You know how I really feel about this one. He deserves my respect because he has given some to me. I don't want to do anything dumb or break his heart in anyway. He is a special one to me. God, I'm letting you handle this one. You know how I really feel about him. I really think he is the one because he is all I ever wanted and he was right that for me when I needed him to be. God, I'm letting you handle this one. You are better at things l...

        "Be ttering ourselves, making our faith bolder and noticeable in this world because people are in more need of God then any other time in history." 4  But you, brothers and sisters, are not in darkness  so that this day should surprise you like a thief.   5  You are all children of the light  and children of the day. We do not belong to the night or to the darkness.   6  So then, let us not be like others, who are asleep,  but let us be awake  and sober.   7  For those who sleep, sleep at night, and those who get drunk, get drunk at night.   8  But since we belong to the day,  let us be sober, putting on faith and love as a breastplate,  and the hope of salvation  as a helmet.   9  For God did not appoint us to suffer wrath  but to receive salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ.   10  He died for us so that, whether we are awake or asleep, we may liv...

         Doesn't it seem like "when you try and look perfect for something or someone, they are never around or it never happens like you want it too but then when you look bad, that someone is around or that thing happens"? A lot of things can happen when you think you look bad and I have experienced this in a lot of ways. It is not only when you look bad, it is also when you feel at your worst, whether that is being sick or just had a hard day or week. I didn't like it to happen to me when it did but then I got to thinking about it. Maybe it is a good thing things turned out the way they did because then people can see my at my worst once in awhile if they never have before.          For me, I hate it when the good thing or seeing the person I wanted to see for a long time shows up after a hard week or hard day. I can't think of what to say or focus on that person or thing because I have what happened that day before on my mind. I don...

         I have been going to a House of Prayer in AR for the past two Fridays and I have come up with the 2 best prayers and deep prayers there that I have had in awhile. While I can't share one of the prayers because it is a prayer for a friend but I can and will share one. Here it is:           Dear Daddy,                 I want the Spirit to break out of me. I need a lot of walls broken down in so many areas of my life. I need to let more people in, help them, and let go of the past. "In You, we have destiny and timeless doors of opportunity."  I need to lead people too. You have put me with younger and different kinds of people for different reasons. I need to be for sure of my life and then share it when asked. I know I can be a part of something big if I would just let You break down my walls. I have 2 maybe 3 opportunities now, this year. Early 20s or even straight out of college ...

        I titled this "Being a Leader" because I was planning on talking about how I feel like a leader and how should be a leader with my new position at work but I'm going to talk about a little bit more. Today I really think God opened my eyes all around the room I was in and past and present and future. All three of them. When you become what God made you to be things just roll together. I have really missed the classroom setting and being the lead teacher. I'm loving it so much.          I love everything about it and now I know the kind of settings and working I want for sure for the future. As a leader, God really as given me everything that my heart desired for my career.  I don't know what I was thinking when I went into the job field right after college. The college I went to really got me ready for a higher position then an assistant teacher or just a floater. It got me ready for a lead teacher or higher for an admin. positio...

A Prayer to Know-Ephesians 1:18-20                     "I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which He has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in His Holy people, and His incomparably great power for us who believe." That power is the same as the mighty strength  He exerted when He raised Christ from the dead and seated Him at His right hand in the Heavenly realms."                   What do we get when we pray this prayer or what should we be praying from these                     verses:                            -To get and have Hope in God                           ...

        "Come to be with a teachable spirit, eager to be changed. A close walk with Me is a life of continual newness. Do not cling to old ways as you step into a new year. Instead, seek my Face with an open mind, knowing that your journey with Me involves  being transformed by the renewing of your mind. As you focus your thoughts on me, be aware that I am fully attentive to you. I see you with a steady eye because my attention span is infinite. Give yourself fully to this adventure of increasing attentiveness to My Presence."-Sarah Young         "Bring your mind back to me for refreshment and renewal. Let the Light of My Presence goal into you as you focus on your thoughts on Me. Thus I equip you to face whatever the day brings. This sacrifice of time pleases Me and strengthens you. Do not skimp on our time together. Resist the clamor of tasks waiting to be done. You have chosen what i...

        "Do not ask your special someone or anybody else what they think or to let you know. You need to take it to God first and then do what God says."          I want to write this entry at the start of this year because I think it is an important reminder to us all that we need to do it every time and everyday. It is something that I have learned throughout this past year and will continue to learn throughout my life. It is a on going lesson that we need to learn through every stage of life. It came to my mind when I was writing a friend about a situation that I was having and I needed prayer for it.           I often find myself, ending my emails or letters with the phase "Please let me know" or "Please let me know what you want/think." After the certain letter, I got to thinking why do I end my letters that way towards people. I don't need people's thoughts of me but most importantly I need the thoughts of...

         I thought this would be a good entry to write on the 1st day of the New Year, especially after writing the entry about having faith. I can tell you now a lot of my entries are going to be about the subject of faith this month. They will be worded different but I am thinking about having faith when I write each one of them and if you really think about each of them you can see the faith behind the entry. Then maybe in Feb. I will move on to something different or something more then just faith. I had this thought of an entry for a long time but just now got to where I could write it so the thought right after this was a thought I thought in Dec. while listening to some co-workers talking.          "It it funny to hear younger (18-21 years old) people talk about their "planned" out lives. I used to be that way but now, being 28, learning your life never goes like you had planned it. Strong Christian or not. There is no such ...