Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

That Little Brown Bible Staying up late searching the  computer knowing there is a reason why I'm up this late. Right before I  go to bed, I see the reason. The reason is that someone needed someone to talk to. I stayed up and made plans. Going to  bed because I have to get up in 7 hours  and go to breakfast. Something I do  in a great while if ever. Yet I was needed there and that was the plan. Or at least  I hoped it was. Too sleepy to stay up  and see.  Got up and went to breakfast that next morning. I was the 1st on there. Hoping that the message was got and I wouldn't be sitting there alone. I got my breakfast and started to eat it. Next thing I know I  wasn't alone. After a few minutes, I heard  a "good morning" and saw a smile in front  and across from me. Asking if this  sit was taken. I said, "no." We didn't  talk much, which now I regret a little  bit but I noticed something very...

Colossians 2:6-7   New International Version (NIV) Spiritual Fullness in Christ 6  So then, just as you received in Jesus Christ as Lord,  continue to live your lives in him,   7  rooted  and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught,  and overflowing with thankfulness.         Since I didn't have my internet for awhile and had a women's conference this past weekend, my first one forever, if not in awhile, I've been thinking about Grace. While I was praying, last week, something came over me. "To have Grace is one way to be beautifully rooted in Christ." This thought came to me too because I was thinking about people that I needed to show Grace to. I want them to see that I am beautifully rooted in Christ.            I want a sign painted for me to hang in my apartment with those words on it. But back to the whole Grace thing. "Beautifully rooted in Grace" wo...

           Over the weekend and a couple of days before then my Internet was off and on. It wasn't working well and then yesterday it totally stopped until it was time for bed. A computer guy came and fixed it today for me. I had mixed feelings about letting him fix it.I even thought "let's wait another week since I am busy this week and won't be home this weekend to mess with it".            The first couple of days I don't know if I was mad at the computer people or myself. I had to call the computer company 4 times until I could get someone to come to my place. My moden was old and that was the problem. Was I mad at myself because I have come so dependent of a machine? I needed a weekend where I couldn't get on at all. God knew it for some reason. I had been trying to cash a check from work for 3 days and couldn't because it was down. I finally get Wi Fi on my phone to where I could cash it in and that was a McDonald's park...

        I am reading this book and there is a chapter in there that talks about Faith and it moving the mountains in our lives. The mountains are things, bad things, that keep us from moving towards and with God. They are things that block our Faith in Him and what He is doing in our lives or can do in it. I made a list of my mountains so I could pray for them to be removed every once in awhile. I think it is good to have that list so you can also be aware of them and look back when you are wondering why do I feel this way or what happened. Here is my list that I have started so far: -Loneliness -Regret -Guilt -Self/Pride -Stubbornness -Hopelessness -Anxiety -Self-doubt -Being overwhelmed/busy -Mistrust -Fear of failure -Other people -Being in debt          -I know this one seems like a little one but when you live by yourself it is a big one at times. You get so worried because you can't pay it off right away and it just kee...

        Believing a lie is probably the biggest problem is this world today. As humans, we let things get to us that really shouldn't get to us. We call those things lies. We believe because they are told to us over and over again whether through TV, magazines, or other people. The worst time that a lie or few lies can come to you is when you are all by yourself. That is when the devil gets you at your best and at least to him anyways. I am a person that believes those lies and when you do they can really mess you up as a person. If you believe too many at the same time you can have high anxiety at times. I know my anxiety come from believing lies and trying too hard to not make them or make them happen depending on what the lies was.         There is a big lie that I am believing and that lie is: "I am the one messing everything up in a relationship. If only I did this or that things would be okay. It is all my fault."  I am sick of thinkin...

          It is unusual for me to start a month with a poem, espically when I just wrote one not too long ago, but I felt that it was needed for this topic. I felt like I can express myself better in a poem form then a typical blog form. Here is the poem: What If It's Me What if it's me? What if All the waiting that I am Doing is because of myself? What if it's been me all along And I am just not realizing that? All of these what if questions in My head. What if it's me that isn't ready To commit? Not ready for that Kind and that long. Don't know If I could live with someone for The rest of my life. What if it's me that doesn't Understand what a marriage Really means? Marriage is suppose to be all about finding that one special person right? The only one that completes you. It is suppose to be easy and happy all the time. We can't mess up in it because if we do, then we have no idea what it is about....