Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

       If I had to pick one child at my job that has progressed the most it would be my "toddler in tiara" and this is since I have worked there but I know there is a lot more to come. This is the one that I will turely remember for the rest of my life. I remember her when she came in. She screamed or cry most of the time to get your attention and the very little she did talk, you could not understand. She had one leg that was bent inwards towards her other leg. She had a hard time eating and was very picky about her food. She was also skinny and looked like a baby at the age of 2. You would be amazed how all that changed in at least 3 months and a little longer when we had her.        As the 3 months went on, we helped her along in the ways we could. We took her to drs. appointment for her eating problems and she has had a lot of threapy done with her like OT and PT with us. She got braces for her one leg so that will face forwards and she can w...

       "Ever wonder what it would be like to be distance from God for a year or more?" As I'm sitting outside during the beautiful Spring day, I think about what my 25th year was like (aka that was last year). I had a talk with God about it last night before I went to bed and it kept me up for at least a pretty good hour. Just crying and trying to understand where I have been and why did I stray from my 24th year since I was so blessed then and had things going for me. As girls and even humans, we think we have everything planned out and that we can tell God this is how we what it done and He will do it that way for us. Well, Last year is when everything hit me hard and changed. God completely turned everything in my life around or was working on it and during this year (my 26th) I'm grateful that He did.       I'm going to start from the very beginning of how things were during my 24th year. I had a lot of little moments that I will never forget...

         "My thoughts are completely different from yours," says the Lord. "And my Ways are far beyond what you can imagine. For just as the Heavens are higher then the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My Thoughts higher then your thoughts."-Isaiah 55:8-9            I was laying in bed last night and thinking about the way God is leading me. This verse came to my mind while I was laying there.  I went to sleep with this verse being the last thing on my mind. It calmed me down for some reason. It was actually nice to fall asleep with a verse in mind. I was thinking about where I am in life now and where I was. God has brought be through a lot and to be honest I was not on His Path for a year it seems like. I was trying to do things my way and trying to make my dreams come true but there is no way I can do that because my dreams are too big for myself.              Go...

      This is about how the Lord has opened more of my eyes two years almost down the road after June 2012. Since I have gotten back from Guatemala in 2012, I have lost my 1st job and got a new one that I love and have been learning a lot about my life through that job. My friends have been by me yet apart from me in a lot of ways. I've had some that stayed and others that went. I can tell you know that I had no idea that I would be where I am today back in June 2012 and I give that credit to God and the children of Guatemala. Guatemala is a place that will always be on my heart and I went back last summer in 2013 but not going this summer but that doesn't mean I don't love it just the same. I left half of my heart there so someday I will go back, Lord Willing.        A lot of things have changed and it would take me forever to explain a whole year's worth of things that happened so I won't. I will just give you the main ideas. With my new job th...

    This was written in June of 2012.       God has been showing me lately what the true meaning of "Open the Eyes of my Heart Lord" means or just to open up our eyes to see what is in front of us. My devo. hit me hard this morning and then a song came to mind.  Quote from "Jesus Calling"-Sarah Young-" I AM nearer then you think, richly present in all your moments. Ask Me to open your eyes, so that you can find me everywhere. The more aware you are of My Presence, the safer you feel." Song-"Open the eyes of my Heart, Lord. Open the eyes of my heart. I want to see you. I want to see you. To see you high and lifted up, shining in the Light of Your Glory, pour out your power and love."-Old song but so true! :) Someone close to me told me that I needed to open my eyes on certain things before my trip to Guatemala because I was stressing out way too much and of course I didn't understand that. I was like my eyes are open and I want w...

   "My thoughts are completely different from yours," says the Lord. "And my Ways are far beyond what you can imagine. For just as the Heavens are higher then the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My Thoughts higher then your thoughts."-Isaiah 55:8-9     " For as the rain and the snow come down from heaven   and do not return there but water the earth,  making it bring forth and sprout,   giving seed to the sower and bread to the eater,  so shall my word be that goes out from my mouth  it shall not return tome empty,  but  it shall accomplish that which I purpose, and shall succeed in the thing for which I sent it.  For you shall go out in joy  and be led forth in peace;  the mountains and the hills before you  shall break forth into singing,  and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands. Instead of the thorn shall come up the cypress;   instead of the brier shall come...

 God is everywhere that we look in nature. Nature is His way of showing us He loves us. It is His Gift to us. Just think of everything He gives us in nature. God gives is beautiful flowers during the Spring. He dresses each one of them in bright colors. Give each one of then their own different style of leaves and petals, He gives us the trees. They have their own shape of bark and leaves too. God gives us the sunrise and sunset to mark our days. He paints a picture in the sky for us every morning and night with those. We have a reason to wake up every morning even if it is just to see that beautiful sunrise. He has given us the beautiful white snow to remind us that our sins are that pure white when He looks at them. He gives us the rain to calm things down on this earth when it gets too crazy. The smell of it is wonderful too.  Sometimes even after a rainstorm, He gives us a rainbow as a reminder of His promises to us. God also gives us thunde...

Engage with the Spirit " I know I need the help of your Spirit, but I'm unsure how to engage His assistant."-Sarah Young How to engage the Spirit's assistant for freedom:     -know condemnation feelings have no basis in reality -delight yourself  in God's approval  -focus on God's Presence to receive His Love -experiencing God's Love -ponder the truths of the Bible -Fight the devil's lies with Biblical Truth Verses to look at: -John 10:10 -Romans 8:1-2 -Psalm 42:8 -John 8:44 Prayer: Spirit- Take control of my actions and thoughts today.  Let me live life to the fullest and show people how too. In Jesus' name, Amen

        I was going to try and wait and do another entery in two days because I have been writing so often it seems like but I have a lot going on in my mind and I just have to write it out and get it out somehow. This could be another girly entery so if you are a guy beware but it might help you get into a mind of a girl because I know I'm not the only girl that feels this way. We all feel this way one time or another.         As some of my latest enteries show, I'm been thinking about the true me and who I really am in God and only in Him and to no other person. As I shared with one of my friends this past weekend, I'm just in that stage of life where I'm so confused and trying to find out where I belong in life. It's crazy because my job that I have now is really teaching me a lot about myself. It is totally different from my life because I grew up in a great family that took great care of me compared to these children but God has pu...

Here is another one of my poems. I was going to save it til April but it fits all that I'm writing about right now in one way or the other. I thought I would put it on now and it has been awhile since I put a poem on here written by me.  Beauty From Ashes Since the beginning God created women from ashes. We were made from Adam's rib but yet made in the image of god. We have sins because we Are human but Jesus took Those ashes away when he Died on the cross for us. We Might not understand the pain We have to go through as woman But it's who we are. The beauty is one of God's Traits and He shows the World it perfectly in us if we Let Him. We might go through Test after test but that's because God is trying to beautify us for Him. We might learn from the situations He takes us through,  And be better in the next one That's comes our way because Everything comes in a circle. When I say be better I meant...

         "A Woman's job is not to control but to let the man be the leader of the family." We see that as true in the Garden of Eden. I was talking to a friend of mine about it and she opened up a whole to way for me to look at Adam and Eve as they took a bite of the apple. Recently, I have had a situation that was like that in a lot of ways. It has been lasting about a year but it really bothered me in the last 4 months. God was showing me these verses all week last week and while I was talking to my friend it all made sense. The verses come from 1 Timothy 2:8-15:          " In every place of worship, I want men to pray with holy hands lifted up to God, free from anger and controversy.  And I want women to be modest in their appearance. They should wear decent and appropriate clothing and not draw attention to themselves by the way they fix their hair or by wearing gold or pearls or expensive clothes.   For women who cla...

          This past week has been hard and busy for me. I'm finding out a lot of things about myself that I didn't know or didn't want to noticed before now. If you ask what area of my life is being affected, I would say all areas. Future, friends, and career are all going to change I can just feel it but it bothers me that I don't know how or when. I feel like my life is out of control and that I can do nothing about it. I try to hold on but that makes things harder and more stressed.            I've noticed this week and this past month that I have been stepping up a lot at work lately because the children need me there or at least someone there for them and right now I am the only one there. I got a comment from someone that I have stepped up a lot lately and I'm thinking "Thanks but I hate it." I feel like I have no life right now and that is the worst feeling ever. I know most of you would say that the children are my lif...

My Shepherd, the Lord March 29, 2013 at 10:59am I was reading my devo. this morning and it was about how the Lord is our Shepherd and how He tenderly leads us step by step in our lives whether we see it or not. It just got to me and got me looking at Psalm 23 in a whole new way. First I made up an equation-tenderly=step by step. "My Shepherd is leading me tenderly step by step in my life." You might ask, "How?" The answers are in Psalms 23. -rest -leads me with peace -renews my strength -guides me -close beside me -protects and comforts me -rid/help me handle my enemies -overflowing with blessings -goodness and unfailing Love for me -live in the house of the Lord. Do we need any other reasons to not Trust Him today? Like

        The weather has been crazy where I live here in AR but it has been warm and beautiful for the past 2 days. I can't wait for Spring and Summer to come. So excited! Just praying for no more snow this month. :) Beautiful days are such a great reminder of God's Creation and what He can do through it. There are a lot of things God can do with His Creation and I'm not just talking about different designs of clouds and sunsets. I'm talking about personally to people and children.          I'm a big believer in getting the children outdoors in anyway you can whether it be walking down the street or in woods to hunting or camping. Most people that know me a little wouldn't think I grew up in the outdoors but if you get to know me more and more hopefully you would see that I did grow up in the outdoors. For me, I love outdoor time (aka recess) at work because the children get their energy out but at the same time they seem to be a lot cal...

               The Lord’s Grace to Paul 12  I thank Christ Jesus our Lord, who has given me strength,  that he considered me trustworthy, appointing me to his service.   13  Even though I was once a blasphemer and a persecutor  and a violent man, I was shown mercy  because I acted in ignorance and unbelief.   14  The grace of our Lord was poured out on me abundantly,  along with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus. 15  Here is a trustworthy saying  that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners —of whom I am the worst.   16  But for that very reason I was shown mercy  so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience  as an example for those who would believe  in him and receive eternal life.   17  Now to the King  eternal, immortal,  invisible,  the only God, ...