I have been wanting to write an entry talking about the different hues of browns. This might not be an interesting entry to those of you who aren't into decorating but if you are this might be an entry for you and make you think a little bit about why you decorate the way you do. I never knew why I like any color with any brown. It just came natural to me. I see something brown and another color then I would love it right then and there.
But this past month, I have been thinking a lot about things because of situations that have happened in my life and I think I know the reason, if not all, part of the reason I like to decorate with browns. I grew up the first 4 years of my life in a house where I remember everything having a brown tint to it or the color went a long with brown. I use to sleep in the "blue room" but I remember the bigger areas being browns. I will admit most of the colors with that brown was that nasty 80's looking orange but yet it was brown. The outside of the house is a pale yellow with brown trim.
I also remember later years that my babysitter (2nd Father) spent a lot of time in his workshop building things so they would have a lot of wood around the house light and dark. I think to that if you like browns it is usually because you are somewhat of an outdoorsy person, which I am that too. I remember going for walks in the woods and just spending time out on the farm. I still have a bookshelf that he made for me and it is dark brown and by my bedside no matter where I move to. I always make it a point to put it there. There was one house where I had it at the end of the stairs but that is when I was little and didn't care where to put it. It did make a little nice reading place for me though. I will tell you more about that bookshelf in another entry later on.
It is funny now too because I live in an apartment that is painted a light brown and all my things go along with it. I have mostly dark colored things but I do love like the lime green with the darker brown and the pale blue, more like robin egg blue, with the darker brown too. Then any pale color goes great with the lighter tannish brown. Brown is really an easy color to decorate with. Even in bigger houses now days you will see the basic color is a brown.
I might be strange but I have always liked the darker colors or browns to painted houses with and decorate with. Light colors can be good at times especially if you have children living with you and I might have to move to the paler side of that if I ever have children. It is said that the paler the color the calmer it might make the child.
I write this because it just seems strange to me how you can live around a color or decorations so long and don't know how much influence it had on you until it is gone. You could also never know why you like the browns or wooden floors or more of the outdoorsy theme until you really think about it. Those colors have left me and even though I understand that they are way out of date and the other reasons behind changing them it still hurts a little bit but it does look a lot better and up to date. It is just another one of those things that we take for granted day in and day out.
Sunday, December 14, 2014
Friday, December 12, 2014
Miracles Happen Everyday
I know I have wrote one about miracles at my job before this one but I think it was sometime last year. I'm not allowed to say much but it is nice to have a job that you can go into everyday with an expected miracle or a surprise miracle. Some of the children come from the worst of homes and it is just so neat to watch them grow in the children they should be. Let's just say that hard work and prayers pay off in this career and you might not get to see it as long as they are there but most of them you do.
The children that are "normal" you don't see much. You see a little but not as much as you see with children you have developmental delays. It's so hard not to explain the miracle that I'm talking about right now but it is one. I can say that the child had a lot to learn and the child did it. The child is actually "normal" and so cute. I couldn't ask for a better job. Really. When you see how much you can make a difference and put one more star in the sky. It is beautiful!
In Duet. 10:20-22 in the Bible it talks about how God gave them so many people to their family and because those people loved and obeyed God, He was going to add more people to the family. They started out with 70 and ended up with 1,000s. That is what I feel like I'm doing at this job. I only knew so little about the need of helping abused and neglected children out there to where I could only help a few but now I know so much more and I can help so many more children. It just feels wonderful!
I come home and just pray for the children and give them over to God because I know I can handle or fix what some of them are going through and I wouldn't want to. It would break my heart. Some children we get back for some time and it is just amazing to see how much they have changed in that little amount or big of time. They would grow taller and skinner or more well behaved or learned to walk or talk. They would just be so different.
This entry will be a short one. Sorry. I just had to share, though, that I love a job where miracles happen everyday. It might be at this job until I can have my own foster home or adopt a child of my own. We'll have to see. God knows what is in my future and His Timing is perfect! I'm learning that everyday through these miracles. I'm also learning to rely on Him because if I didn't do that then how would these miracles happen and would I see them. Who knows? But I don't even what to try to find that out because that would be no fun at all.
It is a blessing after a blessing! It is a miracle after a miracle! It is GOD IN CONTROL OF OUR LIVES! If you take time to look I'm sure you would be able to find every day miracles around you too. You don't have to work where I work to see miracles everyday. You just have to have your eyes open and let God work through you!
The children that are "normal" you don't see much. You see a little but not as much as you see with children you have developmental delays. It's so hard not to explain the miracle that I'm talking about right now but it is one. I can say that the child had a lot to learn and the child did it. The child is actually "normal" and so cute. I couldn't ask for a better job. Really. When you see how much you can make a difference and put one more star in the sky. It is beautiful!
In Duet. 10:20-22 in the Bible it talks about how God gave them so many people to their family and because those people loved and obeyed God, He was going to add more people to the family. They started out with 70 and ended up with 1,000s. That is what I feel like I'm doing at this job. I only knew so little about the need of helping abused and neglected children out there to where I could only help a few but now I know so much more and I can help so many more children. It just feels wonderful!
I come home and just pray for the children and give them over to God because I know I can handle or fix what some of them are going through and I wouldn't want to. It would break my heart. Some children we get back for some time and it is just amazing to see how much they have changed in that little amount or big of time. They would grow taller and skinner or more well behaved or learned to walk or talk. They would just be so different.
This entry will be a short one. Sorry. I just had to share, though, that I love a job where miracles happen everyday. It might be at this job until I can have my own foster home or adopt a child of my own. We'll have to see. God knows what is in my future and His Timing is perfect! I'm learning that everyday through these miracles. I'm also learning to rely on Him because if I didn't do that then how would these miracles happen and would I see them. Who knows? But I don't even what to try to find that out because that would be no fun at all.
It is a blessing after a blessing! It is a miracle after a miracle! It is GOD IN CONTROL OF OUR LIVES! If you take time to look I'm sure you would be able to find every day miracles around you too. You don't have to work where I work to see miracles everyday. You just have to have your eyes open and let God work through you!
Wednesday, December 10, 2014
Triangle of Needs
I am at the park sitting outside in the 50 degree weather and writing on my blog. What month and season does that sound like? You might think Spring and March but you would be wrong. It is the middle of December and it is still Fall, later Fall, but still Fall. It is 2 weeks until the first day of Winter and it is feeling like this. Amazing because last winter it wasn’t like this at all at this time.
Anyways, enough about how strange the weather is being in AR.
I wanted to write about something that I thought about this morning while I was taking a test for my job. Well, actually studying for it. I have studied the Maslow's Hierarchy (Triangle) of Needs for years because my major is Child Development so I needed to know that somewhat.
The order of the triangle is:
-Physiological-Basics like food, shelter, water,
-then feeling (safe)-health and people around you,
-then feeling (love and belonged)-sense of connection and trust,
-then good (self esteem)-confidence, achievement, respect, and sense to be self,
-and last, having (self actualization)-creativity, purpose, and acceptance.
Well, I was wrong about somewhat with my job I have now and hopefully will keep working in the field, I really do need it. I can see it through the children’s life and in the order that it is too. They could come in very behind and we would need to start at the bottom with shelter or they could start at needed to feel love and belonging. Either way, it is strange how real it is for every child. I mean you could “label” where the child is at and what are the other things that they need from you and what they could work on. I need to think about that more when a new child comes in. Need to think where they could be or are and them help them reach other areas of it.
In the school teacher setting, I knew it was there but couldn’t see it has big as I can now. Of course, public school you get a lot of the same children sadly but I guess I am more focused on it with where I am because really that is all you can focus on and nothing more. I think it is strange how a person could see that and come up with it in the same order that it happens in a child’s life.
I was just thinking before the test how something you thought you would barely use, you use all the time now. It is strange because most people haven’t heard about the triangle granted I had to take Child Development class 3 times in a row in college but now I know the reason way. :) I was also thinking how I should already have this memorized in the back of my mind and I almost do. Maybe another class or two? Lol!
Not only do teachers and parents use it for the children in their care but one person can use it for themselves. I will admit I need help on the self help and depending on your life season you might need a place to live or a way to feel loved and belonged so you can have better self-esteem. I also believe that no matter how old we get that triangle is life in itself. That is who God made us to be and in new situations, here and there, we need to rethink it. It isn’t just for the children. Like I said we are all humans so we all need this if this is psycialogocaily and how we are really made. Why be scared of it?
Sometimes it is strange because things whether physically or emotionally can keep you from having these things whether you are in the middle of anxiety or depression or another sickness. We need to fix that so we can feel that we are somewhat on the triangle. We could live “normal” lives and still something can be wrong with us on the inside. We can have the first 2 but yet lack of the other 3. It is pysicalolgocail and it is hard to understand but the more I look into it and have to deal with different things along the same lines it is interesting. I want to learn more about it and how to handle things with it. I could so study the triangle and work with it somehow and be happy with that. I wonder why even drs. that you go to if you were sick with the flu don’t talk about this or have anything about it in their office.
To wrap it all up, it is just neat to see that something is out there that if we really need to see how we are made, then we can but the truth be told. God made us the way He did and no matter how hard we try to figure it out, we’ll never find out how. This triangle is just a little piece of the puzzle on paper to help us see what areas we need to talk to God about. It is our job to find out when and then it is God’s job, way, and Timing to make it healthily. Just another way to fully rely on Him. We might know what we are like but we never know what is ahead in or planned for our future. We are still God’s servants in His Bigger Plan to save the World.
Anyways, enough about how strange the weather is being in AR.
I wanted to write about something that I thought about this morning while I was taking a test for my job. Well, actually studying for it. I have studied the Maslow's Hierarchy (Triangle) of Needs for years because my major is Child Development so I needed to know that somewhat.
The order of the triangle is:
-Physiological-Basics like food, shelter, water,
-then feeling (safe)-health and people around you,
-then feeling (love and belonged)-sense of connection and trust,
-then good (self esteem)-confidence, achievement, respect, and sense to be self,
-and last, having (self actualization)-creativity, purpose, and acceptance.
Well, I was wrong about somewhat with my job I have now and hopefully will keep working in the field, I really do need it. I can see it through the children’s life and in the order that it is too. They could come in very behind and we would need to start at the bottom with shelter or they could start at needed to feel love and belonging. Either way, it is strange how real it is for every child. I mean you could “label” where the child is at and what are the other things that they need from you and what they could work on. I need to think about that more when a new child comes in. Need to think where they could be or are and them help them reach other areas of it.
In the school teacher setting, I knew it was there but couldn’t see it has big as I can now. Of course, public school you get a lot of the same children sadly but I guess I am more focused on it with where I am because really that is all you can focus on and nothing more. I think it is strange how a person could see that and come up with it in the same order that it happens in a child’s life.
I was just thinking before the test how something you thought you would barely use, you use all the time now. It is strange because most people haven’t heard about the triangle granted I had to take Child Development class 3 times in a row in college but now I know the reason way. :) I was also thinking how I should already have this memorized in the back of my mind and I almost do. Maybe another class or two? Lol!
Not only do teachers and parents use it for the children in their care but one person can use it for themselves. I will admit I need help on the self help and depending on your life season you might need a place to live or a way to feel loved and belonged so you can have better self-esteem. I also believe that no matter how old we get that triangle is life in itself. That is who God made us to be and in new situations, here and there, we need to rethink it. It isn’t just for the children. Like I said we are all humans so we all need this if this is psycialogocaily and how we are really made. Why be scared of it?
Sometimes it is strange because things whether physically or emotionally can keep you from having these things whether you are in the middle of anxiety or depression or another sickness. We need to fix that so we can feel that we are somewhat on the triangle. We could live “normal” lives and still something can be wrong with us on the inside. We can have the first 2 but yet lack of the other 3. It is pysicalolgocail and it is hard to understand but the more I look into it and have to deal with different things along the same lines it is interesting. I want to learn more about it and how to handle things with it. I could so study the triangle and work with it somehow and be happy with that. I wonder why even drs. that you go to if you were sick with the flu don’t talk about this or have anything about it in their office.
To wrap it all up, it is just neat to see that something is out there that if we really need to see how we are made, then we can but the truth be told. God made us the way He did and no matter how hard we try to figure it out, we’ll never find out how. This triangle is just a little piece of the puzzle on paper to help us see what areas we need to talk to God about. It is our job to find out when and then it is God’s job, way, and Timing to make it healthily. Just another way to fully rely on Him. We might know what we are like but we never know what is ahead in or planned for our future. We are still God’s servants in His Bigger Plan to save the World.
Tuesday, December 9, 2014
5 Meaningful Words
Humble. Grace. Trust. Love. Faith. Those are the 5 meaningful words in my spiritual life right now. I am learning how to act with and on everyone of them. God has shown me so much Grace and Love that I need to pass it on to others. With those two words the words humble, Trust, and Faith gets me too. Something else these words have in common is they help take away discontentment.
You are so humble that God could love a person like you and be a part of His Bigger Plan. He loved you enough to give you His Grace and we should take it humbly. We don't deserve it at all. It is His gift to us. We just to have have the faith that He can and will use us for Him.
Trust is also something you have to learn daily. It is a feeling. We have to remember to put these words into our daily lives or the devil can get ahold of us. Yes, we are little and weak but God loves us enough to "fix" us to where He can use us in His Plan. It might be a few months or a season. Still, I don't think there are better words or way to describe how our lives should be in Christ. Humble Grace. Trust. Love. Faith. We are weak but He is strong. That part of "Jesus Loves Me" is so true even as a grown up.
We need to learn how to live all these actions out by leaning on God's Strength. It is only then that we can live these words out. "We can do all things through Christ who gives us strength" but it is a daily prayer or should be in every moment. We need to give God the credit for everything. It's hard to explain but when you work with people, who has had things taken away from them, you see these words so much more and it changes your life view. You have to get down on their level and that takes a lot of love, trust, and humility plus grace both for you and for them.
I thought about all of this back a few weeks ago in a women's Bible study. First, I was told to get a testimony ready for the next time we meet and I thought, "hmm.......my life has been filled with love and grace because of so many situations." Then here lately at church and through other situations-humility, trust, and faith has been pointed out to me. To wrap some of what I'm trying to say up, God showed me Love and Grace in my high school years with the things I was suppose to do for Him but missed them because I was too focused on myself. Yet I was humble, trusting, and had faith in Him enough to let Him lead me to where I am today. I would say more but let's just say that I have been blessed to go to a great small college and met some amazing people there whether they know that now or not.
For some odd reason, college lead me down here to AR where I never thought I would be with the type of children/career I never thought I could handle. God work in amazing and strange ways but when I really look back I love it and wouldn't ask for anything better. Still waiting on some things to happen but I trust and believe that in God's Timing it will happen if it is the desire of my heart.
Living out the gospel is not easy but it's really worth it. Worth everything I have lost or will never get. Funny how I wrote this out in a notebook first and then type it on here. It took 3 pages in the notebook but it is so short on here. Sorry for that. I wish I could explain it better but it is just something people have to pray about and really experience themselves or at least see it in person for themselves.
You are so humble that God could love a person like you and be a part of His Bigger Plan. He loved you enough to give you His Grace and we should take it humbly. We don't deserve it at all. It is His gift to us. We just to have have the faith that He can and will use us for Him.
Trust is also something you have to learn daily. It is a feeling. We have to remember to put these words into our daily lives or the devil can get ahold of us. Yes, we are little and weak but God loves us enough to "fix" us to where He can use us in His Plan. It might be a few months or a season. Still, I don't think there are better words or way to describe how our lives should be in Christ. Humble Grace. Trust. Love. Faith. We are weak but He is strong. That part of "Jesus Loves Me" is so true even as a grown up.
We need to learn how to live all these actions out by leaning on God's Strength. It is only then that we can live these words out. "We can do all things through Christ who gives us strength" but it is a daily prayer or should be in every moment. We need to give God the credit for everything. It's hard to explain but when you work with people, who has had things taken away from them, you see these words so much more and it changes your life view. You have to get down on their level and that takes a lot of love, trust, and humility plus grace both for you and for them.
I thought about all of this back a few weeks ago in a women's Bible study. First, I was told to get a testimony ready for the next time we meet and I thought, "hmm.......my life has been filled with love and grace because of so many situations." Then here lately at church and through other situations-humility, trust, and faith has been pointed out to me. To wrap some of what I'm trying to say up, God showed me Love and Grace in my high school years with the things I was suppose to do for Him but missed them because I was too focused on myself. Yet I was humble, trusting, and had faith in Him enough to let Him lead me to where I am today. I would say more but let's just say that I have been blessed to go to a great small college and met some amazing people there whether they know that now or not.
For some odd reason, college lead me down here to AR where I never thought I would be with the type of children/career I never thought I could handle. God work in amazing and strange ways but when I really look back I love it and wouldn't ask for anything better. Still waiting on some things to happen but I trust and believe that in God's Timing it will happen if it is the desire of my heart.
Living out the gospel is not easy but it's really worth it. Worth everything I have lost or will never get. Funny how I wrote this out in a notebook first and then type it on here. It took 3 pages in the notebook but it is so short on here. Sorry for that. I wish I could explain it better but it is just something people have to pray about and really experience themselves or at least see it in person for themselves.
Sunday, December 7, 2014
Where Are All the Guys of my Generation?
I know that might sound like a funny question at first but it is a true question. What is even stranger is that I got up this morning thinking that. Some events lead up to it but still. Here I am almost 27 in a "big" city in AR and been here for 3 years and nothing. I had some guy friends here and there but most of them are too busy to even say, "hey". The guy friends that I do have are a little bit older then I am. Not only where are the guys but also where are the women of my generation?
It just seems that my generation is too busy and married to their jobs to care about anyone else around them. All my friends are going back to college or work so hard at their jobs that they don't have time for anything extra. I know we have to work a job to live and that is the sad part but what about community and love. What about a family and getting to know each other personally as I'm writing on a blog? The more and more that I look at it the more and more I get upset with everything. There is way too much technology and we have to work way too much to keep up with people and get more things. The things costs so much more then they use to.
If I could go back and start my life all over again, I would go back to a year where there wasn't this technology. I would go back to where you had to write letters or talk on the phone or heaven forbidden, go see them or get together with them just to keep up. Yes, I am a very personal person and I have always been. I might not seem like that around a big group of people but I love to get to know people. It takes time but it is great. I also believe that all this new stuff is keeping people back from wanting to say what they really want and feeling what they really want to feel. Remember that first time you got a note in the 3rd grade from a cute boy asking you out? Remember that time you had a blast outside hunting or fishing? Remember that time where you explored the woods while climbing the trees? Remember that time where parents taught their kids at home?
I am so out of date because that is what I want my life to be like and I want a guy who understands and wants that too but it is too hard to find that anymore. There are only a few out there far between. Most guys are married to their work and that is the only thing they want to do. That and very few guys have any manners anymore. Girls have been let down so many times that they just give up or lower their standards and that makes the guys lower their standards too. It is a wave affect. Both of us need to take a stand and change it.
How can you feel love or even hate when it happens over Facebook or texting? How can you so that someone made you mad or sad? You just hold that in until it builds up and that is not good either. It builds up from past relationships and breaks ones you are in now or do things you will regret later on in life. People feel like they can't share things personally anymore because it will be all over the internet or people will know it before they see that person again. We don't have time to fix anything when we mess up and it just keeps getting bigger by getting more people involved in it so easily even when they shouldn't be involved.
As a girl, I might have high standards for a guy but in my case it fits who I am and what I want to do in the future and if I have to be by myself that is okay with me. Guys, I'm not that high standard just to let you know. I am a true Christian girl that is messed up and I want a true Christian guy that can handle that and can admit that he is messed up too but yet together we can grow together in God. Whatever God will have that look like? Is that too much to ask for in this day and age? Seems like it most days. Guys and Girls, this is just something to think about. Are you the person that you are looking for? If not, are you praying that God will make you into that person?
It just seems that my generation is too busy and married to their jobs to care about anyone else around them. All my friends are going back to college or work so hard at their jobs that they don't have time for anything extra. I know we have to work a job to live and that is the sad part but what about community and love. What about a family and getting to know each other personally as I'm writing on a blog? The more and more that I look at it the more and more I get upset with everything. There is way too much technology and we have to work way too much to keep up with people and get more things. The things costs so much more then they use to.
If I could go back and start my life all over again, I would go back to a year where there wasn't this technology. I would go back to where you had to write letters or talk on the phone or heaven forbidden, go see them or get together with them just to keep up. Yes, I am a very personal person and I have always been. I might not seem like that around a big group of people but I love to get to know people. It takes time but it is great. I also believe that all this new stuff is keeping people back from wanting to say what they really want and feeling what they really want to feel. Remember that first time you got a note in the 3rd grade from a cute boy asking you out? Remember that time you had a blast outside hunting or fishing? Remember that time where you explored the woods while climbing the trees? Remember that time where parents taught their kids at home?
I am so out of date because that is what I want my life to be like and I want a guy who understands and wants that too but it is too hard to find that anymore. There are only a few out there far between. Most guys are married to their work and that is the only thing they want to do. That and very few guys have any manners anymore. Girls have been let down so many times that they just give up or lower their standards and that makes the guys lower their standards too. It is a wave affect. Both of us need to take a stand and change it.
How can you feel love or even hate when it happens over Facebook or texting? How can you so that someone made you mad or sad? You just hold that in until it builds up and that is not good either. It builds up from past relationships and breaks ones you are in now or do things you will regret later on in life. People feel like they can't share things personally anymore because it will be all over the internet or people will know it before they see that person again. We don't have time to fix anything when we mess up and it just keeps getting bigger by getting more people involved in it so easily even when they shouldn't be involved.
As a girl, I might have high standards for a guy but in my case it fits who I am and what I want to do in the future and if I have to be by myself that is okay with me. Guys, I'm not that high standard just to let you know. I am a true Christian girl that is messed up and I want a true Christian guy that can handle that and can admit that he is messed up too but yet together we can grow together in God. Whatever God will have that look like? Is that too much to ask for in this day and age? Seems like it most days. Guys and Girls, this is just something to think about. Are you the person that you are looking for? If not, are you praying that God will make you into that person?
Saturday, December 6, 2014
Physically Vs. Emotional
Sorry I am just writing another entry and it will be short because it is on my phone. My computer is down again. It has also been a long and tiring week for me. Along with busy.
I was talking to a friend this week and we got on the subject of physical vs. Emotional appearance in the US compared to other nations and it really made me think. I have noticed the same thing since being in Mexico and Guatemala. US has problems with emotions and countries in poverty has problems with physical. That is because we live different lives.
People in poverty stricken countries are more worried about their health and need help with that. Because of their health, they have to depend on God everyday so their spiritual/emotional health is strong. They have no idea where their next meal or house will come from. They have no drs. to depend on for meds. Or to tell them how to get well. The only Healer they have is God.
Us, people in the US, though have all of that plus more. Yet we are lost more spiritually and emotionally. We depend on our careers more and drs. More and so on that we forget who to talk to sometimes. When we get sad or stressed or even depressed, we eat tons of food. We even buy things to make us feel better or help us celebrate. We are so much more material then humans.
We do not get what God is telling us most of the time because we are too busy. Have you ever been overseas and wonder why do I feel calm and/or why are the people so happy? Can I tell you the answer? It is because they do not have all of this material stuff to block the suffering. They share it with their community face to face. They are real with each other and help each other out.
Where has life gone like that in the US? Are we becoming too rich and self centered? Instead of being a nation that helps, are we becoming a selfish nation, not just with other nations but our people as well? We have the supplies and resources so what are we doing with them. I am not big on talking about the nation as a whole but these questions are good questions to think about.
Tuesday, December 2, 2014
Well, It is December
Well, it is December again. That time of year where children are suppose to be happy and waiting for Santa Claus. That time of year where you like back on the year you had. That busiest time of year. For me, December is always a fun month because I get to celebrate Christmas and my birthday. I love that my birthday is around Christmas but it makes being happy for both hard or it has lately these past 3 years.
It seems like these past 3 years everything bad happened to me at the end of the year near Christmas. It seems like it was just waiting to make my year bad. It all plies up for me at the end of the year. I will say that since 2012 starting in Oct. I lost my Grandad and then in Dec. quit my 1st job in AR. In Nov. 2013, I grew away from a good friend and in Dec. of that year I was all by myself at work, which was fun but hard. Then this past month (Nov. 2014) I lost a really close adult friend that was like a 2nd dad to me. It has just been hard for me when it shouldn't be. It is like my life is starting all over for the new year.
Another thing that I thought about and it was strange is that December is Advent and all these things have happened to me before Advent so I could maybe learn something about Hope, Joy, Peace, and Love. It is like God saying, "It is time to start over or onto something new. Just have hope and joy and peace in me and know that I Love you." I remember way back in December of 2007, I changed my major not long after that because that is when my Grandpa died. Just strange how God is doing that in my life. I was born in December and lately in the past years it has been like I have been reborn again. He is making me into the person that I need to be.
It is sad that He has to get my attention that way sometimes but I mean death does happen and what better way to look at it then to think God is using it to change you especially in my way lately. It is strange because since I have moved to AR this all has happened. Sometimes if God has to get our attention that way then that means we are too busy or just not listening. I know back in college, back in 2012, and right now I had/have been thinking about things and not doing anything about those thoughts. Sometimes it worries me but yet sometimes it turns out for the best if I take those chances.
I still don't see all of the reason why I changed my major but I do see little pieces here and there in all of the jobs and things I have done. God will show me more as time goes on. I am sure of it. Just wonder "why do we have to wait for Him to do something big until we notice Him?" No matter how many times we have been through it if it is the same way, our sinful flesh will never understand and will always fear God. It is our time to spend time with the Spirit and God so that we learn how to hear them both and then trust them enough to do it.
It is hard because I'm not in the Christmas mood yet. Hopefully, I will be in the coming weeks like by next week because I don't want to miss out on a great, long Christmas with my family and friends.
It seems like these past 3 years everything bad happened to me at the end of the year near Christmas. It seems like it was just waiting to make my year bad. It all plies up for me at the end of the year. I will say that since 2012 starting in Oct. I lost my Grandad and then in Dec. quit my 1st job in AR. In Nov. 2013, I grew away from a good friend and in Dec. of that year I was all by myself at work, which was fun but hard. Then this past month (Nov. 2014) I lost a really close adult friend that was like a 2nd dad to me. It has just been hard for me when it shouldn't be. It is like my life is starting all over for the new year.
Another thing that I thought about and it was strange is that December is Advent and all these things have happened to me before Advent so I could maybe learn something about Hope, Joy, Peace, and Love. It is like God saying, "It is time to start over or onto something new. Just have hope and joy and peace in me and know that I Love you." I remember way back in December of 2007, I changed my major not long after that because that is when my Grandpa died. Just strange how God is doing that in my life. I was born in December and lately in the past years it has been like I have been reborn again. He is making me into the person that I need to be.
It is sad that He has to get my attention that way sometimes but I mean death does happen and what better way to look at it then to think God is using it to change you especially in my way lately. It is strange because since I have moved to AR this all has happened. Sometimes if God has to get our attention that way then that means we are too busy or just not listening. I know back in college, back in 2012, and right now I had/have been thinking about things and not doing anything about those thoughts. Sometimes it worries me but yet sometimes it turns out for the best if I take those chances.
I still don't see all of the reason why I changed my major but I do see little pieces here and there in all of the jobs and things I have done. God will show me more as time goes on. I am sure of it. Just wonder "why do we have to wait for Him to do something big until we notice Him?" No matter how many times we have been through it if it is the same way, our sinful flesh will never understand and will always fear God. It is our time to spend time with the Spirit and God so that we learn how to hear them both and then trust them enough to do it.
It is hard because I'm not in the Christmas mood yet. Hopefully, I will be in the coming weeks like by next week because I don't want to miss out on a great, long Christmas with my family and friends.
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