Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

        This is more of a remembering entry for me about my baptism weekend so I can look back and remember all the good things that went on. Just in case I need it in my life. :) I was pretty nervous up til the day of, which means I was nervous all the week before. It was a beautiful weekend for a baptism, so beautiful that I could not stay inside my apartment today (day after) at all.              Saturday Day: My parents and little brother came down around noon and we spent the day at my big brother's house so I got to play and hold my nieces and nephews for most of the day until I had to go to the church at 4:30. I jumped with them on the tempoline some and played a card game with my littlest nephew. I also got to hold and see my littlest niece smile a lot at me.         Then 4:30 came and I had to go to church. I met people in the worship center and then went into the prayer room and up the stairs and got...

          I don't know why this memory is hitting me so hard right now and it all started last night while I was laying in bed trying to go to sleep. I haven't wrote a lot of entries about how I felt about my grandma passing away this past August because honestly I didn't know what to write or how to put it into words plus I was busy. I was looking and starting a new job during that time plus I just got let go at my other job so things were just really busy at the time. Now that I look back on the moments I had with her, there are things I remember and love.          The one memory out of a lot of memories that I had with her but the only one at the nursing home that I had with her would be during one visit when we went out on the back porch and talked. I, of course, remember all those times I went a visited her in the memory loss unit of the home but that was hard to start with. There was one time we went to the back porch because she ...

         If you have been keeping up with my blog, just a little bit, you will know that my church has been on the topic of suffering for this past month and it is a good topic because the way they teach it is: God is there with you through the suffering and here are the different ways He is with you and good reasons why. It has made me thinking about the kinds of sufferings that I see around me and little and big sufferings that I have been through myself. I mean we live in a world of sin and suffering whether we like to admit it or not. I love that one night during the sermon there was a baby crying in the service and sirens going off outside and it was only a couple reminders of the different suffering in the world.           I am making a big choice tomorrow night at church and I just thought I needed to share my "suffering" testimony if that is what you can call it. It kind of explains why I am doing what I am doing. I will say tha...

         Have you ever been in a situation that lasted year after year and you understand why you have to go through it but don't understand why things are going the way they are? I'm in the middle of one like that right now. I understand that what is going on is good but why can't I do something about it. It is so hard to deal with it and it will get you down and tried but if you care enough you have to stick with it.          You don't know what or how to feel? You want to talk and tell but you don't want to mess things up. You would hold onto everything you have with your life and you have been through too much to let the things go. To take that chance and risk. I don't want to say that I am the only one trying under the things going on but I feel like I am. I want to be happy but it is so hard when you feel like you are not been seen different then any other person.          That is the part you don't under...

    This is the way that I have learned this exact verse but I found another way that I really love it and I will explain way in this entry:       " Wait   for the   Lord ;      be strong  and take HEART      and wait for the  Lord ."-Psalms 27:14 (NIV)     This is the verse and way that I like this verse:            " Stay with   God !               Take HEART . Don’t quit.              I’ll say it again:               Stay with  God .-Psalms 27:14 (MSG)             There are some differences to these verses even though they mean the same thing. To me, one version is nicer then the other. I know that is funny to say and think about but when you are, maybe, leading someone to Christ, you might need a ...

         "How did you get your strengths? God created you with them. You are, "fearfully and wonderfully made" (Psalm 139:14). Then He allows life experiences to develop your strengths ever more."-Holley Gerth         "A strength is a personal characteristic that can be used on behalf of God in service to others. Usually they're present throughout our lives but can be enhanced through experience or training. Strengths are part of who we are while skills are more about what we do."-Holley Gerth         "Jesus is the source of our strengths and He's also the one who enables us to live in them each day."-Holley Gerth         "God is out greatest strength-and the One who enables us to live out all the other strengths He's places within us."-Holley Gerth Sorry there is only four quotes from Holley Gerth in this entry. I just wanted to get it out of my draft box because I have so many drafts in th...

Please Listen to my Heart  Daddy, there are times that I can't find the words to speak. There are times I just don't understand. There are times that I struggle and suffer but yet You are listening. The things that I care about and worry about are the things that need to be said in my heart. I don't know how to put them into words that shows my feelings. My deep desires will be found in my heart too. Please listen to my heart. The closer I grow with you and allow You in my life. The more my heart does the talking. Those people and things that my heart is talking about also mean a lot to me and I really care about them. The more talking my heart does, the more I truly give over to You. When I want you to listen to my heart it's because I know I can't say the words that does justice. It is something I don't want to take lightly. You are the God that we are suppose to take everything to, even the hardest things. Please listen to my heart...

         I was going to write an entry about how until I get with the right guy and go out a few times that  I won't know I am in love but then I thought about it and that doesn't make sense especially if that guy is a friend of yours. I'm not saying mine is just yet but then again how do we know. I think it is funny that I am writing this entry the day before Valentine's Day because I also promised I wouldn't be so emotional this year but I guess emotional is better then depressed like I have been in the past around this time of year.           God has given more then I deserve through everything even my closet friendships girls and guys. He has given the encouragement that I needed to get through tough things and to keep me going when I felt like I wanted to give up. That's not all through that He has done. God has also written some life stories that I never will forget and hope that I don't have to forget ever. I thought about a...

         I was going to write on my blog about children because I had a big day with my toddlers and learned a lot of new things but I decided to write something on here because thoughts were hitting me more for this one then my children's blog. I can always go back to that one some other time and write about today somehow on it. This topic is just fresh on my mind right now and when I have deep thoughts I need to write them down if you haven't noticed yet.             I got this title "Please Listen to My Heart" one night as I was praying to God this week. This week has just been a blessing to me in the biggest way possible, yet I have no words to explain it. I guess you could say there is where the title come from but really it wasn't. The title came from a prayer request that I had a feeling for but didn't quite have the words for because I didn't know all that was going on. Ever get that way? Ever get to where you know you shou...

          I think God has really encouraged me to start learning about budgeting for real this time. I think He has shown me that by lowering my money status. I will be honest with you all. God has taken me out of my comfort zone by making me learn about budgeting. I have always had enough money to feel comfortable about where I was financial but since this past summer that status has changed and I have been freaking out a lot and stressing over it a lot. I am pretty good at saving money but it still worries me enough to where I don't spend a lot when I am low on money.          I have had to ask family members and friends about how to set up a budget, how to spend on some things, and other things. Now, yes, I have learned how to shop cheaper and how to look for sales and so on. I was taught that in college in my homemaking classes but back then, I was stubborn enough to think that I will never need to use them but now I look back and s...

The Whole Armor of God 10  A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.   11  Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil.   12  For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places. 13  Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle you will still be standing firm.   14  Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and the body armor of God’s righteousness.   15  For your shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared.   16  In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil.   17  Put on salvation as your hel...

"Slaves, obey your earthly masters with respect  and fear, and with sincerity of heart,  just as you would obey Christ.   6  Obey them not only to win their favor when their eye is on you, but as slaves of Christ,  doing the will of God from your heart.   7  Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not people,   8  because you know that the Lord will reward each one for whatever good they do,  whether they are slave or free. 9.  And masters, treat your slaves in the same way. Do not threaten them, since you know that he who is both their Master and yours  is in heaven, and there is no favoritism  with him."-Eph. 6:5-9 How to be a Spiritual Worker? -Know Your Boss (AKA God).= Vision        -Verse 5        -Answers our prayers. "Give us our daily bread" by workers. -All Work is Heart Work.= Character        -Verse 6-7 ...