Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

" Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,      for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way  I should go,      for to you I entrust my life."- Psalm 143:8 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Let it Go, Let it Go. Can't hold it back anymore!  Let it go, Let it Go! Turn away and slam the door!" -Frozen And yes, I do work with children (aka little children).            This verse has been my life this month. I haven't had a verse that I have lived by or realized that I lived by until this month. I feel like everything that is happening is because of this verse right here. I have been through some of the most painful times but yet got the answers that I needed to move on. I have learned to let go and entrust my life to God.           I was just reading a devo. with this verse as the theme verse and t...

          May is a busy month for a lot of things for me. It is a month that I can't keep track of things. I have like 10 birthdays, family members'  and friends, not really but it seems that way if I gave everyone a card. Not only is it Foster Care Awareness month but it is also Mental Awareness Month, which is a big deal for me since I have anxiety. I would like to say something about it and try to get people in the know. I know the month of May is almost over and I wish I could have done this entry sooner but at least I'm doing it now.           I have known I had anxiety since 2 years ago but I probably had it all my life or at least since high school. I started taking meds. since I admitted it that I had it 2 years ago. It is something that people have to take easy with the ones that have it because it could be hard for them to admit. It was hard for me to admit it. I have had people want to help me in high school and college ...

1 Corinthians 2:12-3:23 English Standard Version (ESV) 12  Now  we have received not  the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, that we might understand the things freely given us by God.   13  And we impart this  in words not taught by human wisdom but taught by the Spirit,  interpreting spiritual truths to those who are spiritual. 14  The natural person does not accept the things of the Spirit of God, for they are  folly to him, and  he is not able to understand them because they are spiritually discerned. 15  The  spiritual person judges all things, but is himself to be judged by no one.   16  “For who has understood the mind of the Lord so as to instruct him?” But  we have the mind of Christ. Divisions in the Church 3  But I, brothers, could not address you as  spiritual people, but as  people of the flesh, as  infants in Christ.   2  I fed you with m...

" Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,      for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way  I should go,      for to you I entrust my life."- Psalm 143:8 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Marriage was never meant to make me happy all the time.  Marriage  is a decision to honor God by  honoring the one He entrusted to me."-Lysa Terkeurst ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~             Psalm 143:8 was given to me by a friend last month and it has been on my bathroom mirror all of this month. The verse has been my theme verse for this month. I am sure that I saw it from church or somewhere else before that friend gave it to me but either way it is how I need to live my life and I am trying especially this month. It is just so hard to have all of those things and believe all of those things when things are changing and ...

          Were you ever scared? Is a question that I never thought I would get asked but I did by a friend not too long ago. My answer to that question was a big YES! I am the worried and scared person of all.  I do nothing without being scared or worried. That is what drives me to do the things I want to some times. I am so scared or worried that I turn to God and then when I think He has opened the door or gave me a chance I go for it and pray for the best. I would say that everything in my life or any great thing in my life I did when I was scared but that is how God pushes us to the best we can be sometimes. He uses our weaknesses and mine happens to be scared all the time.          I don't like change at all. It scares me. I was scared to start college especially a college I didn't know anything about or really wanted to go to in the first place but then it turned out the best 5 years of my life. I was scared trying certain cl...

"Lord , you alone are my portion  and my cup;      you make my lot  secure. The boundary lines  have fallen for me in pleasant places;      surely I have a delightful inheritance.   I will praise the  Lord , who counsels me;      even at night  my heart instructs me.   I keep my eyes always on the  Lord .      With him at my right hand,  I will not be shaken.   Therefore my heart is glad  and my tongue rejoices;      my body also will rest secure,   because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead,      nor will you let your faithful   one  see decay.   You make known to me the path of life;      you will fill me with joy in your presence,      with eternal pleasures  at your right hand."- Psalm 16:5-11 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~...