Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

            Living in two worlds in one week is crazy. I thought I would take a break from my anxiety meds since I wasn't really stress this week but I was wrong. I cried for the first time last night in a long time. It is like I am living in two worlds. I wish I could just live in one. I wish I could be normal and not get so worked up about things even for a week would be nice. I also noticed that the past two nights I couldn't sleep because my mind wouldn't turn off.                 That's when I started thinking about things happening I guess and I just started to cry. Yes, its good to cry every once in awhile especially when meds are holding you back but it is still strange. You cry and you don't know why. You are all worked up and you don't know why. I guess what's going on in today's world is really upsetting. Maybe I am happy that I found a way to work through this tough time in history. Yes, I am hearing ...

Summary of my February  Word: Endearment  How many times did I feel: Happy: 8 times Stress: 6 times  Sad: 3 times  Sleepy: 4 times Loved: 1 time Calm: 12 times How many times did I: Go to bed at 11:00: 13 times Talk a walk: 0 times Said my prayers: 7 times Wrote in my journal: 17 times  What brought me warmth, love, or joy: -God created me for me -Family talking about the Chiefs -my boyfriend -my cat Jake -ice day on my 1st work anniversary  Self-Care Bingo Exercise: -Spent time with family -made a cup of tea -took 5 deep breath -spent time outside -started a new TV show -listened to music -called up an old friend -light candles -made soup -gave myself a mani What events happened and when: -on the 10th- was an ice day and stayed home from work -on the 11th: was an ice day and home from work -on the 12th: snowed all day. Went to pick up a few things and selves were empty -on the 14th-snow all day -on the 15th: 4 inches of snow, PD day at home, lights went ou...