Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

       Today marks my one year since I was rebapized. It was this past Saturday, if we want the day of the week instead of the number. It has been a year too. Let me tell you. I have never felt closer to God then I do now. The first year was a real struggle for me but it is starting to make sense again at least for now. God is still working on me but when is He not. Lately, He has been working on my prayer life, I feel like.          My year with God started out rough and challenging but God has taught me a few things along the way. I also got to experience some things I never thought I would and some situations, but by the Grace of God, I was able to pull through them all. I hope this shows some of that jounrey too. I expect my 2nd year to be more adventurous and happy and less sad.          I really think I started out not listening to God like I should have but has the yea...

Psalm 26:2, “Test me, L ORD , and try me, examine my heart and my mind.” (NIV) James 1:5, “If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.” (NIV) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ First, Saul failed to obey God fully in 1 Samuel 15:9, yet he told the prophet Samuel he had obeyed. Next, in 1 Samuel  15:30 , he chose to value how he looked in people’s eyes over how he looked in God’s eyes. Finally, in 1 Samuel 18:9 ,  he allowed jealousy to overtake his heart toward David. He deceived himself.  ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~                   I am finally going to finish this blog that has been in my drafts for at least two months. I didn't want to throw this one away because it is a real problem that I have and know all too well about. It is something ...

          LOVE!!!!!!                    I purpose to be "Engaging Love" was the theme that I picked for this month. Some might think I picked it just because Valentine's Day was this month but I had more of a reason then that. At the start of the month, when I was thinking what the theme would be, I was learning on how to have a closer love relationship with Christ in my Bible study. I wanted that kind of relationship too.          I will say those few days really opened my eyes to what a love relationship looks like with God. I am still learning about it through that Bible study. Now I am learning how it is revealed to us, which is really interesting. God reveals it through three ways. Those ways are His Word, prayer, church, and situations. There is no better way to engage in God's Love then those three ways plus to be a part of the bigge...

" If a man has a woman friend to whom he is loyal but never intended to marry, having decided to serve God as a “single,” and then changes his mind, deciding he should marry her, he should go ahead and marry. It’s no sin; it’s not even a “step down” from celibacy, as some say. On the other hand, if a man is comfortable in his decision for a single life in service to God and it’s entirely his own conviction and not imposed on him by others, he ought to stick with it. Marriage is spiritually and morally right and not inferior to singleness in any way, although as I indicated earlier, because of the times we live in, I do have pastoral reasons for encouraging singleness."-1 Cor. 7:36-38 (MSG)

        I know I have an entery called this from last year but that is just the lyrics to the song. I have heard it on the radio two times and thought the same thing at both times. The thought just popped into my mind the first time and it was really strange. It showed how God was working in my life during the hard times at my old job. Now I love the song even more because it meant something  in my life. God was working and speaking through it to me.          When I heard it on the radio for the first time this month, it was on the radio on the way to work in the morning. I might have even told a little story about it earlier on but I felt the need to write a whole entery about it. I heard the end of it this morning too when I got in the car. I started listening to that song every morning at my old job to calm me before the children and teachers came in. It just reminded me that no matter what happened tha...

        Yesterday was a busy day for me but it was mostly fun too. Besides the rain all day and a headache it caused, it was a God-Filled Valentine's Day because I made it that way. I kind of started a new tradition for myself this year. I had to work both jobs but that didn't bother me because it helped me keep my mind busy, even though I could of used a nap all morning.          This was probably the best Valentine's Day I had in awhile. I made excuses to do things. This was the first Valentine's in awhile that I really felt God's Love for me, if ever. I showed myself that by buying myself a coffee, some M&Ms, and a dozen yellow roses. I wasn't going to past Valentine's Day up again without any gifts. I also celebrated with other people in a way. I gave out Valentine's cards and candy to my kids at work. I had a good dinner and ice cream with my brother and his family. I gave stuffed teddy bears to m...

Dear Daddy,       I want to talk about this past Saturday night at church. It was a really good sermon and much needed afterwards for me. Just looking up at Your sky and creations. Talking to you about my life plans and dreams. I need to get back into the habit of doing that. I also need to make it a habit of looking up more and more to You. Remembering that whatever you put on my heart You will finish it somehow. It was all about Your Love and giving You the honor and glory you deserve. I was to Love You and be amazed by You. It was a perfect sermon for this Valentine's Day for me. You couldn't time it anymore perfect  then You did. It is all about You this week. How to worship and Love you. It's all about a relationship with You and not an earthly one. Daddy, please help me be more engaged in Love this month and especially this week. In Christ's Name, Amen

I'm such a lake girl. That explains a lot about me. I love spending time by the lakes even if they are small ones. Growing up by one might have something to do with that. Maybe it is the look of the sun on the water. The shiney dots on and on in the water. Maybe it is the people around it fishing. Bringing back good old memories for me. I know it is the peaceful feeling when nothing around you seems right or hard. The wind blowing in your hair making you think you are care free. It is the small waves getting bigger and bigger with the wind. Showing you that life can be rough sometime. Yet at the same time there can be smooth moments too. It is a lot prettier with the bring blue sky out. Seeing God's creation all around you. Making you want more of it. You can never get enough. Swimming in that brown water time and time again. Now that I think about it big or small I do love the lake. From pond size to two states wide. I've been around lake...

        God's Love is Amazing! God's Love is Great! God's Love is Unconditional! This is what I'm learning at my Bible study especially this week. I don't know if I can recall how many times God showed me His Love this week in the strangest ways. I'm going to try though.         It has been a hard week for me. I have worked extra hours and would get upset over the little things. Things like payments due, worrying about the cost of meds, and getting help. I also worked to extra mornings, which made me really sleepy. God showed me in those little ways that He will and can provide. A payment got paid off because I finally humbled myself to let it get paid off.        The meds. were less then I thought they would be once I got my insurance to work. I could afford them after that. I also got a 2 and a half hour nap yesterday. Those were the small things but it was at Bible study last night ...

    Worthless is not a Feeling you want to feel. It feels tiring. It feels like You have no energy left. It feels like you can't do Anything right. It also Feels like no one understands You. It is where you have reached The bottom of the pit. There Is no way out. You are left there Fighting for yourself. You Might have little holes here And there that you try to go Through but can't. It seems Like it will never end. It is either one thing or the Other thing. You are happy With one part of your life But the other part not so Much. It is also a lie from Satan himself. It is one way that Satan Loves to get people. It Is the most painful too. If Satan gets you to feel Worthless, then he can Make everything else fall Down around you. There is someone who Loves you unconditionally. That Someone is God. He Will give you whatever you Need to get through it. He Will give courage, Preservation, and make you Determined. God loves...

           I'm glad I am getting more then 300 views. Am I really getting that much or is something going on with this website? I have been getting more then 300 views in the past three days and 700 of them are coming from the USA. Can anyone tell me what might be going on? How would I know if I am getting hacked or have been hacked? Is that a possibility when I'm getting more then 300 views. It is funny because like I said I have been getting this for the past two days. I have been on this blog website for about 3 years or 3 and a half years now. I'm just worried that it is getting hacked and that I need to move my blog to somewhere else.            Am I the only one with these "problem" going on or are other people on here having that happening to them? Please leave comments on here. I really want to know what is going on so it can help me write safely. Thanks.

          This past week I have probably experienced God in my life more then any other time or at least it has been awhile since I have noticed Him working in my life. I was going to write 3 entries about the three different things that happened to me this week but then I decided to put them all in one entry so it would be easier to follow along. I could also write them in one setting if I did it that way. God has been talking to me in a lot of ways this week. Three different ways is what I got to experience and I'm telling you this past week was only the second week of the "Experiencing God" Bible Study at my church. God is doing something if He is already trying to seek to me through different ways.            The 1st time this week when I felt God speaking to me was from a song on the radio while I was on my way to work. The song "Just Be Held" was on there are it just took me back to my last job and when I was hoping to get on...

         I have to write this down so I'll never forget it. This is a little talk I had with one of my little boys yesterday about the way I talk. It will be a really short entry. Little Boy: Miss Tiffney, where are you from? Me: Missouri Little Boy: That explains it. Me: Why? Little Boy: You know my mom and dad are from "South America" (my words, he said the state) and they have a hard time speaking sometime.                          This little boy is in 2nd grade and he can put together those two things. He is pretty smart and in a way compassionate.

"God's Reasons."         I started a new thing for this year. It is an idea I got from a certain author. She gave the action word for each month and then we are suppose to come up with something to work on during that month. There were also prayer sheets too so we could prayer about it theoughout the month. The action word for last month was "Embrace".           I had to ask myself, "what did I want to embrace" and the answer came up as "God's Reasons". It was good for me because I would always remind myself that God had a reason for this and it would get me through the day. I would also change things throughout the month because I felt like God had a better reasoning for the other thing.          Here are some examples that happened in my life, this month, that I needed to see God's reasoning. I looked at my friends' lives and see if I could see some reasoning in their lives that I could use in mine. I k...