Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

            Holy Spirit convicts us of our righteousness. For God, it's not at all about out performances or our perfection. It is all about His Son. The Holy Spirit is in our lives to remind us of that. He can say, "Here is part pf your Son" (for lack of a better wording) to God when we need help or don't. God loves us no matter what so we can stop worrying. The things you want or plan to way you want but better. You might not know how it will turn out but that's not for you to know. If you do, it is because God has blessed you by letting you know it.             It is only the matter of the heart that matters and your heart to God. We can't always think about our actions because we might do something God wants us to do but seems out of touch with the people around us. If you did it out of the right reasons and it lines up with God then why care about anything or anyone else or what they think about you. When we unveiled ever...

The Gravel Road of Life On a Sunday afternoon, after church got over, I went back to my old place. Haven't been there since things have really changed. The spot where I use to dream and make plans. Where I use to hope things would turn out. Where things would just stop for a moment and I could look up at the night sky and pray. The spot I came when life would be really hard but now it's so far away. That place where I thought would be mine. Down that gravel road. Daddy, just like my plans, it is changing. I believe You have bigger and better plans for me. I'll miss this little part of the road. Seen my tears and heard my prayers. Where I saw the stars in the Heavens and that brought me comfort. Laying on the hood of my car and looking up at the huge night sky. Hoping God would answer my prayers. Now I have to struggle to get my Bible read and live the "real" life. When did that happen? I have to become an adult and a reasonable one at th...

           I know the title might seem like common sense but it's often something I forget, which is sad. I can get so caught up in my own life or at least the surroundings around me and not see other things. I wouldn't be surprised if i had another entry with this title. Yet it is amazing when God puts you in the middle of something ones else's life and they don't even know it. You get a very different outlook and seem to understand them more and more.            Being on the outside, you might think they are making things up or just totally don't care about you. You might think they hate you. That's what it look like from the outside. It is easy being on the outside when all you do is live by yourself like I do. You have no one to worry about but yourself so it is easy to get caught up in that. Yet being in the middle, you see a lot of sides to the stories. When they say, "they are busy", it's probably true. I just get sleep...

Proverbs 30:5   New International Version (NIV) 5  "Every word of God is flawless;      he is a shield  to those who take refuge in him. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Hebrews 4:12   New International Version (NIV) 12  For the word of God is alive  and active.  Sharper than any double-edged sword,  it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Philippians 4:13   New International Version (NIV) 13  I can do all this through him who gives me strength. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 1 Corinthians 13:4-13   New International Version (NIV) 4 Love  is Patient,  love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.   5  It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, ...

           My grandma did a lot of the same things that I am doing with my church with my church too, even when married to grandpa. Mom did too when we were little. Yet dad was in it here and there. Off and on.           God, are you keeping me single a little longer so I know what serving You is really like while preparing me for life and marriage? It's sort of like the missions prat of my life but it is in a church in the state of AR. Do you have things I need to make off before I get married? It's funny because looking at me married friends I noticed something the same when/before they got married. They were very active in the church they were going to and there were pretty small churches too. Not saying I'll met my future husband at my church, although I could at a church, like they did.           Is it different in this generation then my parents' or grandparents' generations? Is that why people are g...

             One of the main lessons that I'm learning right now is that you do need a balance in your prayer life. How can someone pray for 3 or more people plus their own life? I'm learning this right now because I am a part of my church's prayer ministry. I'm also learning how many people really do need prayer. My church is a really small church but I feel like half of them need prayer. I was thinking about this concept earlier this week. Why? You might ask. I was praying for someone so hard that I forgot to pray for myself. I felt the weight of my world come on me after that thought ran through my mind. Yet I don't want to be too selfish and pray just for myself.               I have close friends that I could be praying for and checking on.  I have ministries that I could be praying for. It just seems like my mind goes on one person and can stay on tha...

"When you get tensed, go away and see how God loves you." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 3 steps To Do When You Are Mad at Someone: -Stop. -Withdraw from them to a quite place. -Reflect on God's Love.  ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ John 15:13   New International Version (NIV) 13  Greater love  has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.             -Laying down one's life is just about dying like it was back then. It could mean laying things down daily for someone else. It could also mean laying down your desires and picking up someone else's desires. It could also go along with activities and hobbies.  "God knows when you are sacrificing something worth wild." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Mark 14:34   New International Version (NIV) 34  “My  soul  is  ov...

            I just finished my 8th year in AR so that means I am heading into my 9th year in AR. I didn't think I would make it this long here in the great state but God had other plans for me and this past year I have seen a lot of that. This past year has been really different and I feel like the next year will be just as different. I believe it will only get better and busier.            Last August to this August my life has changed a lot. I have changed jobs 2 times but worked 4 different places. One of those places I wanted to go back to so that was an answer to prayer and I enjoyed the few months I had there. I have met some amazing people and become closer to others. I've tried out new places and now going to 2 different churches because of that. I feel like my relationship with God has become closer then ever before. I feel like I am much happier with who I am and don't care what other people think about me. I know wh...

          I got this poem idea base from a college friend of mine. She wrote one about her own life and I thought I would change it up a bit to fit my life. I asked if I could and she said, "Sure" so here is my version of it. It is a little bit longer then hers. This Isn't How I Thought My Life Would Turn Out This isn’t how I thought my life would turn out at the age of 6, watching Disney Princess  movies and wishing I was a princess waiting  for my prince to come rescue me.  Yes, I was one of those little girls.  Mainly, wishing my life would turn out like Belle's. Living in a large castle and having it all to myself.  At age 6, you don’t think of anyone but yourself. This isn't how I thought my life would turn out in the 3rd grade. Moving to a new place. Having a boy ask me out for the first time. Went home so excited but my parents said I couldn't date til I was 16. This isn’t how I thought ...