Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

       I will admit right off the bat that I was going to do an entery on Thanksgiving but I can't help it but it is a different kind of thanks espically after what I heard today. Yes, my title is from the idea from the book "Kisses From Kate" but I need something better that starts with a "T". I would usually be upset because I didn't get to spend time with family the morning of Thanksgiving this year but I'm not. I got to make some Turkey cookie treats and think about what I am most thankful for and that got me ready for my day.          I have a 2nd family and that 2nd family are my children at work and there was no place I would rather be today then there. How many people can say that about their job? I was thinking here are all these statuses that talks about family and I don't get to spend it with mine but I did in a way. My 2nd family. The family I spend 40 hours a week with. When you work just for the extra pay for the holiday or whe...

      This might be a short entery but I just wanted to share something that has happened this week and that I got to be apart of even though everything was crazy afterwards. I got to be apart of one of my little boy's birthday party and it is the little boy that I gave the snow boots to. I usually would come in to a party in the middle of it or at the end of one but this time I got to set up for it and everything. It was neat to see the smile (aka big grin) on his face when he saw his cupcake but more when he opened his presents. Everything was spiderman. The tablecloth, the napkins, and well the plates were blue to match everything and his favorite color was blue.          His sister got to come down and celbrate with him and got to play with him for a little bit so he really enjoyed that. It was so cute because he kept telling everyone he saw it's my birthday, we're going to have a birthday party for my birthday. There are no words t...

"Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord."-Psalm 24:17         I read this verse yesterday in one of those email devos. that I get everyday and it just hit me right on the spot. I think this is my new favorite verse for right now in this time in my life. There were two words that hit me hard at they were "Be Strong".  As women or even girls, we think that we can't be strong and if we are that is a bad thing. To me, God is saying in this verse, "Wait for me and while you do that be strong and take heart and wait." God gave us three commands in this verse and they are very important ones.          First command is to "wait for the Lord". We need to wait on Him before we move ahead in what we think are the plans for us. We might be wrong and what to go ahead because we what something now and God isn't giving it to us. Wait and see that the Lord is good. He will make things happen in His Perfect Timing. ...

        I had a day of miracles this past Thursday. I got up at 6:30 and went to work at 7 and stayed there until 10 at night. It was a full day but it was a day of miracles and God knew I needed each and every one of them. I also learned a lot that day through everything that I did. I just became more mature and saw a side of my job that I have never seen before and I guess a side of me that I have never seen before because I was amazed at half of the thing.         It started out by taking a middle schooler and a teenagers to some appointments that they had. It was strange but I could relate to both of the appointments because I had the same things done to me like they were getting done without knowing what I would be doing. It is like God put me together with those two and knew exectly what they needed. One appointment was getting teeth checked on for braces and see if the child could get braces even and if not what needed to be done so t...

Inspired by: A Teenage Girl that I talked to this week.       I've been thinking a lot about my dreams again and who I truly am and who I want to know the real me. Sometimes we have to be careful to who we tell our secrets to. This blog is not a good example but it is helping me get my thoughts out. I have a farm that I grew up on my first 4 years of life so I call my home and it is really my 2nd home. No one really knows all the story behind it or why I went there and it is still a secret and will be because that story is something meaningful to me and I want to share it with people who I know will stick around. I also got to thinking though one of the adults is not doing too well. He is getting sick and has been getting worse the last 2 times I have been down there over 6 months. I always like going back because I hear stories of my life as a child and it just feels like home and peaceful. She was the one that taught me how to sew, some manners, starting me liking bea...

       It all started last Friday. It kind of started before then because the girls had dressy, cowgirl sort of boots and the boys didn't because we didn't have any for the boys. This little boy saw the boots that the girls had so he wanted some just like theirs. Well, we went to look for some but couldn't find anything but some work boots. This little boy was not happy with his work boots because he wanted snow boots. It took us a half a hour and almost 3 people get him to put them on Friday so he could go outside and play. I sat down with him and started talking to him about what was wrong and if I could help. He said he didn't like his boots because he wanted snow boots.          I had this feeling in me like I did with my little girl and her Bible. That feeling of he just wanted something really bad that he never had how much is it to us to buy a pair of boots if he wanted them. You just need to talk to and find out what they want and if...

       Something just come to my mind when I was in my small church group last night. We were talking about prayer and being delivery agents for God and it has really made me think. I think what made me think was we can pray wherever we are to be a delivery agent just by a short, simple prayer and be willing for God to use us in the way He has Planned for us. He will bring the people to match us and that needs what we are learning and what He is teaching us too. Then I got to thinking about how I live my life and the kind of life I like compared to my prayer life. I live a simple life yet I have long and confusing prayers.          By living the simple life I mean I don't need to stay up to date with clothes or anything like that. I would love to live the simple, country life when I get married or someday by myself. I don't mind a small house/apartment. I don't need anything big or fancy. I would rather give my money to help people that need...

      "The end of the world is coming soon. Therefore, be earnest and disciplined in your prayers. Most important of all, continue to show deep love for each other, for love covers a multitude of sins. Cheerfully share your home with those who need a meal or a place to stay. God has given gifts to each of you from his great variety of spiritual gifts. Manage them well so that God's generosity can flow through you. Are you called to be a speaker? Then speak as though God is speaking through you. Are you called to help others? Do it with all the strength and energy that God supplies. Then God will be given glory in everything through Jesus Christ. All glory and power belong to him forever and ever. Amen."-1 Peter 4:7-11          These verses were the verses that the sermon tonight at my church were based off of and I want to put them on here because I want to share part of the sermon too. It's funny sometimes how we don't see what we are doin...

         I saw this on a friend's Facebook page and thought it was so true espically for the job that I am in. I love the way it makes you look at attachment and the prayer at the end. I saw it when the stubborn little girl was at my job. It's crazy to even think that you are giving away a piece of your heart to a child just like you would in any other relationship. I thought at first so is it like loving your boyfriend or husband but it is a different kind of love. It is true because if the child knows that there are people out there who care enough to get attached to them and can and then they might hopefully try harder to be good for the people they go to.              "People often ask how do you deal with loving a kid that might not stay with you? How do you protect your heart? How do you not get attached? Trainers warn “don’t get attached too soon, you never know what is going to happen.” So what do you do if you start ...

      I've been thinking about time a lot this past week and it just hit me yesterday in a whole new way. Time really does matter epsically when you are talking about sharing the Lord with someone.  I'm apart of a lot of different groups/friends that have different things going on in their lives and I got to thinking about time. Lately, I have just been taking the time just to sit and relax whether it is for reading, writing, or even just talking to friends. We need to make time for that in today's world. Sad but true. We need to sit out that one or two volleyball games and just go sit the whole time and let people know you are there to talk and catch up or just to sit with them if need be. I've enjoyed that a lot lately.        I really got to thinking though how much can a half a hour make to having 3 months and just 3 months with some people and it depends on the people. Half a hour for adults and 3 months for children. The time differenc...

     There is a question that has been weighing on my mind for the past couple of weeks now about just life and how I am doing. That question is: Am I doing what God wants me to do or what I want to do? A friend said, "You have to pray and figure out if it is something you want or God wants. That is the hardest part of this whole thing is putting your thoughts and feelings aside and only hearing God." My friend said this while I was in college because of a decision I felt like I needed to make and I asked that friend. It was a small decision now that I look back and read what I wrote and what my friend wrote back.       When I got this answer I was in college thinking about not be a part of a leadership of a club anymore and now I look back and think how little that decision was compare to my life ahead of me. Never thought I would look back on it, 3 years down the road, and it would explain my life perfectly but it does right now. That is how I feel ...

       I thought since it is the beginning of the Holiday season and many of us are starting in on those family traditions, I would talk about some of mine. Not just the holiday ones, I'm not going to talk about them at all but the every day ones. The ones you had when you were a little child and stopped doing now that you are an adult because you think there is no way you can carry on those traditions or still do them yourselves.        I have a friend that is so big on traditions espically the ones their family passes down but my friend is so close to the family so it is understandable. I see through my friend that traditions aren't just the fun holiday ones that we have with family which that might be a big part they are also the little things we do with them to have fun. As I look back on my life as a child, I did things everyday that I wouldn't mind passing down to my children someday. I'm being transparent here kind of if you can't tell alr...

       Sorry that I'm just now posting another entery it has been about a week again since I last wrote. A lot has been going on this past week in every way. I've had a lot on my mind that I've wanted to write but yet I have to go here and there and everywhere this week for different things. It has been busy at work too being short staffed for a few days and then having some children leave some knowing and some not knowing.         My "sweet" little girl did leave yesterday and I was strong during the good byes but that strength came from God for sure because she said, "I will miss you" and started to cry. I said, "me too. Now, let's go" because I knew if I kept letting her hug me it would have been bad for everyone espically the two of us. I was about to cry I'll be honest. The past week though oddly enough before she left I got to see that she is a lot like me like my twin but at a young age. I'm stubborn for those of who you kno...

     I've been studying a lot about when Jesus prays in the Garden of Gethsemane (Matthew 26:36-46) and it is an eye opener compared to everything I have been thinking. God is taking my life and turning it for Him. I will admit I have tried to live for the world but that isn't working out so well. I've tried to get people on my side, to do my dream, to understand what I've seen but it hasn't been working out.       God is saying, "Stop! and let me do the work! Can't you see what I have done with you and the people around you. Let me get your life in that way."  He has showed me one stop to getting to my dream or the big thing in my life that He wants me to do through this story and a friend's dream. I won't talk about my friend's dream on here because this entery should be more of a devo. type one. I got this idea from this story at a church I went to but I'm expanding on it and putting it to work in my life.        Jesus too...

      Here is the entery that I have promised in my last two enteries about staying where I am for now. Staying in AR was never in my dreams. I will admit when I was in high school even in college until my Sr. year. I thought AR never. I'll never live in that state or the city where Wal-Mart is based. With all the rumors that go around about AR. :) That hasn't been my experience at all. I love the state and might settle here. I mean I am in my 3rd year living in AR and I never thought I would last that long. Let's see if I can do 5 years. I was at my parents' home this past weekend and thinking about things and looking up different church camps that I could do this summer instead of going on a mission trip and my FAVORITE TV show got me thinking and has been encouraging me a lot. My job also going me thinking "I'm needed here."          The things I have wrote about before this entery with my children really has gotten to me. I don't know if...

      God showed me another reason to stay here in the lovely state of AR with all of its lovely people. :) This week has been hard on me as well as my little girl. I feel like I'm writing form a mission field which I sort of am but it is here in our own state. She has been fighting me every night trying to get her own way but I'm not letting it get to me. I know why she is trying to because I will rocked the other girls plus her and she wants all of my attention but can you blame her espically when she is leaving next week sometime but she doesn't know that. These children seem to know it in their body and show it through action but not words.         I caught her two times this week just looking up at the ciling and holding me close like giving me a tight hug and sitting on my lap a lot. One night this week it was looking up at the ciling a few times and then giving me a tight hug like she never wants to let go. Then last night it was whil...