Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

I have been writing a lot lately which is good because it keeps people that are reading interested and I've just got back from a mission trip where I had a lot of time to think about things so there will be a lot on here in the next few weeks since I have the time now. Like I said before God is opening my eyes more and more these days. I have a little short "poem" that I jotted down while in Guatemala and just wanted to share it on here. It is: Guatemala. I can't wrap my mind around it. I can't understand it. It's has God's beauty all around it but yet the people are in such poverty. They are in poverty but yet they have the want to know God and the happiness that can't be described when they do have Him. The thought of being there seems so far away but yet so close. It's so far away because I keep giving excuses but yet so close to my heart. It feels like home to me.

Doing a little bit of research on Guatemala and here is what I found- -More then 370,000 orphans -5,000 homeless children on the streets in Guatemala City because of abandonment and poverty -Chroic malnutrition rate for children under 5 is 50%-4th highest in the world and highest in the region -53% of population lives in poverty-13% live in extreme poverty -Illiteracy rates in indigenous women reach almost 60% -Chroic malnutrition in indigenous areas can reach 70% :Numbers from the website: www.orphansheart.org

Why is it that I can only write what I truly feel and not share it with the people I trust around me? The trip to Guatemala was a life changing one for me and like always I want to go back that hasn't changed. Don't know when but I want to. We had 3 children get saved and 2 of them were in my group and I got to help one of them. It was neat to see the 2 because I saw the process before and after. I had like an elementary age or early middle aged group which was way out of my comfort zone but it was fun and something new. One was a boy and the other a girl. The boy, before he was saved, was sitting at a table alone by himself coloring and I went over to sit by him. I didn't say much because asking him didn't cross my mind but another leader did and after the lesson was over he kept following that other leader. It was just neat to see that other leader stright out ask him "do you know Jesus?" That was a neat expereince for me. She wasn't scared or anything b...

Well, after today I feel like I've been on a real mission trip. Everything that could go wrong has and I had to keep a positive side to it. I got to the airport in AR way to early because I read the email wrong. We flew to Dallas and spent the rest of the day and night there. We had a 4 hour delay at first which was normal and I'm use to that. Then our airplane had problems with its AC like some of the wires were not together so we had to stay over night in a hotel at the airport. We got another flight for Sunday that leaves at 7 in the morning. We were all loaded on the plane and on the track away from the gate. We had to go back to the gate and unload. We were all sweaty after we got off the plane that is how bad it didn't work. We spent all day in 2 different airports. On the upside, though, the hotel we stayed at was worth a $855 per room but we got it free of course. God was teaching me a lot of patience because I wanted to be with the children so bad. I had to keep re...

I thought I would write right before I leave to show how early I have to leave and go to the airport. It is close to 5:00 on Saturday while I'm writing this. I got up about 4:00. I need to get to the airport about 2 hours early an international flight so I will leave my apartment about 5:30. The two things I'm taking with me this year that I got last year during and after this trip are the title of this blog "God Loves Me, He Cares for Me, and He is Calling Me" and "Will I be a person who blesses or hurts others during this trip?" Hopefully, I will be a person that blesses the children. :) Some wise advice from some amazing friends of mine and sad they're not coming this year but they had other things to attend to. I'm also listening to this song that I got from a friend last year to prepare me for this year. Here is the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1y4NlnTtejI&feature=youtu.be. It talks about how I want my life to be like Perfume to Jes...

My last post didn't say much even though there is a lot going on in my mind and around me right now to prepare for the trip. My sister gave me the idea of turning my blog into a mission blog for a week or so because she thinks it would be interesting to see what goes into getting ready for the trip in every way whether spiritually, emtionally, and what to pack. I’ve always wanted to do a mission blog and this could be a start of one and see how many responses I get to it. Start with a week and then if in the future I get to go for the summer or 6 months, I’ll know how to keep a blog and what to say in it. It is crazy to think that I could actually do one if I wanted to do because I know things that other people don’t. She opened up my eyes to seeing that. It’s strange to think that even. I take things for granted a lot when really people don’t know and would love to know. This is my 2nd year back to Guatemala so I have a lot of different plans to do with the children down there...

I'm leaving for Guatemala this Saturday so not much to say right now. I can promise when I get back there will be stories to tell, verses/explainations, and ideas to write out so please keep up after the 22nd (that's when I get back). If you think about it, please pray for the children at the orphanage that their hearts will be open and for the group that I am going with that we can share the Love of God and His Word. I can already feel that God is going to to do amazing things through the children and the whole group.  This is just an update on what I am doing since it has been awhile. Sorry not so interesting but it will be once I get back. God has put a lot on my mind this past year to really think about and sort out in the mountains of Guatemala, which is the perfect place. :) I have a feeling that He is really going to pull me apart this trip. He is going to show me what the orphanage is really like with my babies and elementary age children. Can't wait! but still kind...

A child’s life can be hard at Times. You see a child and Ask, “What is wrong with them?” Nothing is wrong, they just Haven’t had someone to truly Love on them, show them what That word means, or even just Have some one on one time with Them. At first the child might hit you, pull Your hair, pinch you, or try to push You away by not letting you in but You have to stay strong if you want To make a difference in their life. You have to ask questions about that Child so she can let you in and trust you Because that is the only way that she Will see people care. You can’t Give up on a child. It is so beautiful when you can see the Light come on in a child’s eye. When They think or know, “Someone really Does love and care for me like I really   Am. I can trust that person with my Words.” Then that child will talk to You and will be hook to your side Til they leave. It is like you are God To them.   That child sees God thr...

I just got done with my first 3 months with the children at my job. WAIT! I JUST SENT MY CHILDREN FROM MY MINISTRY OFF WITH MORE WISDOM OF WHAT IS OUT THERE THAT THEY CAN DO AND HAVE A BETTER LIFE! These past 3 months of changed my life, if not more, at least as much as the children I took care of.  I learned about what is really out there and more of what is around me. I'm not just thinking of myself anymore. I'm learning new ways to take care of the children depending of what they had to deal with before coming in. I'm working with all type of children. I'm becoming more creative as the days go on. It's not really at all about me though it is about the children and what they have learned and how they have changed. It is neat to see that within 3 months a child really can change if you will care for them and let them know that you do. Just knowing every little thing you do can change the child for the good or bad so you have to be on your feet and know what you are...