Pray the Hardest, when it is the hardest to pray

        These last two Christmas breaks have been total opposite but at the same time they have been really good and reminded me of different things.            Last year's Christmas break (2021) was all about finding my wedding dress. That is what we did for my birthday shopping day and we went on my birthday the 27th. We celebrated it that way. Sharon came with us to join in on the fun. After we went to two different places to try on wedding dresses, we found the one. The two places that we went were David's Bridal and Gracie's. We found my wedding dress at Gracie's. I tried on about 3 to 4 dresses at David's bridal. At Gracie's, I tried on about the same number of dresses. We also ate out at a small restaurant.            This Christmas break (2022) was my family oriented. On the 27th, we had a Christmas / birthday dinner with almost all of the family there and Sharon. We even opened on Christmas presents...

            Going into 2022 from a messy 2021 didn't start anything out right. I was exhausted at the start. Jan.      - whole new class      - new assistant teacher      - new director Feb.       - sent out save the dates       - looked for new apartments March        - try out dress and hair for wedding over spring break April        - dad's first birthday without him        - went fishing with family for his birthday        - his birthday was on Easter this year May        - mom had first wedding anniversary without dad June          - first Father's day without dad so we went fishing to celebrate him         - had Covid at the end of the month for the 1st time July          - fixed a tooth over summer break ...

          I have had 3 days off of work this week and as I have been lying around thinking about the last time I actually had sick days. I cannot remember when that was in the past 2 years. The sick days came at the perfect time. They came right before Christmas which I could get ready for when I feel like it and now I won't have to be so stressed out come Christmas.              I feel that God planned it as perfect timing because he knew I was getting so tired of everything and that I have had a really busy past couple of years with my dad passing and planning for the wedding. I think God Neil I wanted to give up but he also knew that I couldn't On My Own Strength so the next best thing was to make me weak and sick. I have gone back thinking to the time before my dad passed away and all that consisted of and what I was going to with my job back then.               It is kind of funny no...