Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

      "We Love because He (God) first Loved us". "Children need love, especially when they do not deserve it."             I wasn't going to start this entry with a verse from the Bible but I thought it went right along with it. That is what True, Unconditional Love is. It it giving up your life for someone else. It is sticking by them through the hardest times. It is trying to find a way through for them so you both can be happy and stop worrying for each other. It is supporting someone else even if you have to give up your own dream. We usually don't pay attention to unconditional love in everyday life but God has been pointing that out to be lately and it has made every day great and easy for me in ways but then some ways not. We tend to go about our days just doing what is right and no more and sometimes those little things might be love but we don't notice until the person or thing we love is gone. I have a couple of examples in my lif...

         Love is most important that is why it is first. We have to love first. Without love,  nothing else can happen. It reaches to the lowest and highest places. It could reach as high as Heaven. Heaven has no limits just like unfailing love should have no limits.           Faith is the 2nd important  thing. When you have love then you can have faith. Faith is believing in someone or something enough to encourage on in their pursuit of life. But it can't go as long as love. Faith can only reach the clouds. Faith has a limit because a person can only believe so much.             Glory is the 3rd important thing. When you have love and faith, then you are able to show glory to God. He has given you that love and faith to show Him to other people. His Glory has no limits either. It may shine all over the Earth so everyone will know Him. ...

       "Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed," says the Lord, who had compassion on you. "-Isaiah 54:10          How great a promise that is to those who believe in God! No matter what happens, God will be right that by us. He will give us His Peace to win His people over. We might fight it a lot because we might not know what His peace is at first or who we need to tell the good news to. Having His peace in our lives is one of the greatest childlike delights that we often overlook.          This verse was in my yesterday's devo about how we should have childlike delights in God and follow Him. I agree. If we look at everything like a child does then we would have a worry free life. Peace would be around us all the time. Just think of how children play around with each othe...

         Now I know most of you are thinking has she gone crazy because of the title. I won't answer that. You can after you read this entry. It is a different way to look at it but for some of might be the perfect picture.         God is a Foster parent before He is the Father of our personal life. Now don't get me wrong, the Bible does say He is The Father and there is no way I'm disagreeing with that. If you look at your life through steps with Him this could be a step. The Bible also says that we are adopted into the Family of God as one of God's children. I am along with you His Child.         Do you know that moment where things are iffy before giving your life over to him? Before you say, "OK, God I'm yours".  Those times you have questions about who He is and who you are in Him. Doesn't a child have those same questions about their foster parents? We have no idea ...

       I'm outside lying on the ground in a park with the sun shining through the trees.  I have my own spot of trees and grass around me. I've been writing in my notebook and on here. Sun is trying to poke through the trees.         As I lay under the trees, I feel like I'm being crowned with the Appearance of God. Just think as the sunlight coming down on me in the shade. I feel like I'm getting some of God's Light so I can show other people Him. It might seem like a light picture but it's not something to take lightly in life.         When you are crowned with the Appearance of God in life, you have one, big purpose that God gave you and that I'd go make followers for Me. He has called us to be appearance of Him everyday, everywhere, home and work. For me I take it seriously at my job because I the children need God's Love and Face. I know to some of them I must be God, which is...

       This entry will be short but full of a miracle. One God moment changed my day yesterday and it was during evening snack time at work.         There is this little boy at work that is a year developmentally behind so he has a hard time doing things but we are making a difference and you could tell yesterday. He did want snack so instead of throwing it on the floor like he usually does, he got up and threw it away in the trash without being told. Then he handed the bowl to me.            While he handed me the bowl,  he said, "All Done" clearly as day. That is a big step for this little guy because usually he just jabbers like a 2 year old. This is proof that having a routine for children work especially if they are developmentally behind. It's my first time really seeing it work and why. I've always heard it worked better and easier but this time I saw it with ...

        Once again, I'm writing on phone so this is more for memory. I hate it that I have to write on here through because I have so much to write but I'm just doing the summary of my thoughts. I don't write as often as I should because it takes forever.          Anyways, I have been thinking a lot about creativity and God because one of my morning devos was about that. If we really think about it we are more creative then anyone thinks. It might be at different things in different ways but we are made in the image of God.          GOD IS THE CREATOR OF THE WORLD!          What my devo was talking about through was finding creative ways to be with Him instead of the old routine. Change it up a bit because that is one way you'll get closer to the Creator. It's good to pray about the same things over and over but it could get to the...

      This is a letter I got in college at one of our retreats and it has been on my fridge ever since. It does help me when I am down. I look at it when I feel like I'm nothing and it lifts me back up and challenges me to keep going. I will make a difference somewhere.  Here it is:         (Put your name here),                  You are a woman bearer of My image,  Crown of my Creation, I chose you  before time and space, you wholly and dearly loved! I have sought after and pursued you your entire life and it is my great desire to romance and fulfill your deepest longings and most present needs I made you beautiful because I Am beautiful! Luke Me, your beauty is both powerful and good but with it,  you may choose to bring life or death I made you to bring LIFE! I have enabled you to be both strong and tender your very presence...

        I was blessed to celebrate another little boy's birthday yesterday at work. It was funny because he was asking us for certain presents that he wanted for his birthday. One thing he wanted was a jeep he could drive and he wanted his party to be themed ninjas. It was so amazing because it was his 5th birthday party and he was so excited.           It was a blessing because this boy was at my place of work about 6 months ago. I got to celebrate one of his important birthdays with him and the place where I worked made a dream come true. Never thought I would have celebrated it with him. Thought he would have a family and hoping that he would. It is sad for him but we made it exciting and it was a good reminder for us, workers, too. So it was a win-win situation. If you really want to see a "dream" birthday come true. This one was it.           We had cupcak...

         I'm outside writing at a park on this beautiful May day. It is chilly but the sun is shining and the birds are tweeting but yet my heart is clinging onto something.          My heart is clinging to dream or a desire that I have and want it to come true. I know it's clinging because I've been looking up Bible verses for it, looking for activities to do,  looking at ways to disapline, looking at places to do it, and I'm in a spot right now sort of where I'm in charge or helping another person to be in charge.            My heart is clinging to wanting to be a single house mom with just girls in the house. The girls would be preschool age (4) to elementary aged (maybe 10). Iffy on that still because I can handle the preschool things but don't know about the elementary school things. I know of a place in my own backyard that building 5 more houses...

       You hear the saying, "actions speak louder then words." With some people, that's more true then with others. They can try and cover up their actions with words and vice via but it's hard. With those kinds of people, they are usually the sky type or have no idea what to do in a given situation. They might only do or say something when no one else is around and they might not notice that they are doing it. They just might feel comfortable that way. A way they try to fit in sometimes or hold a conversation is when they are being funny or smartalike.          The actions I'm talking about is the kind that people do when no one is around or when a person doesn't want to get too close to you. They whether be behind the scenes then in the spotlight. They would whether wave or give high fives then to talk about things. They have more of a quiet spirit within them. That is great because then you can really tell what bo...

         This past week (last Friday to be exact) I never saw the story of the lost son from the Bible come more to life than that day. It was all prefect timing on God's part. It was time for one of my little boys to leave that day and I was heartbroken.  I thought it was going to be hard and it was but it would have been worse if 2 of my little girls didn't come back. The girls came in just as the little boy was getting ready to leave.           It was a God moment when I first saw the 2 girls again. The oldest girl just ran to me while I was on my knees with my arms open wide. I was happy to see them again. It was a good feeling that she ran to me because that meant she remembered me. It gave me a sense of renewed hope again. I was so focused and busy with those two girls that I didn't even get to say good bye to my little boy. Sad but probably for the better.      ...

        "You can take the girl out of the country but you can't take the country out of the girl."           That's my saying too. I never thought it was until this week when I noticed how much the farm meant to me. I'm pure country. There is a country song that says, " From LA to New York City, she goes around the world." That is so true for me. In the states, I've been from Montana to Washington DC. The outside of the state I've been from Mexico to London, England. It's neat to go to those places and get the experiences but never in my life would I love in those cities. Now Montana out. In the country is another story but still not in a big city like Bozeman,  MT. There is no place I would rather be then in the country. I always will come back to the country. Cities drive me nuts.            I like the quietness and beauty of the country. I like the ...

          I'm outside on this windy day on my phone because I still have no computer. If it doesn't make sense I'm sorry but I had to get some of it out. In honor of Mother's day, I'm going to write an entry about moms.  Now most of you might be thinking what do you know about being a mom. I don't know everything but I know some especially when they aren't your own children.             I have some verses that you can look up.  Sorry I can't write them out for you all. They are: biologically-Gen. 9:7, adoptively psalm 82:3, and spiritually Matthew 28:19. I feel like I have been a mom since the age of 23. How? you might ask. I started my journey as a spiritual mom for children in TX over a spring break in college to last summer in Guatemala. Now I'm doing it adoptively through my job.            Some might say "still you have no idea...

       This will be the last long one that I will write in awhile because my computer crashed. I can write on my phone but those enteries will be short. In Sunday school, we talked about running to God and during church we talked about what contentment really means and what we, as God's people, should do. We read 1 Timothy chapter 6 verses 1-21.        Contentment could also mean "warning off" looking/pushing away things because we are fine where we are. Contentment does not mean "happiness". We might not like where we are but we can live with it by God helping us through it. He has a plan for everything that we go through. We should go for godliness, faith, love, patience, righteousness, and gentleness. Usually, that is what God is trying to grow and teach us when we are going through something hard or even something easy. We would push away things because it is not love or we can't have patience with it. It could not be gentle or godliness. ...

     The children will run to me when they don't know the person very well. That feeling is a good feeling. I know that I got their trust yet they will listen to be at the same time. It has been fun having a group of 4 by myself at work. It was hard work but know I can see that hard work,  warning their trust,  is paying off in some ways.        They know I love them and want the best for them. I've seen that with this group of children during these past few weeks. I am their comfort. What I say goes most of the time. I'm going to miss that but it's neat to see that I can only build that trust in 3 months or less with all the hard things. It sure wasn't easy at all! :) It is the constant being there for them. Someone they know that won't go away.           They might not remember what was said but at least I was there for them and it showed through my actions. Maybe the mom thing ...

     " I've let my brain run my life when really it should have been my heart running it because I always come back to the heart felt feelings for people and things. God lives in our hearts not our mind."-Saying By Me      This is something that I have been thinking about but it is not a every time thing because, as humans, we are all broken no matter what we follow or how we follow it. We can only look to and follow God and He can use either one, the heart or the mind.       We should be still and take the time to get to know God and trust Him on the path He is taking us on. At the same time, we should be keeping busy for Him so the devil does not get us. Even though, our good deeds might not be know until later in life or after this life, it is good to follow what God wants us to do for Him even if it seems like the little things. Heart over Mind seems like a hard balance and that is where boundaries are good for us as...