Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

          I've been thinking a lot about my future and all but again when don't I? I know God has shown me a clear path and a for sure path until I'm 30 at the least. I do want to go back to Guatemala and always have since last summer. I have been talking to God about it off and on since then. The things that was holding me back was of course the country and how the people were once you get outside of the shelter or city and other was how could I raise money for long term.            I'm a person who love to writes poems and "devos." just in case you couldn't tell on here. That is why I started this to share my thoughts like that but then I thought this week way not a real book. I have enough poems to do a least one. I've been talking to an author friend and she says to keep this up for 6 months to a year to get an audience started and then we'll see what is next. She also says it takes 2 years to get a book published at the l...

        Not what went through my head when I was talking to my kiddos at work tonight but something near that did go through my head. We were are sitting down watching a movie before bed and the boy that has a lot of disbabilites out of them all said something that shocked me. One child asked me, "Who was that guy on the movie?" We were watching Mulan 2 and the king came out. I said, "He is sort of the king."          Then the little boy said, "He is up there" and I was like, "You mean on the TV?" and he was like, "No, God is up there!" and it seems like this boy said it randomly out of nowhere. Then that got one of the little girls talking about how big God really is. She said, "God is bigger then me." I responded back, "He is even bigger then me" and that seemed to surpise her and she couldn't get it. It was just neat trying to see someone get it and a little child at that but couldn't. It is just a remind...

If any of my friends read this you know what I'm talking about and God just made it clearer to me that I should have that country on my heart and be there long term but don't know when yet. That I truly believe. I just read on a blog that is written by people I know at an orphanage there that the president as declare God the country's Lord at the 1st national prayer meeting.             Along with this news, " Molina also spoke about his reliance on God as his strength and noted that violence is one of Guat emala's growing issues as crime continues to increase due to extreme poverty, a legacy of societal violence, and a weak law enforcement and judicial system. "In the morning, it's hard see the news of how many Guatemalans died the day before because of violence," said Molina. "In those moments what gives me strength is knowing that I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me." Guatemalan congressman Manuel Barquín, who attended ...

God’s Universe Let me draw for you a picture Of how big the universe really is. Then that will show you God’s   Love for us and what He is about to do through us. Our earth is like a spot in the distance That you can barely see it. On top of That is our solar system and then The Milky Way galaxy. It just keeps Getting bigger and we just keep Getting smaller. If we ever get to see out of the galaxy, We would see a little dot but yet there Are so many more galaxies out there. Why would He care about one small Planet? We are grass that dies away. We are Not here for long. Even the flowers, The glory, we have made will die Away but the Words of God stands Forever. The flowers are much bigger And beautiful then the grass. Whatever We do for His glory is big but it will Never be as big as Him. As people, we are nothing but grasshoppers Or a drop of water in a bucket when it Comes to God, Yet He loves and cares for Us. ...

I'm going to try and write this one out of my mind right now because it needs to be written on here I think. Usually I write down my devos. first because it is just faster if I copy them off the paper but this one needs to be now. Hopefully, it will make sense. God has been putting on my mind a lot about how to live life for Him. Things like not to conform to this world and spend time with Him and make him the center of your life. It kind of hit me upside the head when God brought this theme into my mind this week and last night at church He seemed to be pushing it with the message my pastor gave about devotion. It hit me in a missions way too for those of you who really know me personally that is a big deal. How many times have we heard "Death brings Life" espically in the church? That is what most if not all the new testament is about too. It is about Christ dying on the cross for us. To start out because I don't know how many people are reading this that are or are...

"Is anything too hard for the Lord?"-Gen. 18:14 "And God will generously provide all you need. Then you will always have everything you need and plenty left over to share with others."-2 Cor. 9:8 These 2 verses are great when you think you are going through something hard. They are great reminders for us to ask. Is anything too hard for the Lord? Then in a way of many He gives us an answer, " I will give you want you need plus more." Isn't that a wonderful promise to remember? He will give is what we need (strength, joy, comfort, rest) and more to pass it on to others. That goes for the lessons we learn through life and the things we can touch too. He teaches us things so we can share our stories with others and it might help them get through something too. We shouldn't be quiet about what we are learning or wanting to keep things like money and clothes. We shouldn't even worry because nothing is too hard for our God to give and/or provide ...

Hey- Sorry it has been a long time since I have wrote anything on here and this won't be anything interesting. I just want my readers to know that I'm still trying to keep this up and that God is teaching me a lot this week that I would love to write when I get the time. I just haven't been home any mornings and work has kept me busy but I like it. God has been given me verses to learn by this week and thoughts. If anything this week was eye opening and life changing for me. It's kind of fun when you just focus on you and God for a little while which is feeling like I have been doing these past few weeks. It is even fun when you have a little prayer garden of your own where you can go spend time with God, which I found this week and have spent time there with God when I can. The next few enteries will be about health and mind. God has also shown me why He has done the things He has and why I'm doing the things I have done and how to stop them or that I want to stop...

"When they had finished eating Jesus said to Simon Peter, "Simon, son of John, do you love me more than these?" "Yes, Lord," he said, "you know I love you." Jesus said, "Feed my lambs." Again Jesus said, "Simon, son of John, do you love me?" He answered, "Yes, Lord, you know that I love you." Jesus said, "Take care of my sheep." The 3rd time he said to him," Simon, son of John, do you love me?" Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him a 3rd time, " Do you love me?" He said, "Lord, you know all things; you know I love you." Jesus said, "Feed my sheep." -John 21:15-17 Wow! I have been challenged by those verses these past couple of days by a little girl at work. Yesterday, randomly, she asked me if I loved her. Strangely, I have to stop and think about it but that was because she has a speech problem. Today was busy and I was in a hurry and talked to her in a firm way and I ...

Sorry it has just been poems lately. Hopefully, I can get back to writing more recently about my life. Things have just been busy, which is good. Things are going the way God wants them to I feel like now or trying to get that way. I might update you later if I can without telling you everything that is going on in my life but for now and to keep up with my days here is a poem that is the Theme, I hope everyone that reads this gets, of this blog. God Loves and Cares Inspired by: a friend in 2012 God loves us like His Own Children. He wants what is Best for us. He guides us to His Heart to show us who He Really is. We are to be a image Of that Love to others. God cares for us like His Own Children. Once we understand His Love for us we start seeing The way He cares for us. He will Be with us through thick and thin. He won’t eve leave us. He keeps Us in His Arms while He cares Enough to change us for His Glory. He shows us He cares through ...

Water gets deeper as it Goes in its lifetime. It Starts out as a stream But ends up in the ocean. During the different stages, It has different things in it. When it starts out in just a Clear stream, you can see through It. You can see the rocks at the Bottom and hear the soft noise. It has no dirt in it and has it path Made and planned for it. Nothing to Bother it. It is shallow too. Then that innocence stream Runs into the lake. It goes every Which way. There might be some Few small fish and dirt to get in The way but it is still easy to get Through. Might bump into a fish Here or there but no biggy because You can always find your way Back. The that water in the lake goes Into the ocean. There are bigger Fish in there. There are even Waves to throw you back and Forth (James 1:5). It is so much Bigger. You think you will never find your Way back to the stream ever again. Somehow though you do whether It you me...

Being a teacher's kid, I've always heard about how hard it is to teach a classroom full of students one way when they all learn different ways. I've learn about those different ways all my life too whether visual, sensory, auditory, or motor. It is strange now because even though I have been a teacher's kid all my life, I have not really seen that there could be groups of these kinds of children together as much as I do at my job now. It is neat and fun because I'm learning what to look for in different types of children and it makes me come up with new ideas to do with them, which I love to do on my own not by a lesson plan. I noticed this because my last group of children at my job loved science and hand ons things. They were very active and love to get messy so I pulled out some old science experiments like the cornstrach and water, baking soda and vinegar, and sensory bottles. Well, the group that I'm getting now, doesn't like the science so much I notic...

Typically yesterday was when I started my 3rd year in AR. Craziness! Never thought I would last this long here in the state of AR but I've been blessed here more then I could think of. I got a GREAT job and amazing friends around me. I couldn't ask for anything better. My job and friends both make me who I can be and even though I might not agree with them at first after I think about it for awhile they are right and make sense. They just help me grow and see how I want to grow and see the person I really can be and that God wants me to be. It's been a crazy last year for me but I wouldn't change it for the world. Love where I am now and where I am heading. Dreams are coming true and I'm expienceing more of life like I wanted. Learning a lot and using it knowing that I have the ability to do what I do even when people say I can't. Learning some important life lessons like how to deal with the main stuff in life after changing jobs and what it means to have real ...

Blind, but Now I See Inspired by: “Amazing Grace” and John 9:1-38 As a world, we are blind To who God really is. We Are looking for something That isn’t here. That’s where We mess up. Have you ever though that Your heart might be blind Too? We have been born Into a sinful world that has Everything in it. Why is it that Little children that have nothing Can be so kind but yet us Christians Are so mean and we have everything We could think of? We need to trust God and open The eyes of our hearts. Just Like the blind man did want Jesus wanted him to do without Know who He was at first. Without Seeing Him, he trusted Jesus. Jesus sent him to go wash in the Pool and his eyes were opened.   How many times have God said “Go” to us and we stayed back? Just think if you were truly blind. You couldn’t see anything since Birth but then one day Jesus Changed that all for you. Wouldn’t You go to the pool and take that ...

I might go to the other side on being comfortable and that is that it is okay to be comfortable but we have to be careful that we don't get too comfortable. We can get comfortable in who God made us to be and to do and when we find that out it is fine to stay that but we can grow in little and big ways. We are all sinners so we can keep growing and that is the thing. A Christian's life is ever boring because we keep learning and growing whether threw the situations we go through or the Bible and new meaning it has for us every time we read it or the same verse. The Christian's life is always an adventure. You can be comfortable with who you are if you are for sure that is who God made you to be. You don't need to change who you are to step out of your zone. You can be who God made you and still grow spiritually. For me, I'm a small country girl and always will be. I love the country so that is something I look for in what I want to do in the future like live or a ra...

I got up at 6:30 on a Saturday morning because it was tundering, lighting, and raining outside and my AC can't be on because it is broken so I was uncomfortable but then I thought God must have done one of His early wake up calls to get me to write what I have been thinking about this week or at least half of it. What I have been thinking about is a little strange but it makes sense in today's world. My mind has been on: Technology vs. Face to Face-Which is better and why? Of course face to face is because you can be real with the people you are around. To me, growing up when the age of Technology started to get big that is hard for me I will admit. I have always been the shy and quite type yet deep thinker and loves to write things out whatever way I can. I guess I didn't know how dependent I was on technology getting me through my friendship until I moved to AR and really cared about the people around me. I remember my first email address and how excited I was to get it. ...