Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

Proverbs 21:19 "Better to live in a wilderness than with a nagging and a hot tempered wife." Proverbs 21:21 "The one who pursues righteousness and faithful love will find life, righteousness, and honor." Proverbs 22:14 "The mouth of the forbidden woman is a deep pit; a man cursed by the Lord will fall into it." Proverbs 24:3-4 "A house is built by wisdom, and it is established by understanding; by knowledge the rooms are filled with every precious and beautiful treasure." Proverbs 24:27 "Complete your outdoor work, and prepare  your field; afterward, build your house." Proverbs 25:11 "A word spoken at the right time is like gold apples in silver settings." Proverbs 25:28 "A person who does not control his temper it like a city whose wall is broken down." Proverbs 27:5-6 "Better an open reprimand than concealed love." Proverbs 27:10 "Don...

Proverbs 9:13-18 "Folly is rowdy woman, she is gullible and knows nothing.  She sits by the doorway of her house, on a seat at the highest point of the city, calling to those who pass by, who go straight ahead on their paths: "Whoever is inexperienced, enter here!" To the one who lacks sense, she says, "stolen water is weet, and bread eaten secretly is tasty!' But he doesn't know  that the departed spirits are there,  that her guests are in the depths of Sheol." Proverbs 10:9 "The one who lives with intgerity lives securely, but whoever perverts his ways will be found out." Proverbs 10:12 "Hatred stirs up conflict but love covers all offenses." Proverbs 10:22 "The Lord's blessing enriches, and he adds no painful effort to it." Proverbs 10:28 "The hope of the righteous is joy,  but the expectation of the wicked will perish." ...

           So I am literally crying right now as I write this and I know I have already wrote one today but I can't get this miracles out of my mind and it is perfect for everything I have been through this week. For those of you who had no idea, I have been on anxiety meds. for 4 years off and on but finally stopped last July. It was a choice I made myself. I didn't like how the meds. were making me mess up with life and the way they were affecting my thoughts and choices. As I look back now and see what has happened since it is like God is starting a whole new story from this day forwards. It was like VBS was the start of it, which is funny because this past Weds. was exactly a year from we I started to stop it. I don't know if I just noticed it tonight or if I have been noticing it all week but it finally did hit me.            It all started in August when I got placed at a new school for my job for the new school year. I...

            This past week has been an amazing one to remember. It has been one for the books too. I had energy to do things after work and I loved doing them. Yeah, I was sleepy when I got home but it was a good kind of sleepy. It was a busy week but I wouldn't have it any other way. It kept me focused on what I love to do and like I said before I had fun doing it. This week I did a small VBS after work every night and it brought back memories. I use to help my mom with VBS a lot while I was in high school and then of course I would go every summer when I was little if my church had one, which they usually did. This was the first VBS that I did here in AR and it was a blast!               I had a great group of kids and the theme was pretty interesting and fun. It was all about Science, which I like in a way as long as it isn't the hard science. There was fun little kid friendly experiments, the crafts were cute, the gam...

           When I say "feeling helpless" I mean towards people in difficult situations. I've honestly remember one other time that I felt that helpless and it was back in college. I had excuses back then though, This moment and situation I don't and shouldn't have any excuses. That is what is tearing me apart on the inside right now.            In college, the excuses were ones like I don't know any but 2 of them, I don't know that person, and I won't see them after college. Well, God's laughing at me right now this week. He does have a sense of humor. I shouldn't have any excuses now I am scared in a way and making some up. They're not really excuses but more what ifs. Either way, I am still doubting myself. Think I feel helpless when I only knew 2 of them? Can you guess how helpless I feel now? So, so, so much. I can't even describe it on here. No words for it. Each person/family has their own story of how they got to know m...

            Maybe I should start doing child development workshops or something like that? Why, you might ask. Answer is I love teaching and children. I also love to give advice and be able to share what I know. I think that is part of the fun so far in this new job. I also love to get more wisdom and learn more which I am also doing. The teacher and floater that I have been paired with this past month. They are either younger then me or don't have the same degree. They have a degree that helps them but also confuses them at the same time. They have worked one center or none at all when I have worked about 4 or more centers.             She is taking classes for on the job training but doesn't have a CDA or a degree yet. The other teacher has a degree but not in child development. Yet they both know it and asks for my help when they need it. She is also excited about the job and think it is fun. She loves her children even whe...

You Knew...... You knew I was worried about moving up so You took that worry away. You knew I wanted to get back into ministry so You came up with a plan. You knew I was wondering when it would start and You let me know. You knew I needed to let go of something so I did. You knew that would be hard for me so you were right by my side. You just knew and now I am seeing and thinking that. You knew the children that I needed in my life and the reasons for each of those children. You knew how I needed to get to where I needed to go. You knew when I was having a hard time and was ready to get out. You knew when I should give up on things on this world and trust You with getting better. You knew I was getting tried of where I was and wanted a new spot. You knew how I needed to get there. You knew I needed to wait on Your Timing. You knew how things needed to go down. You knew when I needed to change things. You knew when I needed a cat. You knew what I neede...

           I feel like I can work on other parts of my life, which is a good thing, since I am happy with my job area right now. That area is not over all my life now. I feel like I can focus more on my spiritual area and friendships/relationships area and put the 2 together somehow. I think I was just too stressed, worried, sleepy, and so on to really care about those areas that I felt that I have let them slip on the last 2 or 3 years. It was all about finding a job that had usual hours, was making enough money, and had people that I could get along with plus a program that they stuck with and I liked too. I find all that in my new job.           Yet me, being Ms. Fix it, is moving on to another part of my life to work on. Life I said before it's my spiritual life with my friends and relationships. I feel that I have threw that part away and I hate that because those should have helped me with my job area. I am seeing that they a...

          Here is the 2nd part of the first entry that I promised. The Sunday morning's Sunday School and sermon. Sunday School was about "The Light of the World". The sermon about "True Greatness". What does that mean you might wonder? Here are some quotes and verses about it and then below explains some more about the sermon that was taught this morning. The first part was "Confessions" like it says below. Now I am going to talk about darkness into light and Love. We talked about darkness into light during Sunday School and that was my first time going at the Sunday church. The sermon during church was about Love. That's why the first three are numbered like they are. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ John 1:1-9 The Word Became Flesh 1  In the beginning was the Word,  and the Word was with God,  and the Word was God.   2  He was with God in the beginning.   3  Through him all things were ...

James 5:16   New International Version (NIV) 16  Therefore confess your sins  to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed.  The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ John 13:34   New International Version (NIV) 34  “A new command  I give you: Love one another.  As I have loved you, so you must love one another. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ John 13:1-7   New International Version (NIV) Jesus Washes His Disciples’ Feet 13  It was just before the Passover Festival.  Jesus knew that the hour had come  for him to leave this world and go to the Father.  Having loved his own who were in the world, he loved them to the end. 2  The evening meal was in progress, and the devil had already prompted Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot, to betray Jesus.   3  Jesus knew that t...

          "It is a hard decision because you have to really pray and figure out if this is something you want or God wants. That is the hardest part f this whole thing is putting you thoughts and feelings aside and only hearing God. God is always growing us and changing us, and it is good not to be comfortable, because if you are comfortable you are not open to the change God is making in you. After I left I thought I would miss it, but I was really at peace, God put me at peace. God just sightly changed the path He wanted me to walk down. I know people hear this a lot but you must pray. Sometimes we want an answer so fast that we forget who to ask the question to. Pray for this and have others pray for you too. For guidance and wisdom and for His Will to be done. I hope God puts the answers on your heart........all in His Timing of course." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~             This is ...

Proverbs 11:14   New International Version (NIV) 14  For lack of guidance a nation falls,      but victory is won through many advisers. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Strange how God works!? He sends me a verse about victory and then brings to mind a very important saying from a certain friend. All is done the day before the 3rd on the 5th month." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~         This is a good verse and entry to be writing in the 5th month and on today. I will say that I love that the verse uses the word "victory" because it gives me hope for things in my life, whether career or friendships. I am thankful that this verse came across my attention last night. I am not thankful for the way it did because a friend used it for hope for getting through the hard time she is having right now. It is a really good verse though. We are need victory from time to time and we ...