Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

      God really worked on my first day back from my Christmas break. He got me in gear right from the start. I was so lost and confused because of children leaving and different people working but He got me where He need to be even before I went into work this morning without me knowing it. These are the verses that I wrote down before work and the ones above them if you look them up. It talks about how people are God's house and we should the good architect or carpenter. Hopefully, I was the Architect today. Here are the verses:                       "  Or, to put it another way, you are God’s house. Using the gift God gave me as a good architect, I designed blueprints; Apollos is putting up the walls. Let each carpenter who comes on the job take care to build on the foundation! Remember, there is only one foundation, the one already laid: Jesus Christ. Take particular care in picking out your build...

      I can already tell 2014 is going to be a life changing year for me. I'm having the most relaxing time this week then I have in a long time not worrying about anything but yet I'm out trying to shoot a bow and arrow, shopping, cooking, sewing, and just being me out in the country. I wrote a testimony too about how a friend's TV show as changed my life and really I can't describe it in words. I've been thinking about and talking to my little brother that hunts and shoots and just seeing how much arrows costs gets to me. If you make a living out of hunting it does cost a lot of money.        It is a whole new way of life and strangely enough I like it. There are no words for a lot of my life right now and might not be for awhile. I'm still trying to firgure out where I belong in AR and what my boundaries should be. I don't have a settled life and yet I want one in AR. My dad said I could start looking for a house instead of my apartment down there ...

      I usually don't do two a day but there is a memory verse that has been hitting me a lot this Christmas season and I saw it again just now and and with it passing I wanted to/felt like I needed to share it. It is:        “And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; He is Christ, the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger."-Luke 2:8-10        I seem to be hearing and seeing a lot about Joy this month and I don't know why but it is hitting me too. We should be joyful and rejoicing that Jesus was born on this day. We should be happy with exceed...

      One of these days I will get to enteries about me and more devos but I have one more I really want to share that just broke my heart last night. One of my little girls were just having a hard time yesterday. I try to leave her alone and let her cry it out but my heart couldn't take it on Christmas Eve. I took a break from all the work and let her sit in my lap a little while while watching a Christmas movie before bed.      After supper, she just broke down crying and screaming and wouldn't stop at all. We tried to leave her alone in a room where we could still watch her to see if she would calm down but it just kept getting worse and louder. I gave her a chance to go watch the movie by herself but that didn't work. I tried having her sit on my lap and that worked wonders. She just needed that one on one time at Christmas but I don't blame her at all.      I rocked her to sleep and had a little talk to her before bed and she said that...

      You don't realize how blessed and nice it is to be with family after you have spent it with people and children who don't have a family to spend the hoildays with. I'm sure there will be more about after today on this same topic but I just had to share what happened yesterday. I got 3 presents and for me that is a lot and keeps me busy. Those presents aren't material things but children who need to be loved on. I had 3 situtations that I had to comfort children yesterday and some just broke my heart.          The first one wasn't too bad. It was just one of my little boys coming back from a visit and he needed encouragement to go play with the children once he got back. He was "away" for a second but he got over it really fast. The other one was my normal little girl that I talk to and comfort a lot lately. It seems she likes to be by herself more and more. I had to comfort her after something that she got to do and then at bedtime whe...

      Yesterday was just another day with blessings pouring in from right and left. It was sad blessings most of them but it helped me understand the children more. I'm starting to see to that I can love all the children at once but I can only really focus on one one at a time like really talk to them and hold them at night, which is sad. I need more arms to hold all of them and mind space and ears to listen and take in everything they are saying.        Start out with the good one that happened to me. I think one of my little girls will be a real encourager if she gets with the right family. She says the sweetest things that are so encouraging even to us grown ups. It was the same girl that called me adorable Weds. that called me sweet yesterday. I just want to take this one home with me but can't. She keeps telling me that she loves me every time during bath like 3 or 4 times and then adds something like "you're sweet" on the middle of it. ...

     It always seems like the little gifts that are unnoticed during a plain day is noticed during a really busy day or at least to me that is how it seems. I had a busy day at work yesterday but it was God's present to me because I haven't had a day like that in a long time. One little sweet thing happened one after the other and I got to know the children more and love on them more it felt like. I had 3 amazing things happen to me yesterday and it just made my day. Some of the things were just trying to make a different in the child's life too and I got joy from that as well.      One was from a little girl when I was putting her pjs on her before bed. She hugged and kissed me. She also said, "I love you, Miss Tiffney" a muiltple of times and she also said, in those middle of I love yous, "You're adorable." Just broke my heart to hear that from a little girl. It was complient after complient from her while getting her pjs on. Then I was rocking an...

       I'm thinking and going to be learning a lot about boundaries in the New year and try and set some for me to get my life under my control along with God. It will be a process. How I wish I could be on a mission trip doing this but it is good either way. You will see a lot of enteries here about boundaries because I am reading the book called "Boundaries: When to say Yes, when to Say No To Take Control of Your Life".  It is by Dr. Henry Cloud and Dr. John Townsend. It has some pretty good points and verses from the Bible so I will be using those as enteries maybe to tell what they mean to me.          I've already come across Gen. 1:28 where it says  that we must do what the Lord has given us on this earth to do. To subdue this earth and name every living creature and thing but that was Adam's job and purpose here on the earth from God. God has a plan for each one of like that though we just need to follow Him for it. As my fr...

       The sermon at my church this morning was amazing. They talked about how God sent His Son into a Dark world. They showed us with the lights by turning them off and on and everything. We don't think much about the lights we put up on our houses or trees but we should and this sermon got me thinking about it a new way. Lights around Christmas is to light up everything whether house or tree. God made a plan for us to be saved and to be the light for Him when Jesus went to Heaven.          They metioned Matthew 5 where it says we are meant to be the light now for God because Jesus died on the cross. Jesus passed that job onto us. They also meationed a lot about the dark valley of death and that God came to light that path up too. I loved it when they said the people of faith had to cross that valley into the Light. God had a plan for us so we could do that. His Plan was talked about in the Old Testament but happened in the New testament. G...

       I know most of you are already reading my title and are like "you got to be kidding me about this." If you really stop and think about it though, He did and that reason was to slow down at this time of year. I feel like I am behind on my Christmas shopping and parties and everything else that has to do with Christmas but yet I spent this last week more then any other way caring like I should. Taking time for God like I should and it's not just through the present and it won't be this week either. I feel like I'm rushing to get things done but I shouldn't be. Yeah, I'm rushing to get the pysical things done but what about my spirit and God. Do I remember the true meaning of it and resting in that? Am I happy with that when all the present are gone and all I have is family and friends to go to?         You know maybe it is harder on me this year too because I don't feel like we need the material things in life. I spent almost a year wit...

       Who knew that you could have a mission trip in your home state at your own job in a big snow storm? AR friends are going to kill me for saying this but I want this all winter. LOL! :) They know where I work though so they understand why. I would have to be able to go outside with the children though most of the time. :) That is where I have been the past 2 days and it has opened up my eyes so much. God knew what He was doing when He put everything in order for good. I had a hard week last week but this week just seems so much better and yet I started it off at work after having a good talk with a family member.           It seems like I just needed to get a way from my apartment and people around me like sorry to say it but friends for awhile and have no way of talking for long for awhile. You don't know how hard something hits you until it hits you hard and then you are like duh! First off, I think my apartment is too small and ...

      I thought I would write one about my first big snow storm that we are having here in AR right now. I'm learning a lot about life and the weather is not helping because it is just going right along with it teaching me the same thing. I have seen how my job now works with the snow and knowing me that is not good. I have been driving in this mess everyday but when you have children that need you, there is nothing else you can do. You can stay there and make it like a short mission trip but I haven't yet.         This weather is also getting to me emaitonally because I'm stressed when my work calls and ask if I want to come in. I'm the kind of person that says, "yes" espically when it involves children and that could get you in touable sometimes. I was in a wreak on the way to work one day. It was just me hitting a little metal pole and bared wire and all I got was a dent in my car. It also was the first time that I drove in snow in AR bec...

       We went over this in church last Sunday for the 1st week of Advent. The word or thought for this week is "Hope". We started in the old testament where David said and did almost the exact same things has Jesus did and said on the cross. The verses are Psalm 22:6-10 for today and I might give some more verses later on but this is all I had time to write about on Sunday. "But I am a worm and not a man. I'm scorned and despised by all! Everyone who sees me mocks me. They sneer and shake their heads, saying, "Is this the one who relies on the Lord? Then let the Lord save him! If the Lord loves Him so much, let the Lord rescue Him!" Yet you brought me safely from my mother's womb and led me to trust you when I was a nursing infant. I was thrust upon you at my birth. You have been mu God from the moment I was born."-Psalm 22:6-10          Here are my thoughts on these verses. Here is what I get from them and what the Lord is saying to me....

        I had this story that happened at work and I just had to tell it to someone. It might be short because I have to hurry but I knew if I didn't write it down I would forget it later. A lot has been going on that I need to write down on here. Hopefully, I will get caught up when I get snowed in. This talk with this little boy started the night before and I just wanted to see what kind of morning he had after he woke up for the morning.          This little boy, as I was putting him to sleep, was telling me that he was sacred and kept seeing a monster when he was closing his eyes so he couldn't go to sleep. That monster seemed to be Harry Potter with a knife. Now, I have never watched those movies because I know they would scare me too. I don't know if this is true or not. He also said that he was made to watch them because someone else watched them. I just kept reminding him that he was safe and I will stay by his bedside until he ...

     Here are my ideas for the kinds of yo-yo teddy bears I'm going to start making and maybe once I get enough teddy bears sold I will start making other things like hair pieces, blankets, and wreaths. -Brown just because I found brown patterns I liked for the 1st one -Pink and maybe Hello Kitty for little girls-thinking of making one for my niece -Disney Princesses for little girls -Black and Lime Green -Baby Blue for little boys -Pale yellow or green for any gender of baby -John Deere colors (yellow and green) -Camo and maybe orange -Red and white for the Razorbacks -Maybe yellow and black for MIZZOU -Any Holiday/Seasonal ones -When I get really good, I will take suggestions. I could and wouldn't mind any suggestions right now but they won't be made just for a person right now. I'm hoping to get to that spot though and sell them to raise money for some kind of mission trip or traveling overseas for sometime longer then a week, maybe a year is ...